Contents:
Runaway_ p.8
Hope_p.9
Jump and Swim_p.12
I wish_p.14
Taste my Blood_p.16
No Nigh before Dawn_p.17
Sweets for my Soul_p.19
On the Road to Anywhere_p.21
Only Pray_p.23
Waiting for a Miracle_p.24
You know I could_p.26
Speaking 'bit German_p.28
Just a Man_p.30
Little Lion_p.31
Lost and Found_p.33
My God_p.35
Oh my Lord_p.36
Rarely True_p.37
Sadly_p.38
Simply Sex_p.40
Stop_p.42
Sun without Fun_p.43
The End of a World_p.45
Thee First Song_p.46
Fuck the Snob_p.49
Ghost Town Blues_p.52
Going for Gold_p.53
Drummer Boy_p.54
Be Careful_p.56
Facing Liberty_p.58
Healing Game_p.59
Point of no Return_p.61
Blackbird_p.63
Dead End_p.67
Runaway
I practice to hold on
Who the very I am
And not to run away
As fare as I can
I'm a refugee of myself
Tired of it and unfulfilled
Shot and upset
Willed and unwilled
I'm trying hard
On motivation
To finish the artwork
Of my own creation
I know what to do
And do something ever
For reaching nothing
Not yet, maybe never
Okay, I want to be
Grateful, too
And say I've changed
A step into
Into a life
Better than before
Into some peace
Into some more
I practice to hold on
I practice being free
I practice extracting
My pure me
Hope
I'm so sad
That I could cry
But I can't
Wondering why
Maybe I'm not
As lonesome as I feel
Maybe there's someone
Present and real
I sit and listen
To the music of the trees
I watch the silence
Between ones be's
I want to do something
But I'm paralized
Want myself to be true
And surprised
I'm longing for talking, I'm longing for walking
But not so on by my own
I want to share details, I want to share wholeness
Along, around and at home.
I'm so alone that I could shout
To make me hear and see me someone
To shout out my sadness
And make it all gone
Who am I, who will I
Who could I be
If I had love for me
With me
I'm going on
But feeling back
Still surrounded by water
Around my neck
But my head is up
I'm breathing, I'm seeing
Feeling worth
A human being
I keep on smiling
Even loaded like a dump
One day there'll be bottom
With love in to jump
Jump and Swim
You make me smile
You bring up the sun
you make me happy
Having fun
You create things
Precious and cute
You make me love
Absolute
I wanna dance
I wanna kiss
I wanna embrace
And no more miss
I wanna make fire
Out of us two
I want intimicy
I want you
Lovely you
Lovely mine
I want to fulfill you
I want you ' be fine
How can I describe
The ambition, the passion
You are my lucky charm
My selfless possession
Take my hand
Take my life
Take my heart
Be my wife
Take control
Take all I can be
Take my love
And Goodness, love me
I will be proud
I will be true
I will be king
I will be you
I Wish
I wish that you were proud of me
I wish the way you look at me
Those shiny eyes I wish to see
The glamor of your harmony
I wish that I'm the only one
I wish that I'm your clue
I wish to be your answer
And all your dreams come true
I wish you were my knight
To protect me in fight
I wish you were my man
Forever and again
I wish that I'm the loveliest
Thing you've ever seen
I wish to be your angel
Your feelings, oh, so keen
I wish to here your voice
Your breathing over me
I wish you to feel my body
In peaceful ecstasy
I wish to get a ring
Of love from you to see
The golden strong connection
Between our liberty
I wish that hand in hand
So all the world can see
I wish to care forever
I wish us to agree
I know that you can here me
My might, my sweetest hope
Please, please, you are the truth
You lighten up the road
Taste my Blood
Is there anyone
Who wants to see me happy
Is there anyone
Who wants to see the truth
Feeling atrociously strong
So strong
Not superficial
Without God
Simply wrong
I'm through with human nature
I'm through with world's reality
There's more I want to get
Maybe I'm a tiger
But sure I'm not a pet
Maybe I'm a man
Maybe I'm black
Maybe I'm an Indian
From Venus
Alive or dead
Go on thinking that I'm rough
But what you see is never enough
You've got to feel it
And deal with what is hot
Do more than you can
To know who I am
And taste
Not waste
My blood
No Night before Dawn
Can you see me
Little me
Poor and lonesome
As can be
Firestorm
Around my neck
Calling desert
For a wreck
Empty rooms
In empty spaces
Fading memories
Fading faces
Empty hearts
Desires, love
Empty skies
There high above
Don't wanna die
Beyond a smile
Don't wanna cry
Walking that mile
God give me happiness
To cover my bones
God give me peace
After too many homes
Let me wake up
With sun on my face
Blood in my heart
Power and grace
Open that door
I'm longing for
Long before daylight
Ain't be no night there anymore
Sweets for my Soul
Have you seen
The paradise
Lots of fruits and
Happy eyes
Open minds
And sunny shine
Lots of trust and
Hope Devine
Even though
No way, no goal
Lots of peace
For every soul
Can you get there
Every time
Through your heart
Or his or mine
Let me lead you
Until the end
To begin with
What was meant
Lucky you and
Lucky me
Through the darkness
Until we're free
And all in between
No way, no goal
Wonderful silence with
Sweets for my soul
0n the Road to Anywhere
Fuck yourself
When you're feeling bad
Fuck yourself
For feeling so sad
Every time
The same old shit
Every awakening
A bit of a bit
Fuck the hell
The angel's singing
When I'm deaf
Of devil's ringing
Pieces of mind
Versus pieces of luck
Damned lot of love
But the same lousy fuck
Open the gate
But what rest's only hate
True wicked seconds
To wait and to wait
Fuck everybody
Romantic sucks
Not worth at all
Miserable drugs
Get higher, get low
But stay who you've been
In the middle of nothing
Surrounded of sin
Every time
The same old shit
Every awakening a bit of a bit
Fuck the hell an angel's singing
When you're deaf of devil's ringing
Only Pray
Too much love to die
And not enough to live
What can I get
And what can I give
It's so awfully sad
Not to sing a brighter song
Not to glance much lighter
Only to get along
What can I do
What can I say
To find peace in you
I guess only pray
Pray for a tomorrow
Bright as the sun
Pray for loveliness
Honesty and fun
Waiting for a Miracle
What am I doing
Facing the emptiness
Give in to hate
Or happiness
God gracious, I have fallen
So deeply, so fast
Nothing left to comfort me
Or nearly ever last
Is that what you wanted
My father, my guide
Don't know where to go now
Don't know where to hide
Tears are invading me
Like a plague, oh, like a pest
Yelling in silence
Not willing to rest
God, my beloved
Please help me, I die
I'm losing touch with eternity
Please heal that blind eye
The day of reckoning has just come
I'm struggling to survive
Hell, it's unbearable
I'm hardly alive
I need you so urgently
Hardly yearning anymore
Far from whatever
Really beneath the shore
You know I Could
I know what's beautiful
I know what's good
I know what lingers
And maybe I should
Because I could
You know I could
But heaven is not me
That's not what I was meant to be
I know what's lovely
I know what's sweet
I know when someone has the beat
And maybe I should
Because I could
You know I could
Whatever I want
And it would be good
I know what's crazy
I know what's gee
I know what many people see
And maybe I should
Because I could
You know I could
Maybe I'm a fool
But I want you to rule
Speaking 'bit German
Human nature's awful
Human being sucks
May it be for the moment
Living creepy bucks
Love is worth it
Love is true
But come on brother
Deeply blue
Horrible characters
Horrible creatures
Nothing that lingers
Being that features
Can we be happy
Living around
Can we be honest
Near to the ground
Best to enjoy life
And having fun
Free from hate
Free from „run“
Run from escaping
Run from the drive
Run from hell's kitchen
For staying alive
World's not enough
To love and live sane
One world's only a peace
One world's just a game
The World's just an island
Depending the sun
Crowded with people
On the run
Sucking others, sucking themselves
Sucking what never begun
Sucking god's kindness, sucking freedom
Sucking pacience' gun
Just a Man
I'm just a pilgrim
I'm just a man
I'm doing well
The best I can
My ambitions are holy
My ambitions are fine
My life doesn't fit
It's a crime
Slowly running
Born to rise
Speaking, but stunning
Love and surprise
Damned suspense
The adventure am I
Near to handle it
Don't know why
What does it mean now
To be strong
Whoever you are
come along
I am bored
To be adored
I wanna be loved
Jesus, Lord
Little Lion
I'm not alone
I'm not with you
I'm feeling homeless
You say you love to see me smile
But I feel like crying
You say you see another person now
But it's only a part of the million ones
That make my person complete
You say: Don't tell me what to do!
But I was begging
And I never, never...never wanted to
I'm of your kind
I understand
I don't wanna cry
Because I love to see you love
I don't wanna be any other person
Than the one you desire
Come into my arms and let me feel you begging
And I won't let let it be
I wanna feel home
To let you see my smile
I wanna feel home
To be your incomplete complete person
I wanna feel home
Home with you
Don't be anxious my little lion
And insecure
Your worth that million
I'm very sure
I'm of your kind
I understand
Please be my big lion
And hold my hand...
Lost and Found
Who are you imbecile
Who are you again
It doesn't matter
Who I am
You have a problem
Think about why
Do what you have to
So do I
It's silent around you
God bless the creature
I can't help it
I'm not a teacher
I'm a baby
I'm a man
Think it over
If you can
You can hit me
Shoot me down
I don't care
Here my crown
Above the star
Insuring my coming
I can walk
No need for running
You are a raper
Don't touch me again
Don't be silly
Dull woman
My God
Do you want to be
The love of my life
Do you want to be
My hope, my jive
Do you want to be
The best that I am
Do you want to be
My love, my man
Do you want to be
My answers, my peace
Do you want to be
My god, my release
Oh my Lord
I want to thank you for your love
The flying birds there high above
The rising sun you made me see
The tenderness you give to me
You made me learn
And still I do
You help me up
You help me through
You make me free
You make me live
You make me strong
Make me forgive
You are so gentle
You are so right
Your might is brilliant
It holds me tight
I want to sing for you
And more
To praise the one
Whom I adore
This is my prayer
For evermore
My gracious love
My light ashore
Rarely True
I feel so young
I feel so small
I feel a thousand doubts
That's all
That's what it feels like
Far from you
That's what it feels like
In, not through
Wondering above
Like a crying dove
Lonely, too
But deeply blue
Sadly
I let you go, my dear
For good and whatever, again
Maybe you didn't love me
Or I am not what I am
Things are getting weary
Nearly, oh, lose all touch
No idea 'more what, heaven, matters
But it doesn't mean so much
I'm weak, with without any force
Hope to love you, god, to cuddle and care
Neither sure if wishes ever come true
Nore sure if you are aware
Can't keep my eyes open
Hardly keep my life ahead
Longing, incurably romantic
Getting loneliness instead
I miss you like crazy
May be stupid, may be good
Didn't treat me as sweet as you are, honey
Don't treat me the way you could
With a heavy heart I call the thing off
You used to be my man
Now I'm alone like a straying lamb
Hardly know anything, again
Simply Sex
I'm not homo
I'm not bi
I'm not normal
I am free
What is normal
What's a freak
What is strong
And what is weak
Is this body
Mighty keen
All I've got
Or all you've seen
I'm really bored
Of archaic views
It's time for oddities
It's time for news
What does it matters if you're black or white
What does it matters if you're small or tall
Man or woman
No shit at all
Open eyes
To what's not to see
Open eyes
In liberty
It's pretty urgent
To accept
Instead of
Judging and select
Who are you
Where you come from
Where do you go
When you are gone
Are you sure
That you really fit
Are you worth
A lot or a bit
God only knows
Cosmos, Jesus or however you want to name
Life is truth
And not a game
But take and use my body
Not knowing who I am
And continue yapping cockeyed
„Woman or man“
Stop
Sleepless in this love affair
Sleepless in this dream
I'm of you and all aware
You are cruel and mean
Can't get shocked
An open book
Stop to act
I had a look
Don't know the end
But you know in a every way
I'm not anxious
For to say
This isn't worth it
To waste my time
This is a sin, god
This is a crime
I want to get further
I want to get high
You're not here, good
I'll get by
Sun without Fun
Sunday without you again
Sunday without me
Sunday with and out my man
Sunday on a knee
Popcorn's smelling sweetly
Near there far away
Lazy feet, a teeny
Longing here to stay
Swinging rhythm beneath me
Swinging air on beside
A swinging heart inside there
Honor against pride
Noting more to gain now
Nothing more to buy
No things more to offer
No tears more to cry
I feel quite so empty
I feel quite so blue
I feel quite a weight
Silence is it you
You are vanished
Into thin air
You are lost
Fair or not fair
You've preferred
Repeatedly to run
Boring Sunday
Sun without fun
The End of a World
Is the end coming
Is the end near
Any use of running
Or disappear
Few words to stay now
Only words to pray
Killing thoughts among us
Not that far away
Holding ourselves together
Holding faith and hope
Hate and fear however
Everybody's dope
God the hell's around
God we realize
What is right about it
Ain't we are that wise
Help us through this drought
Help us through this stress
Help us to forgive
Help us SOS
Thee First Song
The man's gone for you now
The one who risked with courage and tried to convince
Looking at and for your love
Ever and since
The man's gone
Who trusted in you, because of God
Denying himself and obeying
A whole lot of lot
This man was neglected and mistrusted
This man was hurt
This man was a dog, then cat, then tiger
Now a trying to fly away bird
Could it have been better
Could it have been good
Could it have succeeded
Could it, oh, could
What's left now is the woman
Fine and fragile and frighten
Longing for her man
Be precious and enlighten
Longing to be convinced
Longing to be found by clue
Longing to be surprised
A whole life through
Sitting in between and behind her walls
She's lonely, but secure
She's still got love to give
In heaven and pure
Could it have been better
Could it have been good
Could it have succeeded
Could it, oh, could
The person is little
But the soul is enormous big
And hope is alive
To stick, God, to stick
So who are you now
Who you wanna be
The woman who's lost
Or the man going to be Gee
Do you wanna fight for good
Do you wanna decide for ever
Do you wanna be a hero
Do you wanna be clever
Could it be better
Could it be good
Could it succeed
Could it, oh, it could
Fuck the Snob
What is up now, „happiness“
What, goddamn, a pity
What or who are you
Fucking hell of city
You live around
Sucking goody's blood
Ignoring what's about
Searching for what is hot
Ain't giving help
Or understanding
No matter what continues
Or what is ending
I feel alone, I feel deserted
So what
I punk myself in misery
Being true whole lot
There is no light of kindness
Except the light of night
Escaping each new day
Fighting for what right
The sadness is overwhelming
Every than and now
Can't help yearning
Sometimes, stupid how
And you call yourself
A fucking friend
Don't give a shit t' your winning
No shit to what's ever meant
What's meant to be
To get, to achieve
You are an asshole
You don' believe
The city is your world
Little world of your mind
Money around
Unlikely, unkind
You're boring, exhausting
I'm fed of that stuff
Your incredible stupidness
Of can't getting enough
Hit the road madness and easiness
And fucking fly
Before it's to late
For love, to ever die
Ghost Town Blues
I feel horrible, I feel exhausted
I feel my heart is in pain
I feel no headway in all this motion
I feel perverse, insane
My heart quite nearly explodes
Alarming and depressing
Don't know what for or when
But go on blindly guessing
No help, no being
No other side
Extremely nothing
Wider and wide
Hardly know if I should move
Should I beware or should I care
If I'm not here, I'm surely not there
Not at all or anywhere
Messed up one
How weird, what a pity
Alien of life
A ghost in a city
My face is burning
Touching atmosphere
Oh, could you be with me
Oh, could you be here
Going for Gold
Oh, how I love you
You crazy one, sweet
Still, although and furthermore
The better I need
I feared I could hate you
Trade you and go by
But nevertheless I adore you
I'm expecting you guy
I'm happy on earth
Longing to share it
I'm happy about hope
To feel and bear it
It's ,oh, so good gotten over
Mellow and fine
Even far away I adore you
My true love, you're mine
No place for illusion
You'll come back again
Invisible woman
Invisible man
Drummer Boy
Hey, shh...be silent
Baby you
Stop the drums for a while
And let me through
Let me make you hear
The best of my heart
Beating the same old way
Like yours, just apart
Lonely and frightened
Longing for a friend to call
Dreaming of someone
To win after all
Let us give space to them
To create a sound
Going to the front
Not only spinning around
Can you here my voice
Sweet drummer there
Your heart is my mike
And your love is the air
So hey, shh...be silent
Baby you
Stop the drums for a while
And let me through
Be Careful
Attention
For whom you fall
Remember
You're precious at all
Attention
For what's up
And avoid to be
A pup'
Attention
Before it's too late
And all that rests is
Hate
Attention
For your life
Go on and too
Arrive
Attention
For she cares
Love
And not affairs
Attention
You're in the plan
Be as honest
As you can
Attention
You're too good
Defend it
When you should
Facing Liberty
Sitting in a backyard
Sun is leaving and coming
Would like to stay
But can't stop running
It's a kind of obsession
It's a kind of hell
A case of being crazy
And knowing me well
Devil is doing good work
Devil is cheating on me
God can't help it, help it
Hell, thank god, I'm free
I'm facing the dark
Straight to the rotten why
Remembering good life
My oh my
Damned missing of could be
Damned thinking of should be
Can't bear to fail again
I miss me here, my man
I need to respect him
I'm longing for salvation
I'm a bad farmer
For my own creation
Being confused
The desert sucks
Love is not a game
It's dealing with lucks
Can't afford the risks
Anymore
Devil's got me
God it's war
Healing Game
Aching backbone
Aching throat
On by foot
On the road
Can't dismiss
The pride the fame
Leave well alone
All the same
Do distinguish
Wrong from right
Know when to stop
Prepare to fight
Heal yourself
Heal the flame
Holy war
Healing game
Back to the future
Back to life
Let's get together
Let's survive
Point of no Return
I'm on the point
Of no return
Hope I can win
Hope I can earn
The sight is bad
The weather rough
The tank goes blank
No route's enough
The passengers around and back
Panic, transmitting pressure
No flight of harmony at all
No peace, no time, no pleasure
Responsibility spoils my nerves
Like a hotshot, well, like crazy
And the mechanics, out of control
Are working awfully lazy
Lots of lights around me blinking
Some good, some okay, some not
Various perspectives of no way
Without a final plot
Gigantic water down under
May kill or as well may save
May be smooth and mercy to survive
May be hard and cold like a grave
The airplane simply doesn't count anymore
The paramount importance is salvation
Hope, please give me power
Against that dark invasion
Wings of destination are chippy
Wirings are inauspiciously blasting
Pain and fears of inexperience
Seem like everlasting
I'm on a way
No idea whereto or how
But still alive and breathing
Up I believe in now
Blackbird
I used to be me
But now I'm you
The way you are me
That's what I see
I hate to be me now
The way I became
Even I do more
Well it's a shame
I'm lost and found
Isn't it funny at all
Can only be bigger
That small, that small
Will I fly again
Or will I at all
Can there be stopped
A dragonball
I rise like Phoenix
From the dirt
With broken wings
Hurt, so hurt
My happiness is gone
Nevertheless I go
No sex appeal
No sex, or such so
Not feeling handsome
Or beauty, no shit
Only a sort of queerness
Only a bit of a bit
I hear you, but can't feel you
I see you, but I'm blind
Even being me now I fear you
Even though you are kind
I'm glad you are there
I'm glad you exist
But still I feel the pain
Still I feel your fist
I play my song
As blues goes by
I'm straying, hardly longing
No woman, no cry
Raindrops
Keep falling on my head
But I'm alive
Even though I'm dead
I'm mystery
I'm sort of no fit
I'm sort of nothing
Not alone, but quit
My smile is hidden
In emptiness
But I swear I loved you
I do confess
My face is serious
My voice is down
Can scarcely bear it
But I tote my crown
Keep being me further
I find myself a new
I hate me now
A lot and a few
Gonna be
Someone else
Gonna be
New wedding bells
Give me back
Only my love
Give me back
Some stars above
Give me back
The sun to feel
Give me back
What counts, is real
Give me back
What God desires
Give me back
What love acquires
Give me future
And history
Give me hope
For feeling free
I'm that blackbird
In the night
Flying poky
Into the light
Dead End
What could it be
That would make me laugh again
What kind of littleness
What unknown, what plan
What will make complete
This sweet, oh, bitter pains
My life, my ambitions
My blood in my veins
Don't know where to go
Or why I should cry
Love came to stay here
But why does it hurt, why
No further connection
No message, no more
Am I really able
To get out of this war
Love not war
But what's it about
Continues mysterious
No illusions, no doubt
Couldn't it be easy
Shouldn't it be mine
Still no idea
Time after time
Tag der Veröffentlichung: 29.08.2010
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