A
HEARTS
CRY
MY POEMS


Through the yelling,
And the screaming,
My heart cries.
The stupid arguments,
The words said,
That never should have been,
My heart cries.
Why cant we stop?
And just go back to when
We loved each other
As I know we once did.
The pain is so great.
That is why
My heart cries!

I wrote these poems when I was in pain emotionally. It my hope that as you read my “hearts cry” that you will read them as if your mate is saying it to you and you’ll reflect on this book and after you finish you’ll change!


TITLE PAGE

A hearts cry cover
The lights of home 1
Torn between extreams 2
Homemaker or home wrecker? 3
Two bodies……..Two hearts 4

Will you heal? 5
The sight of you 6
BITCH 7
What’s the point? 8
I could almost say 9
You started 10
What’s enough? 11
There was a time 12
Why do you do this? 13

Why do you hurt me? 14
Sex with you 15
We were together one night 16
Why don’t you just shut up 17
What did I want in a wife? 18
Our rings, Our love 19
Why won’t you let me go? 20

A hearts cry 2 21
Teach me to love 22
Why do I love you? 23
Homemaker or home wrecker 2 24
You ask me why I hate you so 25
One little statement 26
What do you care about 27
What broke us up? 28
Communication 29
I’m so sorry 30
Lovest thou me? 31
Buzz, Buzz, Buzz 32
How to break a heart 33
Where were you? 34
Why don’t you listen? 35
What’s love? 36
A couples dream 37
Lovest thou me 2 38
When things appear wrong 39
One more chance 40


THE LIGHTS OF HOME
Have you ever far away did roam
And upon your return did see, The lights of home?
It mattered not wether far or near,
You felt a warm feeling, you hold so dear.
That every time you see those lights,
It seems the darkest hour, has turned so bright.
It seemed to you no matter how far you roamed,
They always say, “welcome home!”


TORN BETWEEN EXTREAMS
One side man-the other side monster
Torn between extreams.
One side loves-the other side hates
Torn between extreams.
A father, A husband, A lover, A monster:
Torn between extreams
Sane but insane
At peace but at war,
God fearing but sinner,
Its so plain, it’ll drive you insane……..
When you’re ……………..
TORN BETWEEN EXTREAMS!


HOMEMAKER OR HOME WRECKER:
Everything we do-Everything we say
Either builds the foundation
Or puts bricks in the way
Every little word-every little deed
Either destroys the other person
Or gives help, when in times of need
The tongue is a sword
Cutting and unkind
Whatever it is you speak
That which is on your mind
Take a word of heed from this poem
And keep your marriage strong
Build up your mate
Your lover, your friend, all the day long


TWO BODIES…………TWO HEARTS
Two bodies, two hearts
It ought not to be
In a place called marriage.
One goes left, the other goes right,
When they meet in the middle
There’s always a fight.
The good book says:
And these two shall be one:
Its one purpose,
One direction,
One life,
Guided by one will,
One plan,
Written on pages so long ago
When two who are supposed to be one stay two:
Someone please tell me
what are they suppose to do?


Will you heal?
The Master called and asked, “wilt thou be healed?”
The bruises, the hurts, the pain,
Wilt thou be healed?
The first step is to forgive,
Wilt thou be healed?
The next step is to believe,
Wilt thou be healed?

The third step is to love,
Wilt thou be healed?
The final step is for you to take:
Wilt thou be healed?


THE SIGHT OF YOU
One time the sight of you filled me with love
Now I wonder what did I ever see in you?
One time I could never take my eyes off of you
Now the sight of you makes me sick
What is that turned My love to hate?
My hope to despair?
My longing to loathing?
One thing, the woman I used to love
The darkness of your heart, the ugliness of your soul
The uncareingness of your spirit
In short…………………..
You did!


BITCH
Belligerent
Incorrigible
Testy
Caustic
HEARTLESS


WHAT’S THE POINT?
When love dies
What’s the point of going on?
When all you say are lies.
What’s the point of going on?
When your gifts bring sadness.
What’s the point of going on?
When “I love you” means nothing.
What’s the point of going on?


I COULD ALMOST SAY
When I hold you in bed
I could almost say………
But then morning comes
And reality sets in
When we sit (sat) together
By the puzzle or side by side
I could almost say…….
But when you scream
At me, at my son, at the cat,
Those emotions just go away.
Then the words…….
Just turn to…
I HATE YOU
AND
I want you to go away


YOU STARTED
First thing in the morning
Nag, Bitch, Moan, Groan, Complain,
What ever happened to :“I’ll change!”?
You pushed and you yelled what you want,
But you did one last thing
YOU LIED!!!!!!!!!


WHAT’S ENOUGH?
We share a house
Is that enough?
We share a bed
Is that enough?
We shared each other and had a son
Is that enough?
The sad answer is no!
We don’t laugh together
We don’t cry together
What we have is not enough,
To break through the wall that is
Me to make us, us then
That will be enough


THERE WAS A TIME:
There was a time I loved you
But no more
There was a time you meant something to me
But no more
I wanted you at one time
But no more
You mean nothing to me
I don’t want you anymore
Please just go away
And never return
I hate you with all I am…..
You broke my heart…..
But NO MORE!!!!!


WHY DO YOU DO THIS?
You either talk over me
Or bitch at me
Why do you do this?
You don’t let me talk
You cant let me be
Why do you do this to me?

I wish you’d go away
I don’t want you anymore
Why do you make me feel this way?
Why?
Why?
Why?
Why?


WHY DO YOU HURT ME?
When the headache rages,
When the anger roars,
You fuel the beast within,
Poking the monster with your barbs and slurs
And when I do begin to finally rest,
Retreating to a quiet place
You enter and start it all over again!
Why do you hurt me?
Why?
Why?
Why?


SEX WITH YOU:
Two bodies joined as one,
Two different ideas
I want to please you,
What are you thinking?
Where are you?
Two bodies
One moving-the other not,
Where are you?
Sex should be about two being one,
Both pleasing the other.
Loving, kissing, moving, feeling.
Sex with you is none of the above.
It’s just well…..
SEX
No love
No passion
No hope
No reason for it
Despair! Useless! Unsatisfying! Sex!


We were together one night
You and me
Body to body, the way it should be
I felt you so close to me
I thought this is how we need to be
Not just the sex but the closeness
But I knew when the act was done,
So would our closeness be over
Why dear is it like this?


Why don’t you just shut up?
All you do is tell me what to do.
Why don’t you just shut up?

You yell, scream and bitch at my son
Why don’t you just shut up?
You worry about your past and your failures
Why don’t you just shut up?
After 14 years of this mindless chatter
All I want you to do is
Shut up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


What did I want in a wife?
A helper suitable to me,
An agape, a lover, someone who would be there.
What did I get?
A bitchy, selfish, woman,
Who loves only herself
I didn’t get what I wanted!
I wanted a woman I could:
Laugh with and cry with
A woman who needed me
And whom I would need
I didn’t get what I wanted!


OUR RINGS, OUR LOVE:
My ring represents how love should be,
Your ring represents how your love is.
My ring has no beginning and no end,
Your ring has a center point, a look at me!
My ring is plain.
Your ring is decorated.
My ring is like true love
My ring is like is like true love, without end.
Your ring points only to you.
Which love is true?
Yours or mine?


WHY WONT YOU LET ME GO?

If I’m so stupid, as you call me almost everyday.
WHY WONT YOU LET ME GO?
If I’m such a pig, a slob,
or any other names you call me.
WHY WONT YOU LET ME GO?
If I’m such an embarrassment to you,
WHY WONT YOU LET ME GO?

You wont talk to me, except to whine at me.
WHY WONT YOU LET ME GO?

You make me sick, I want you to let me be.
WHY WONT YOU LET ME GO?
If I’m as nasty, as you say I am.
WHY WONT YOU LET ME GO?
If I’m as mean, as you say I am.
WHY WONT YOU LET ME GO?
If I do all these things to you,
wouldn’t it be wise for you to
Just LET ME GO.


A hearts Cry 2
The walls we built
Are so big so high and so tall
When one takes a brick away
The other puts it back
It’s no wonder why we scream at each other
The walls are so thick so high so tall
We are surrounded by towers
You and me
Towers of our own making


Teach Me To Love
Lord teach me to love,
Because I’ve lost my way.
My life is filled with strife
Please show me the way
He said:
Follow me, I’ve shown you how.
Give all of yourself to others
Love fully
Trust unconditionally
Give as I gave
Follow me!


Why do I love you?
You think our son is a brat
When confusion fills his mind
You think, and call me a bastard
When you and I dissagree
You flip me off
When frustrated with me.
Love is a two way street
The way you don’t want to go
Why wont you love us?


Homemaker or home wrecker II
Everything we do,
Everything we say,
Either brings us closer together
Or drives us further away
Every little word
Every little deed
Either helps or hurts us
When in time of need
So listen to this poem
And guard your words carefully
Or destroy your mate,
Your relationship, your marriage
And end up in misery


You ask me why I hate you so
You bitch at me,
You interrupt me
You talk on the phone for hours
Or just talk to yourself
You never take my yes as a yes
And my no as a no
So tell me why do I hate you so?


One little statement
We can’t talk to each other
When I make a statement
A doubt, a fear, a wonder,
You ask a question
Then you have to ask “one more question”
That turns into ten questions
You refuse to see how that aggravates me
You wont stop asking questions
when will you shut up?


What do you care about?
When what you care about
Is more than who you care about
Lovest thou me?
When household chores
Means more to you than me and ours
Lovest thou me?
When rock and roll fills your head
And you rather that I were dead
Lovest thou me?


What broke us up?
What broke us up my dear?
You started reading your books,
I went to my computer.
That started to break us up.
You found chores to do,
I found new hobbies.
That started to break us up.
Finally
We were no longer us
Stuck in our own little world
That’s what broke us up!


COMMUNICATION
Communication is:
Soul to Soul
Heart to Heart
Mind to Mind
Never using:
Put downs
Or
Cut downs
No matter what is said:
You can hear
“I love you”
With each word and phrase
Ringing loud and clear!


I’M SO SORRY

Three words I(we) really need to say.
But before they come out
You yell, scream and swear,
At me, our son, at the cat.
Then the beast within roars like a lion.
Then we tear into each other like animals
Like two people who hate each other.
So I end this poem with these three words…
I’m so sorry


LOVEST THOU ME?
You constantly nag at me,
Lovest thou me?
You rather watch your shows,
Than be with me.
Lovest thou me?
With your words
You jump all over me
For any and every little thing.
Lovest thou me?
You nit pick things to death.
Lovest thou me?
You worry to the point of distraction.
Lovest thou me?
You scream rather than talk
Lovest thou me?
You read more than spend time with me
Lovest thou me?
You stay in the tub more than stay with me
Lovest thou me?


BUZZ,BUZZ,BUZZ

When you speak to me,
All I hear is:
Buzz, Buzz, Buzz.
You say something to me,
All I hear is:
Buzz, Buzz, Buzz.
You nag at me,
All I hear is:
Buzz, Buzz, Buzz.
Your words use to fascinate me,
Now all I hear is:
Buzz, Buzz, Buzz.


HOW TO BREAK A HEART
How to break a heart
To break someone heart
Its not hard to do.
Take 1 Corinthians 13
And do the opposite
That’s all there is to do
Be impatient and unkind
Let jealousy rule and be envious
Boast and have a me first attitude,
Be a rude and pushy person
Be selfish then:…….
CRACK


WHERE WERE YOU?
Where were you?
In 2004 where were you?
My 16 year old dog died,
I had to put her down.
Where were you?
My grandmother died,
Where were you?
At her funeral arrangements,
Where were you?
When my aunt died,
Where were you?
I’ll tell you where!
With my pet of 16 years
You worried about money
With my grandma
You worried about you
With my aunt
You worried about my time off.
Where were you when I needed you most?
NO WHERE! THAT’S WHERE!


WHY DON’T I LISTEN?
Why don’t I listen to you?
You worry about things you don’t need to,
Then yack at me about them all night long!
You enter a room talking,
Never addressing whom you are speaking to,
Then get mad when no one answers you.
You nag, complain, and bitch at me 24/7.
And when I talk you wont listen.
So why don’t you tell me
Why wont I listen to you?


WHAT’S LOVE?
What’s Love? What does it mean?
The good book tells us:
Love is patient!
Which means we wait on each other.
Love is kind!
Which means in word ,deed, action, and thought!
It does not envy!
Which may cause us to spend.
It is not proud!
Which may cause us to fall.
It is not rude!
Which means we never put our mates down.
It is not selfish!
‘Nuff said here!
It is not easily angered!
Nor does it try to anger.
It keeps no record of wrongs!
Love forgives and love forgets!
It does not delight in evil!
It never says: “I told you so!”
It rejoices in the truth!
Love picks up the other
Love never fails!


A COUPLES DREAM
A couples dream:
To love, laugh and enjoy each other:
To have and to hold.
To team together, to get things done.
God loves us and wants us to love each other:
No one needs to be the boss.
Everyone must be quiet at the sound of the bell,
Enjoy each other, help each other,
Dear Jesus please help me and my friends
Learn your love:
Amen!


Lovest thou me (2)?
On my day(s) off
Your thoughts are on what’s on tv?
So I ask you,
Lovest thou me?
I reach for you
And you deny me,
Even the small pleasure of a touch,
So I ask you,
Lovest thou me?
At every turn
You think only of you.
So the final question,
In this travesty of a marriage
Is
Lovest thou me?


WHEN THINGS APPEAR WRONG
How things appear
Sometimes thru tired eyes
Things appear wrong
Sometimes with a tired mind
Things appear wrong
When we are awake and rested
Things appear wrong
The latter is when we need
To work on those things that
Really my dear Are wrong!


ONE MORE CHANCE!
That’s what you asked me for.
Just one more chance,
I’ll change, you cried.
But the next morning,
It’s the same ole things.
You start with our son,
You made him mad.
He retaliated back at you,
Now you want him punished?
What about “I’ll change?”
So my dear you wasted,
Your last chance
GOOD BYE!


If these poems are your hearts cry as well then I hope you and your mate will seek help right away! The whole point of this book is that you and your mate will see both of your “hearts cry” will be healed to the point where your cry will become laughter and your tears will be tears of joy

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Tag der Veröffentlichung: 30.05.2011

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