CHP.1
{{{You are the kind of girl, That has the chemicals, to make me stir at night- (Partly) from ETF "Beautiful"}}}

I smile up at Eli. He looks at me weird. "Will you marry me?" I ask. He laughs, horrified, "NO!" WHooaaa. Thats not what the boy says. I fall off my swing. I stare at my skinned knees. "Owww..." I mutter. He doesn't move. I gulp. I laugh it off.


I gasp for air. That damn dream. I look out the window, to find that his yard now has no swing set. Okay, it was just a memory. I'd been having dreams of him alot now. Which was very, very unfortunate.

I grab my books and run out my front door, only to slip on the ice and hit my head. I let out several curse words, some I made up. "Gawdnuggit!" I yell. I don't like swearing in puplic. The dirty looks I get in school are enough. I just lay there, like I mean't to do it.

"Are you okay, Brandy?" Eli's mother asks, as he stands awkwardly by her. At least you remember my name. I nod. "Sure, Fine." I say, closing my eyes. Okay, I'll get up and walk away... wait, I'm really tired. Great. Moo! Just fricken Moo! Now that I'm uncapable to swear in my head with the pain, which is making me weak, I think I'll just sit here. Maybe they'll just go away-"Brandy?-Eli, go get her parents, NOW." His mother says. I stir.

Dark. It's now dark, but I can hear voices. Yeah, there are voices. "Brandy, answer." I hear. YEah, YEah, five more minutes...

Wait. Where am I? This room is too bright. I open my eyes and immediatly shut them. "Owww..." I groan. "Where am I?" I ask. I hear my mom laugh, releived. "Your at the hospital." My dad answers. I groan. "Pain?" Some man asks. I shake my head. "No, Just being myself. Attracking attention when I really don't need it." I say. "Can I go back to bed, now?" I ask. I hear a faint laugh..and I'm out.


I sit in my old classroom. Middle school. Ah. How I hate it, except the boy I like is correcting my paper. I smile sweetly at him as he smiles back up. After awhile he taps my shoulder. "Your middle name is June, Really?" He laughs likes thats the most stupidest, obvious thing. "Were your parents drunk when they named you?" He laughs. I laugh along with him. Ha. Ha. I try to smile. It fools him. "I know, right? I think they were." I turn and blush, but not with the same feeling. Ass. Just like Eli. Every boy.


I open my eyes. I was in my room again. "You feeling okay?" My mother asks. I shrug. "How'd I get here?" I ask. I'm going insane. So insane. I groan. "You probably were still asleep when we brought you home." I smile inspite of my inside joke. I'm not insane?!? Yay!!!! (Question mark) "When do I get to go back?" I ask. "Whenever you feel better." My mother says. I nod and she excuses herself. I sit up. I turn and grab my garbage can. I wretch really loud, which is very embarrassing, but helpful. My mother hurridly pulls my long black wavy hair back. IT feels soft against my cheek. I'm going to have to take a shower. I groan when I stop. I hurry to my shower. "I'm going to the store, you'll be alright alone?" My mother calls. I yell, I reply near Yes. I hear the door slam. I start the shower and get in.


I'm standing in my yard. All of my friends and people who aren't strangers stand in a group, watching me. I squint at them. I see Eli. He comes up, and hugs me, sending a big fresh hair to me. I breathe it in. AHhh. THis is nice. They watch and smile. I hold him tighter.


I wake up. Am I this suicidal? I get out of my tub in time to hear a knock at the door. I swear and get a towel on. I open the door. Cold air. "I-I-Hi, Jun-I mean, Brandi. I just brought you your homework." The first thought in my mind was-he looks better up close. Wait, What? I gulp. "Thanks, Eli." I sound better than him. Thats A plus. He doesn't know what to do, either do I. "Come in..." I say awkwardly, avoiding his eyes. I hear my phone ring. "Crap! Just a sec-" I run to the phone.


(Eli)

She looks different up close. All of her baby fat is gone. Her cheeks arent very boney either. She looks different. I can't explain this to myself, of course. Shes not younger than me. She looks like the playful soul she was when I didn't try to get rid of her. Hey, I was a boy, what the hell did I know? I hear her coming back, still in her towel.
I try to look in her eyes, avoiding any other areas. "Sorry." Shes flustered. "Thanks, though-you didn't-" I wave it of, like a complete weirdo. "It's fine. Look-I have to go-" "Fine-fine." She says, blushing when she finally looks at me, looking at her up and town. Damn curiousity. Soical suicide.

I run across the street to my house.


(Brandy)
Well, That wasn't weird. But, I don't feel hate... Yes you do! You have for two years! or were you lying to yourself? Maybe... Oh, great. silently losing insanity as my mother makes arrangements for her to take me to school, personally. Then my mind drifts to the dream. HE was so different. He was nice. Good. Beautiful. The way I use to think of him... I shake my head and finish my homework.


. . .


I go carefully down the steps and smile at Eli's mom. I get into my Mothers car and close my eyes. When I get into the school and my friends rush up, I feel way better. I smile, but when Eli passes me in the hall... I feel confused, stupid, ugly. I do something even stupider. ((I know thats not a word, but that explains me every minute I'm alive)) I wave and smile. he almost trips and waves back. Crap.


Someone, Give me a reason why I just did that. Please. I'm not my own self anymore.


I continue to turn and hopefully have a normal face. I walk down the hall to my first class.


. . .


I yawn and fall on my bed. Tired...


(Eli)


I open my eyes and I'm in a forest..with waterfalls and everything. I sit up. IS this a dream. I pinch myself. No feeling... I've had weird dreams like these. I stand up and walk towards one of the streams. I see something move. Another chase dream? Well, here I go.


(Brandy)
Another chase dream? Great. I never get tired, but it gets annoying. this place is pretty. Who would think I'd like to look? Of course not! I mentally sigh. I trip. I've never fell down before. I never got to see who was chasing me ,ever.


(Eli)
She stopped. I'm positive that its a girl. But she never stops. I've never been able to see who it was, because the chase was endless...

She stays down, I see her bare back. She is afriad. I bend down. "Who are you?" I ask. She turns, surprise on her face. I turn, surprise on mine. "Your-your-Eli?" She says. "I'm dreaming of you?" I ask. "No I'm dreaming of you." she says. I argue.


(Brandy)
I stand up. "Maybe this is my dream...dreaming of you...becuase I dreamed of you last night..." I say. He laughs. "I'm dreaming. I am." "Lets not waste the dream." I say suddenly. Why waste a good dream? "Lets go do something and stop arguing." I say, getting up. If this is just a dream, I can jump off of this waterfall. I smile. I start to run. Waterfall....Waterfall. I stop and look down. I look over my shoulder at Eli. He tries to stop, but he can't. we go down. I scream. we rush down to the water...


I sit up in bed. Holy crap. another dream, and he's actually acting like himself? I get out of bed. It's late. I might as well go out to eat. I get out of my bed and walk to my car. I get in and hurry to somewhere. AS I'm driving I see Eli Running. I go to hit the gas, then wonder, why not? I slow my car. "Want a ride?" I ask as my window decends. He stops. He stares for a second and shrugs. "Yeah, sure." He gets in the passanger seat and I can feel the cold radiate off of him. "Jeez." I mutter and turn up the heat. He smiles a thanks and looks out the window. "Where to?" I ask.


(Eli)
I can't breathe, and I can't help myself when I gasp out, "Food." She laughs. She finally stops at a resteraunt. We go in and The lady accidently seats us at a table for two-the lovers seat. I just laugh it off, but I'm not really here. I'm in my dream. I look back up at her. I want to ask. "What do you think of dreams?" I ask. She looks startled. "What kind of dreams?" She asks. I shrug and smile. "Their pretty cool, I guess." She replies. I laugh. It's not funny, but her answer is not different from mine. I do something that startles both of us.
I reach over and grab her hand. "Guessing is a form of unsure-ness." I say. She pulls away, trying to hide her red cheeks. I smile, brushing it off. "So, what do you do these days?" I ask. She shrugs. "Nothing important." She says. "C'mon. You can't hate me forever." I say. She looks up. I can tell she doesn't mean to say such hurtful words when they come out, but it still hurts when she makes my guessing final-"I have for, like, three years, what would change that?" She covers her mouth. "Eli-" I shake my head. Ow. "You still hate me, Juno?" I ask, serious. I know I used her nick name. Crap.
She stares at me. "I-I-I don't think I do. I don't need to, but I sure as hell feel like it." She says. I laugh. "Your pretty when you stutter." I say. SHe gulps. "Shut up, ELi." She says. She's blushing. Okay, I'm totally flirting, but its damn fun. "Alrighty, then." I say, sitting back. The fries we ordered come and I'm the first one to dig in. I groan in happiness.
"Hold on kid, no need to have an orgasm." She mutters. I laugh. "Alright, tell me about Juno, I mean, BRANDY." I say. She smiles in an evil way. Oh uh. "Well, personally-" She gives me a wink. "I fell, and I have a bruise the size of your dick on my ass-it's very small." She says, blushing. I freeze. She startes giggling. She tries to have a striaght face but she can't. I throw a fry at her and begin laughing. "Okay, thats not me, but I tried." She says, eating the fry I threw at her.
"Of course," She continues as she gets some ketchup. "I still hate you, but that doesn't mean I can't hang out with you-right?" She looks at me. When I just smile an, I-can't-believe-this-shit smile and don't answer, she shrugs. "Right...And lets go over why you hate me." I say. "It was a long time ago." She says. "Ah. My f*cking point exactly, Brandy!" I say. She rolls her eyes. "Keep it up and your not getting a ride home." She says, eating another fry, avoiding my gaze. "Why are you so stupid?" I ask. She looks up. "Stupid?" She asks, hurt and dumbfounded. "Yeah, your hanging on a grudge..." I say. She smiles a sad smile. "Yeah, but its not like your adding fuel to the fire, huh?" She asks, angry.
"What does that mean?" I ask. "You sure as hell didn't want to become friends a few years ago, a few months ago, a few weeks ago, a few days ago!" She yells. poeple look over. "You didn't either." I say. She snorts. "Remember when I tried to wave at you? Uh-uh, becuase you didn't and wont care." She says.
"The only reason-" "Why do you want to talk to me now? Becuase you FEEL bad, well I'm sorry, I didn't think THAT, because I didn't know you FELT things, not unless-" I get up. "I just don't understand." She finishes. "Either do I." I say. "I'm leaving. I tried." I say, anger building.
Damn Her. Gawddamn her for being so difficult.


Chapter 2 ((Difficult so very difficult))

(Brandy)
I'm not used to you. I'm not used to this. The ass. I sit and munch on fries as I cry. "Stupid idiot." I try to say. I pay for the bill and don't bother to wipe my stupid little tears away. "LABEL me!" I scream. I get in my car and sit there. There is a knocking on my window. I turn and its Eli. He looks cold. "Wouldn't make a difference. He is cold hearted.
I roll down my window. "Get in the car, Eli." I say, unlocking my door. "Brandy?" He asks, surpirsed. "GET.THE.F*CK.IN THIS CAR." I order. He stares for a minute and then gets in the car. He goes to touch me, but the thing is? I don't mean to flinch, but I just don't flinch, I practically push my self against the car, looking scared. "Don't touch me." I say. He slowly pulls away. "What the hell is wrong with you?" HE asks. I laugh and snort. "Can't you see? Everything." I turn to him.
"I hate you! Can't you let me hate you? It's hard when your being so...so Different from the last time. I-I-I can't comprehend!" I yell. He sits there silent. "It's so damn easy when you are easy to hate, but now, I want to be friends. and I can't." I say. I mean, you can't be friends in like, twenty minutes after you've hated a boy for three years. Can you? Or maybe I didn't hate him. I shake my head and sigh. I then wipe my tears and start the car. This is stupid. He is still stupid. This is stupid. I go as fast as I can and when I get to are houses, I park in my space and he gets up, walking into his door. "Of course." I mutter. H then turns and waves.


(ELi)
She wants to be friends. Do I want to be friends? Maybe. No. Yes. I don't know! Shes so mean. so stupid. I hit my head on a pillow. My phone rings. I open it.

HI!


It reads. I then reply,


WHO IS THIS?????


UR WORST NIGHTMARE< BABY


FREDDY CRUGER?


UH. YEZ LETS GO WITH THAT.


OKAY. FINE. FREDDY. WHY THE HELL ARE YOU TEXTING ME


BECUZ I WANT TO HAVE DINNER.


OH GOD. NO. WHO THE HELL IS THIS


USING GOD AND HELL IN THE SAME TEXT IS JUST WRONG


SHUT UP AND ANSWER MY Q AND, NOT SO BAD URSELF.


HEY, II'M A FREAKIN JESUS FREAK, BABE.


I LIKE GIRLS WHO WEAR A CROSS. WHO IS THIS?


THE GIRL NEXT DOOR.


I freeze. brandy?


JUNO?


NO


What the hell?


BRANDY, IDIOT.


I laugh.


ALRIGHT. BRANDY. WHATS UP.

THE FRICKEN SKY. FORGET I CRIED, KAY?


I WOULDN'T COUNT ON THAT.


WHY? =[


BECUZ. THATS THE ONLY EMOTION YOU HAVE SHOWN FOR ME.


JEEZ. YOU DAMN LOOSER!


YOU KNOW YOU LOVE ME.

THATS WHAT I'M AFRIAD OF.


She sure could text fast. she seems nice though. I don't know what to say, so I ask,

Y????

BECUZ, WHO WANTS TO BE MY FRIEND?


ME. BFFF!


IT ONLY HAS TO FS, GENIUS.

BEST FRIENDS FOR EVER & EVER!

FU

HA. HA. FUNNY.

IDIOT.


FIND A NEW NAME. THATS BORING.


DAMN YOU!


THATS NOT REALLY BETTER.

SMARTASS

I LIKE THAT.


GOOD.


GOODNIGHT. HAVE GOOD DREAMS.


RIGHT. U TOO.


I can't stop smiling. I think I fall asleep smiling.


I'm in a rain storm. By the dark beach. I don't usually dream like this. I turn. "Your in my dream again, idiot." She says. I smile. "Your cute when your angry." I say. She smiles. "And your ugly when you cry." I laugh. MAn, she is so mean. "Lets make the best of this, like you said, this is a freestyle dream, i guess, MY freestyle dream." I say. "It's mine." She says. "No sense to argue with what my imagination thinks you are." SHe says. I laugh. "What?" I ask. "Nothing." She mutters. "Alright, I'll prove to you, I'll ask you tommorrow." I say. She laughs. "Alright." she says.


I gasp. Damn. again.


(BRandy)

My phone rings and I pick it up. I groan with grogginess.


WHAT DID YOU DREAM OF?


I reply,

YOU

half joking.


I DREAMT OF YOU.


RIGHT. AND UNICORNS FLY


THEY DO


ITS 4 IN THE MORN. WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT?


TO PROVE ITS MY DREAM. IT IS MINE!!! HA!


I freeze. Holy shit. I don't text back.


YA RIGHT, DICK FACE.

I say.

ITS MY DREAM.

I add. no reply.

a few minutes later....


WTF?


I KNOW.


HOW ARE YOU IN MY DREAMS?

HOW ARE YOU IN MINE?

WERE F*CKED.

YUP.


LETS GO GET F*CKED UP AND DIE


I add quickly, joking.


WHAT IF WE JUST ACCIDENTLY THINK...THINGS.


CAN YOU READ MINDS?

HE replies with a,


I DON'T THINK SO


THEN ITS NOT ACCIDENTAL. I CAN'T READ MINDS.


GUESS NOT. LETS TRY AGAIN TOMMORROW. I'M NOT SURE THIS IS ALL VERY TRUST WORTHY.


YOUR JUST NOT TRUSTWORTY OF ME
I LOVE YOU, BFFF


2 F'S IDIOT.

NIGHT

NIGHT


I put my cell down and stare at the ceiling. Were probably freaking out.


I woke up with no dreams. NONE. just proves my point, and his. We just had the same dream. He talks to me quickly before running away to class. I sit in my desk, not wanting to go through the day. I groan.


(ELI)

I sit at the table and wonder aboiut last night. Texting her is fun. She is more, herself. As for the dreams, I don't want to know. I'll just not bring it up or anything.


...............


I sit by by the ocean, pretty ocean. I see her and smile. "I think we share dreams." She says suddenly. When she sees my expression, she rolls her eyes. "Everyone shares dreams, we just so happen to meet up." She says, smiling in triumph. "Lets go do some cool things, just let go, or whatever. C'mon." She says, running into the water.
I follow her, and as I do, I notice the purple dress she wears. Then I hit the water, and it's dark now. Midnight. "Whoa..." We both say in amazement. "This is so, unnatural!" She yells, splashing water at me. I laugh and do the same.


.....................


(BRandy)

I wake up, smiling. I giggle. I hurry and grab my phone.


(Eli)


My phone rings.


I DREAMT OF THE BEACH && YOU

I smile. I forward her message back to her.

NICE. WHATS ON YOUR SATURDAY SCHEDULE?


UH. SLEEPING.

REALLY?


SURE.


YOUR THE ONE THAT SURE-NESS IS NOT BEING SURE???


ALRIGHT, WHATS UP?


I'M BORED OUT OF MY PANTS.


WE COULD MAKE A PORNO >=]


UH. I'M NOT THAT KIND OF GIRL, ELI. BUT i'LL MAKE A PLAYLIST.


ELI AND BRAnDY'S INFINITE PLAYLIST?


YEAH.


SOUNDS LIKE FUN. MEET ME OUTSIDE IN TWO MINUTES. 2!


ALRIGHT, ELI. JEEZ.


I hurry and get ready. I meet her outside. "Whats up?" She asks. "We are going to the carniville!" I yell. She laughs. Hands in her pockets, hair in her face, and her breath visible in the cold air, she looks really pretty.

Pretty....


I get my car and move all of my junk out of the way so she could get in. We go to the carniville. I park. We get our tickets from an annoyed looking woman. We go on the ferris wheel first.

"Ahhh!" She screams when it stops. "Okay, I just wont look." She says. I laugh. she hits me. WE go on like this until late. She ends up puking, and I hold her hair back, then I puke and she holds my things. We laugh really hard all the way home. "good night, Eli." She says. I smile.

"Good night, Juno." Her old nickname feeling right on my lips. She turns and walks away, then she turns to me and walks backwards. She gives me a small wave. "See you in my dreams!" I yell, seeing my own breath in the cold air. She laughs. "Think of somewhere warm!" She turns and starts to run up her stairs. I run into my house and lay on my bed, smiling.


It's dark, but there is a little light...
I can tell becuase there is heat. skin that shines and looks so smooth. so soft.... My hand caresses the skin. I'm breathing....shes breathing. Were gasping for air.... it's dark, but light. Shes soft and pretty. Who is it? Who is it? My lips connect with hers, and it's like I'm connecting to her.
I bite her bottom lip gentelly. I hear her soft sigh of need. MY skin against hers...were the only ones...only ones...hearts beating....


I wake up. I've always had that dream. I never find out who it is. I scare myself into laughing when I think aloud, "Juno." I close my eyes. No. nope. I then fall asleep after awhile.


(Brandy)

My phone rings. I giggle. I text,

WHATS UP?

as a reply to his,

GOOD MORNING.


He texts back,


SCHOOL IS TOMMORROW. =(


I KNOW! D=


DO WE HAVE A TEST?

YUP

CRAAAAAP!

I KNOW, STUPID. HOW WAS YOUR DREAMS?


WELL...I DIDN'T HAVE ANY. WEIRD.


I stop and think, I did. I had a dream. It was..I couldn't explain it to him, I would never want to. it was personal, and sexy. I giggle in spite of my self and text,

NAH. ME EITHER. =]


(Eli)'

I sigh a breath of relief. It wasn't her!!!!! yeah! I kiss my phone, in a happier mood.

WEIRD. MAYBE WE HAD TOO MUCH FUN.


YEAH, I LOVE SEEING MY FOOD COME BACK OUT MY MOUTH.


ME TOO!


RIGHT. WHAT ARE YOU UP TO?


TEXTING SOME1


OH, REALLY? WHO IS IT?


WELL, ITS THIS GIRL.


IS SHE PRETTY?


I DON'T KNOW, I THINK SHE HAS A 3RD EYE.


CAN SHE TELL THE FUTURE?


I DON'T THINK SO, BUT I KNOW 1 THING.


AS LONG AS YOU KNOW SOMETHING, ELI.


SHES IN MY FUTURE. =]


GOOD. =] .... BFF-F!


BEST FRIENDS FOR EVER AND EVER.


I HAVE TO GO TO LUNCH WITH MY FRIENDS. (THE BOYS)


DON'T LIE, I KNOW YOUR WATCHING SOMETHING. LIKE...


A PORNO?


NO, ELI. OF COURSE NOT... FOOTBALL?


RIGHT. ALRIGHT, SEE YOU AT SCHOOL.


YAY. ._.*


I put my phone down and get ready. I eat one of my moms muffins and head out. My friends all smile. I sit down. Darry, my least favorite elbows me after we get our food. "Cassie's checking you out, dude!" I turn and see her look away. The new girl at school. she was pretty. I could care less, but I'm single and starting to hate it. I walk over to her and sit. "Hi." I say. She blushes.

"I'm Eli."

"I know." she says in a quiet voice.

"You have really pretty eyes." I say, flirting.


(Juno (brandy))

I sit in the cafetiria. There is the boy I've been really liking, if only he'd keep his ass out off trouble so I could see him. He looks at me. He's probably looking at someone else... I turn. no one is there.
I turn back to him, and he is still staring at me. His eyes are hidden behind the long bangs he has. I blush and look away.
He walks over and sits closer, staring at me. I blush redder and avoid eye contact.


Then Cassie, the new girl sits across from me. "Hi..." I say. "Hello." She looks past me and blushes. "Hey cass..." I hear ELi's voice. "hey, Eli." She says. I smile. "Hey." I mutter. He sits next to her. "Want to go to the carniville?" He asks. I go to answer when I realize, hes not talking to me. I smile as she nods. Wow. why am I so jealous. I turn and look at the boy who has been staring at me.


(Eli)

Nothing. I try texting her again.

ANSWER ME!


nothing. I close my eyes...what did I do wrong? When I hear a familiar laugh. I turn and look across the pathway to see Juno trying to et a stuffed animal. She laughs when she misses. Then a boy...I've seen him in the office. He taps her on the shoulder. She immediatly blushes. I read her lips.

Her- "Hi"

Him- "Hi." He holds her phone up.
she pats her pokets. She hits her head and laughs.
Her- "sorry! thanks."
He hands the phone to her, but holds it a second while he stares into her eyes.

"I think I'm going to be sick...." I hear Cassie. I silently agree that I might too.
I hurry her to a garbage and hold her hair. "It'll be alright." I murmur. I remember his name. Johnny. Johnny smiles at her and walks away. I look at Cassie and mumur in her ear.


(Juno)
I'm still blushing. He is so....nice. which is not what I expected. I turn and see Eli, holding Cassie's hair, murmuring in her ear. Puking, she is. She probably looks better than me when I puke. I sigh and turn back. I try to hit the stupid target.


I look at my phone.


3 NEW MESSAGES-3 NEW FRM ELI


HI.


HELLO?


ANSWER ME!


I shake my head and put it in my pocket.


I lay on my bed. I close my eyes, finding myself in a warm beach.


I sit on a rock. "Hey! I dreamt of somewhere warm!" I hear Eli. I half-heartly smile. He sits on the rock with me. "You look pretty with...a bikini." He says. I blush. "Er. Thanks. You looks ugly in jeans." I mutter. Damn. I'm turing mean. He just laughs, though. Brushing it off. I like the way my hair feels on my skin. I stand up. "I'm going to my seperate way." I say. "What?" He asks, sitting up. I just take off running. "Wh-wait! Juno!" He yells, stumbling to catch up with me. I get safely into the woods.


I lunge myself into a tree and turn, looking behind me. I see him enter the little forest. He looks around. He spots me. I stay there. He walks slowly up to me. The tree stands in between us. He then walks around, grabing my hand and turning me around, making my back press agains't the tree. "Why do you run?" He asks. I look down. "I don't know-I guess I wasn't in the mood-"
I start. "Look at me, Look at me dammit!" He yells. I look up at him. "Were friends right?" I nod. "Then give mee a reason to leave you alone." He says. Then he starts to talk all nervous. "I mean, I understand if we weren't friends, then you wouldn't have to give me a reason to leave you alone, but were are so...I need one. I deserve one." He finishes.

I try to look away, but he grabs my other wrist and pins my gently against the tree. "I need one, June." He says, really serious. The sunset lights the trees up. I see our shadows out of the corner of my eyes. It looks like a romantic book cover. The wind blows. "I don't have one." I say honestly. He smiles. "your actually being honest." We still don't move. He then gets closer. I kiss him. His hands move from my wrists to my hands. our hands intertwine. He presses his body into mine.

The sun is warm. His bare chest is warm. How did that even happen? He wraps my arms around his neck, then he wraps his around my waist.


(Eli)

This feels good. I wish it didn't. My hands around her waist, my lips on hers, I realize, Its her. The same pretty smooth soft skin. She was the girl. Not Cassie. No. Her. I don't really want that to be the case. I really don't, but my heart says otherwise. This moment is kind of perfect.

This moment....


(Juno)

It's him! He is the boy with the soft but rough skin. With beautiful lips. It's him. I thought it was. I don't think I like this, but my heart won the fight. This is the moment....the moment...


(Juno + Eli)


The moment I fell inlove.


(Juno)

I'm inlove! I'm inlove! holy crap! Holy crap!


(Eli)

I love her. I love her. I love the way she is so mean. I love the way she cares. I love her.


I open my eyes and gasp, feeling her lips. Her touch. Oh no. Oh crap. I love her. I fricken love her. I completely love the girl next door.


(Juno)

I walk away from my locker and smile at Eli. He doesn't smile back. "Eli-" He walks past me, ignoring me. I try texting him when I get hte time.
ELI?

HELLO!

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?

ANSWER ME, IDIOT!


WHAT HAPPENED TO BFFF?


I finally get an answer. Not the one I wanted though.


IT TURNED TO BFFB FRIENDS WITH BENIFITS.


YOUR POINT PLEASE.


I CAN'T DO THAT AGAIN. JUST BECUASE CASSIE CAN'T SHARE DREAMS WITH ME, DOESN'T MEAN I GET TO GO BEHIND HER BACK.


REJECTED AGAIN. I KNEW IT. DON'T TALK TO ME.


FINE WITH ME.


Tears trail down my cheeks. What. The. Hell?
I cry myself to sleep.


(Eli)

I hear weeping. I walk down the long dark hallway. I walk to each door and open it. When I get to the end, I fall down into a black hole. Then I am watching Myself. in a dream. The first time I saw her. The second. The last... Wen I manange to climb out, I see her down the hallway. "I'm sorry." I say. "What now?" SHe asks. "I'm going to go find cassie. see if she can have dreams too. We could share alot." I say, pushing her away. she nods. "I can't be friends with you, Eli." sHe says. I nod. "I told Johnny I couldn't be with him, and he asked why." She says.

"What did you say?" I ask, curious.

"I told him, I fell inlove without him, already."

She says. She looks up at me. "I'll always f*cking remember when you took my heart." She pokes my chest. "I'll always remember that I LET you." She says, shaking her head.

"I'll always remember that I fell inlove with the boy next door." She says. She then gulps, forcing tears to go away. She lets out a shaky breath.

"But I'll never remember why." "I'll remember when I let you chase another girl, I'll always remember watching you go, pushing you away, but I wont remember why I let you go.. I will never remember why I fell inlove with you." She finishes and turns. "Goodbye, Eli." She says over her shoulder and walks away.


(Juno)
I turn to watch him walk away. Tears flow down my cheeks. I'll remember the tears I shed for you. all of them. I sit down and wipe my tears. over a boy. I let win. I'm so stupid. But I'm too weak and sad to be angry. I wave to his back.


I wake up with tears running down my cheeks. With my situation, I can't say, It's just a dream. Which would really really come in handy. I open my email to see a new message.

FRM. JOHNNY.

THE FIRST TIME I TELL A GIRL I LIKE HER AND SHE GIVES ME A SAD SMILE. SHE THEN TELLS ME SHE CAN'T. I ASK WHY. SHE SAYS, "I FELL INLOVE WITHOUT YOU, ALREADY." I FELT MY HEART SHATTER. I'M NOT A POET. I'M NOT A GOOD PERSON. BUT I THINK THAT WAS UNFAIR. BRANDY, GIVE ME A CHANCE. I COULD CARE LESS ABOUT THE BOY YOU FELL INLOVE WITH. I COULD CHANGE THAT.


An email guy. I smile. I shake my head in disbelief as I write back,

TO JOHNNY
FRM. BRANDY

YOU SOUND POETIC. THE BOY I THOUGHT I LOVED DUMPED ME AND STEPPED ON ME, FOR A GIRL HE JUST MET. I'M SORRY, JOHNNY, GIVE ME A SECOND CHANCE.


I hit send and grab my things. When I'm about to leave, I hear my computer ring. I hurridly sign in and look at the new message-


FROM. JOHNNY

WE ALL NEED A SECOND CHANCE. HERE IS A THOUGHT, CALL ME. OR I'LL CALL YOU, I COULD REALLY CARE LESS OF EITHER WAY. JUST A WARNING, I WONT SOUND AS...NICE AS I DO ON EMAIL. I'M NOT A NICE PERSON.


attached to it was his phone number. I write it on my hand and head out. I get my phone out and stare at it. I get in my car and dial the number. afew rings and I hear his voice. I just sit there a second then answer him. "oh, sorry. Hi." I say. I hear his faint laugh. "Hi." he says. Awkward....


(Eli)

Cassie bites my lip and i return the favor. "Your so pretty." I murmur in her ear. She smiles. "Your really beautiful." She replies. I kiss her nose and go into class. the class with Juno. I sit down and shes not there. She is missing school becuase of me? Oh, great. I start to feel bad until she backs through the door with Johnny. He is pretty close. I look away.


(Juno)
he is such a coward. Doesn't even bother to look at me. He is the one who told me to get lost. He is the one who told me he wanted Cassie. I stop myself. Your the one who let him leave. I tap my pencil furiously. Jerk. I let myself love him. Now he can change my mood in a milasecond.

He looks over at me, and my old self doesn't hold back. I flip him off. I may be mature in my dreams. Have more control over my emotions, but not now. It was just a kiss. Then why am I wanting to die everytime I see him?

I look over at Johnny and he is staring out the window. I really just want to be friends. He is not getting that. So not getting that. I'm going crazy. yeah. good excuse. I look over at Eli. He is still staring at me. I'm going to kill him.

If I can't actually put a blade in his dirty cold skin, I will be able to hurt him. I hope. I mean, His blood is twenty-one degrees below zero. I put a smile on my face. here I come, sweet, sweet revenge.


(Eli)

She's got this smile on her face. It's not a sad one. Not a happy one. It's full of pure Hate. I would know, I've seen it before. She must think I'm heartless. so heartless. Maybe I am. I just can't comprehend her and I. I was scared when she kissed me. Maybe I was scared of love. But who cares? I can't care. I wont care. She is back to hating me. But she is still in my dreams. I let out a sigh and the teacher gives me a weird look.


(Brandy)

I don't like you Johnny. I really, really don't. This is going by too fast. I still love this stupid boy. Please, leave me alone. I curse myself for writing back, for calling him. Another text message.

DINNER?


MOVIE?


I throw my phon across the room and fall on my bed. My phone rings again, but I hurridly get up and read Eli's text.

I'M SORRY


FOR WHAT?


YOU KNOW WHAT.


WISH I DIDN'T


ME EITHER.


I WISH I DIDN'T FEEL REGRET FOR KISSING YOU.


I DON'T FEEL REGRET FOR THAT. IT WAS A GOOD MOMENT.


YEAH. I HATE YOU EVEN MORE. =]


EASIER, RIGHT?


GUESS SO. THANKS.


UR WELCOME. LISTEN, JOHNNY ISN'T TOO BAD, IS HE?


NOT REALLY. CAN'T TAKE A HINT.


NO ONE CAN.


MEANING ME? i GOT THE HINT, TOOK IT. eLI, i'M TRYING MY BEST TO GET AWAY FROM YOU.


THATS NOT WHAT I MEANT.


WHAT DO YO MEAN? WHAT DID THAT KISS MEAN?


I DON'T WANT TO KNOW.


I DO. I STILL FUKKING LOVE YOU, ASS.


THATS NEVER GOOD.


NO, ITS NOT. IT REALLY ISN'T GOOD WHEN THEIR STUCK IN YOUR HEAD.


I'M SORRY.


STOP LYING.


I'M NOT.


YOU DON'T MEAN IT. SAVE YOUR BREATH FOR CASSIE.


I MIGHT.


WHY ARE YOU SO UNSURE?


BECUZ. I THINK I LOVE YOU BACK.


GREAT. THIS IS SO FUKING GENIUS.


I HAVEN'T HAD A GIRL TELL ME SHE LOVES ME ON A TEXT, AND MEAN IT.


I HAVEN'T HAD A BOY TELL ME HE LOVES ME. EXCEPT A STALKER IN 5TH GRADE.


YOUR HARD NOT TO LOVE, JUNO.


SAME TO YOU, eLI.


HOW CAN TEXTING HAVE SO MUCH EMOTION?


DONT ASK ME.


WHY DO YOU LOVE ME?


I'M NOT GOING TO SAY, THE WAY YOUR EYES LIGHT UP OR ANYTHING. I DON'T HAVE A REASON. I DON'T KNOW, ELI.


THATS BEAUTIFUL. SAME HERE.


UNLIKE YOU. =]


I KNOW 1 RESON I LOVE YOU.


OH, GOD.


YOU ALWAYS KNOW WHAT TO SAY.


THATS GOOD.


YOU ALWAYS KNOW WHAT TO DO!


YOU GOT THAT FROM A SONG.


ITS THE WAY YOU DO THE THINGS YOU DO TO MAKE ME FALL INLOVE WITH YOU.


OH GREAT. GO ON. I'M LISTENING TO THE SONG ON MY IPOD RIGHT NOW.


JUNO, I KNOW OUR LOVE IS NEW. I BARELY KNOW YA.


NO. STOP NOW. COPYRIGHT.


I'LL SHOW YA.


I'D RATHER NOT.


JUNO, C'MON. I'LL START OUTSIDE YOUR WINDOW.


PLEASE NO.


I'M COMING.


IF YOU DO, I WIL THROUGH SOMETHING AT YOU.


somethig hits my window. I run to it and open it. I stick my head out. Eli is standing there.

"F*ck letters." He says. Then he adds,

"F*uck words!"

I laugh.

"I'll sing, if you don't come down here."

"No."

"Fine. You asked for it Juno."

"Don't be a creep, Eli."

"Too late!" I see his breath in the cold air. He undoes his coat and throws it on the ground. "My blood is already below freezing. It's getting colder, but all I need is you, to warm myself up."

I laugh. "You got that from a movie." I say. "Are you in love with me, too?" He asks. I roll my eyes.

"Yeah." I finally say.

"I'm not leaving until you come down here and give me a kiss." He says. I laugh. He takes his shirt off. "Holy shit. This is so cold. Damn!" He says. "Put your shirt on." I say. He shakes his head.


(Eli)

I'm standing here, in the cold, proving to her, and myself, I love her.

"This sucks, I only got to love you for a few hours." She says. I smile. "Too bad, huh? Get your ass down here." I say. "Maybe if you wait long enough, you'll die of frostbite." She says. I laugh. "Maybe I wont." She rolls her eyes. "Goodbye, ELi." She shuts her window. My heart breaks. UH. In the movies it worked. Then I hear her foot steps and shes in her bra, hugging me. "I ditched my shirt too." She says. I hug her tight. We laugh. I go to grab my coat but she stops me and kisses me.

"I'm really warm now." I say. She hits me on my back. I give her my coat. I wear my shirt as we walk hand in hand.


(Brandy)
He is holding my hand. and this couldn't be better. I'm glad to say, this isn't a dream. I kiss his cheek. "I love you, Eli." I say. He looks at me. "Really? I Thought the whole act of coming out here in your bra was of pure hate." I giggle and he kisses me back.


"At least you didn't write me a stupid love letter." I say. He laughs. "I stayed up all night writing that stupid love letter for you, actually." He says. I look at him again. "Can I see it?" I ask. He shakes his hea before kissing me and saying, "never, not even in your dreams." "We'll, see." I say.


Eli & Juno's infinite playlist- (haha)

{Motion city soundtrack}- "I fell inlove with out you" "Feels like rain" "L.G. FAUD" "Everything is alright" "My favorite accident" "Hold me down" "Hysteria"


{Sick of Sarah} "Bittersweet"


{Gym Class Heros} "Live a little"


{Florence + the machine} "Dog days are over"


{Paramore} "Exception" "Brick by boring brick" "playing god"

{A rocket to the moon} "like we use to" "Dakota"

{Escape the fate} "You are so Beautiful" "Situations" "Flood" "Not good enough for truth and clique"

{Ida Maria} "Oh my god"

{The friday night boys} "Stupid love letter"

*May be others that can't be remembered.


Heartless This HATE

By: Amber

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Texte: dreamt by me && wrote by me.
Tag der Veröffentlichung: 12.12.2010

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To the boy who messed up my hate (You idiot!!(I love you)) The blood in your viens were almost as cold has your heart.