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When I was a small child my grandfather told me a tale.That when someone is born into this world they have a an invisble to the human eye red string.The red string was attatched to thier destiny.

I asked very happily, "Grandpa do I have a red string?"

My grandfather's face got hard and very coldly said "No child you are the one who has no destiny soon you will die.You die your soul will disappear never to go to heaven or hell,neither wonder the earth.You will never be anything,not human,not animal or plant.You are just an body with no soul"

I busted out crying and thats when my nanny came and got me.
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Every since that day I been able to see dead people,the soul with in a person and people with red string.I became jealous of the people with the red string they had something to live for and I did not.

I even envy the dead people,even through they were die,at least they had a soul.I looked at mother and father each had a red string and a soul.

When I looked into the mirror all I saw was a girl with hole in her heart,where her soul was expose to be.I soon became a hatful little thing,I would no longer talk or laugh.I wouldnt even smile,what was the piont of all those things?If soon you will be dead.

MY parents sense there was something wrong with me,so they took to a phycailgist.She was a fat woman with big black hair.I saw her string it was about to brake meaning she would soon die.

She would ask me questions about my family and school.I just stared at her blankly,even through she was about to die,I still hated her for having a string.4 times a week I would vist her and say nothing at all.

Then when may 3 2001,I was 8 by then,the fat woman die.I my parents made me go to her funeral,everyone there cried except me.I saw the fat woman ghost smiling up at a light that came out of no where and then she vanish.I knew she went to heaven,I hated her more for being a loud to go to heaven.

After another 2 months of no talking and being emotionless my parnets adopted a young boy about my age.I guess he was my replacment,he wanted to play with me offten.But I would just look at him and walk away.

I envy him,and I hate him some much.One day I decided to just lay in bed and die.I wanted to get out this world.My parents tried to get me out of bed but I wouldnt move.So they left me for days just laying there.

My nanny and the boy came to see once in while.Sooner or later I stopped eating and sleepping all together.I just wanted to die.I became weak and skinny,the boy came to see me every day by then.

One day right outside my door I heard my mother yelling at the boy for coming to see me.
"Dont go near that girl she nothing"my mother shouted.
"How can she be nothing if she right there"Argued the boy.

Thats when I got out of bed with all my strenth.I came to the door and open it.My mother and the boy stood there shooked to see me out of bed.

I open my dry mouth and said in a tiny vioce
"She right I am a NOTHING"

Thats when I fainted,the very next day I die.

Chapter 1

Looks like grandfather was right I will not go to heaven or hell,neither wonder the earth.I'm just floating in pinch blackness.It seems like I only be here for 5 minutes.

Then again why do I have breast and taller.If I die at age 8 then,why do I have a young adult body.To think about I just open my eyes and I was here.

I looked around,nothing at all but blackness.I tried to think of my name but my head is blank.Who am I?Where am I?

"You are nan mo nai."said a deep vioce.
I looked around but only saw blackness.
"Who there?"I dont understand.
"You are in the black voide"

Who ever there was,that person was answering my questions.

"Im nan mo Nai?Is that japaness,Im not japaness."
"You are not Japaness but that is what we call you nothings"
"Who are you?"
"You shall find out later child,no more questions i most leave you"
"WAIT!"I was reaching out for something.

I called for the vioce a couple more times but no answer.

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