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  I stand in front of the human-sized mirror, and look at my outfit. A black skirt that comes to my mid-thigh and black stockings to my bottom knee with a black tank top, and for the final touch I put on a black leather jacket. Yeah yeah, you might think Oh my gosh it's a goth girl, but really it's because I just like black it's my favorite color, and my whole closet is filled with only black clothes. I look at myself one last time until I'm satisfied with myself, and grab my dufflebag from my chair next to my bed and go downstairs. "Morning!" our housemaid says. Her names Carrie, she's been our housemaid since I was a baby, so we consider her as a family. "Good morning Carrie, you look like you're in a good mood". I say to Carrie while setting my bag down next to the chair next to me, and sit down at the dinner table. "Why yes of course I am, you finially agreed to go to school!" Carrie says with happiness. "Who's finially going to school?" my brother says from behind us. Carrie is obviously frighten by him cause she becomes pale like snow. "Well good morning L..L..Lev" says Carrie. Lev smiles knowing that having any experission on his face, especially smiling, frightens Carrie. I watch him with no expression on my face, while he sits next to me. "Good morning to you too Lucia" my brother says to me. I just look at him and nod. "Well here you guys go, eat up and hurry and go to school you two" says Carrie and rushes into her bedroom. I thank Carrie and start eating my frypan sausages. "Soooo you're going to school now?" Lev says. I swallow down my sausages and say"Why, is it a big problem?". "No, no problem at all just curious after the 'incident'" says Lev and he starts to eat his sausages. I freeze at the word 'incident', and stare down at my sausages, not feeling hungry anymore. I stand up and set my plate on the counter and get my journal or my 'diary' as Lev references as. "Hurry up and eat your sausages or I'm leaving without you." I say at Lev. He nods and starts to eat his food quickly. I walk toward the front door and yell good bye to Carrie and shut the door. I stand in front of my motorcycle and Lev's motorcycle. The motorcycle was a gift from my uncle who sells motorcycles at the most common brand Harley Davidson. Lev comes out of the door and gets on his motorcycle, I do the same. Carrie stands in the door way making sure we go to school. Lev and I both start our engines and start to head toward school. We both drive not saying a word to each other. We both stop at the red light in front of the traffic which means, more people can get a better view at us. I see teens,women,men, and even the little kids loking at us like we're crazy. "I is this normal for people just to stare at us?" I ask Lev. "Yeah, but what would you think if you saw two teenagers riding a motorcycle?" Lev says to me. "Normal." I said and the light turned green. I started to speed up a little and then next thing I know I'm in front of the high school.       

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    Lev drives into the school and I follow. I see people at the corner of my eye watching us while we drive into the parking lot. I park my motorcycle next to Lev's and get off. Lev starts to walk toward the school and I follow. "Okay just to make sure no one here hates you right?" I ask Lev hoping he's not the hated kid here. "I don't know sis why don't you ask the bruises that I get on my body and face everyday?" Lev says with a little harshness in his voice. I just stare at him while we get in the entrance of the school. "What did you expect better from me or something?" Lev asks. I just smile at him and Lev flinches a litttle. "Of course not dear brother" I say and walk toward the main office. When Lev walks by the office he looks a little worried and he walks inside the main office. "What do you want know?" I ask Lev. "Nothing just wondering if I could give you a tour of the school during lunch with the principle's permission." says Lev. I just shurg at him and then the principle calls me into his office. I walk into the office and Lev follows me, but I don't argue with him about why he's following me. "Why hello you must be Lucia." the principle says while taking a look at me to make sure I'm the right person. I nod at him and say yes at the same time. "Well I just wann-" the principle pauses when he see's Lev. "Lev what are you doing here?" the principle says with suspicious. "Well Principle Gress I was wondering since my sister here,Lucia is new to our school, I was wondering if I could give her the tour of the school?" Lev asks Principle Gress. "Well I guess that won't be a problem unless Lucia here is umcomfortable, are you okay with this Lucia?" asks Principle Gress. "I don't know since I already know Lev and I want to meet new people, would it be fine if someone else gives me a tour?" I ask Principle Gress. Lev looks at me like I did the wrong decision, but I just give him the look saying this-is-what-I-what look and shrug. Then the bell starts to ring. "Well thats the bell kids go to your classes, and Lucia meet me during lunch I'll give you someone to give you the tor of the school." says Principle Gress. I nod at him and Lev and I start to walk toward the silent classroom. When I get to my locker I start to shove my duffle bag inside of it and grab my personal journal and my notebook for class. When I close it shut I see a group of at least four or five buys walking toward my way. Crap not now I think to myself, but I shove all the frighten thoughts into a vault in my head and start to walk in their direction to get to class. When I walk by them I don't dare look at them, but just look what's in front of me. All the five guys watch me just walk by them as if they weren't there. I don't look back and next thing I know I'm right in front of my first period classroom door. On the door it says ELA in bold letters, but I ignore them and open the door. When I walk inside the classroom all eyes are now on me. 

 

"Hi, sorry is this a bad timing?" I ask hoping no one is looking at me like I'm delusional. A woman in her mid-thirties looks up at me. "No no not at all you must be the new student, Lucia right?" asks the woman. I nod at her. "Well that's great my name is Mrs. Pomeroy and I'll be your ELA teacher for the year, and over there in the back you can sit next to Ian." says Mrs. Pomeroy. She points to a boy that wears black ripped up jeans with a little loose black shirt, with black hair and mysterious looking blue eyes. I start to walking toward Ian, but before I reach my table I trip over something and fall, but I don't hit my head because when I look up I see Ian holding me in his arms. "You okay?" Ian asks me, and I nod at him. Every single person, including Mrs. Pomeroy stares at us. Ian let goes of me and we both awkwardly walk to our seats together. Mrs. Pomeroy gets up from her chair and comes over my way. "Are you okay sweetie?" Mrs. Pomeroy asks me in a whisper voice. I nod at her and she walks back to her seat and pull out a big teachers book. "Okay class lets get our notebooks out and do the daily routine, and Ian can you show Lucia what to do?" asks Mrs. Pomeroy. "Sure" Ian says and he takes out his notebook and a pencil, and tells me every morning we write a paragraph on what happened so far today, or we could read a book. I get out my personal journal which is with a black cover, and a picture of my mom,dad,brother,me, and Carrie all smiling and laughing with eachother. I get a little lost in thoughts at the photo then I feel a tap on my arm. I turn my head to see that Ian's watching me. "Who's are those people in that photo?" Ian asks me in a whisper. I look around to make sure no one's listening, but some people are already talking with the people. "Their my family, that's my dad, my brother,our housemaid,Carrie,me, and my mom." I say, but when I mention my mom I can feel a tear driving down my cheek. Ian wipes the tear from my face and moves his thumb around my cheek. I smile at him. Then the bell rings, and I grab my stuff and rush toward the door. 

  

  

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    I rush toward my locker and put my ELA notebook in my locker, and grab a fresh new notebook for next period. I grab my schedule from my bag and see what I have for next period. Social studies. Great I'm already gonna fail school I think to myself. I rush into class and see Lev sitting in a seat all by himself, and no one seems that they want to go near him. I go next to him and sit down. "So you are the hated kid here." I whisper at Lev. Lev almost jumps out of seat, must be scared of me. "I told you I already am the hated kid here." Lev says with rage in his voice. I guess some people heard us or something cause some people hears us and looks in our direction. Some people looks at me like I'm crazy sitting next to Lev. Then the bell rings saying class started. "Hello class!" says an old man as he walks into the room. "Hello Mr. Southwick!" says the whole class, except for Lev and me. "Well I'm not sure if you all heard,buuuut we have a new student today!" says Mr. Southwick. Everyone looks at my direction, and I don't react like most people would, because I'm used to the attention. "Why don't you tell about yourself" Mr. Southwick says, and I stand up walking toward the front of the room. "So where do you come from?" Mr. Southwick asks. "Well actually I'm from here" I say, and all eyes are definitely on me now, even Lev is watching me. "Then, why haven't I've seen you around?" Mr. Southwick asks. "Well I live a little far from here, so maybe that's why, and I'm not much of an outside person." I tell him. "Why are you at our school then, aren't their like a million schools around here?" a voice asks. "I don't want to talk about that." I say, almost in a whisper. "Well why don't you sit down and lets get on with today's topic." says Mr. Southwick. I walk back to my seat hoping not everyone is looking at me. "Okay class let's get with today's topic, which is the Columbus Excahnge!!" says Mr. Southwick. Then I feel a tap on my shoulder noticing that Lev wants to tell me something. He gives me a folded piece a paper next to me. I open it up. R u ok? says the note. What do u think!?  I write back at him and give the note. When I watch him read the note,I can see the hurtness on his expression. He looks at me and mouths the word sorry. I don't say anything and I just open up my notebook to a clean new fresh page, and write down the notes Mr. Southwick is writing on the board.

 

 

After thirty minutes the bell rung, and it was time for third period. I check my schedule for third period which was science. Well at least it isn't going to be so bad, right? I grab a new notbook from my locker and rush into the crowded halls to my class. I open the door and see a mid-twenty man sitting in a chair and looking through is teachers book. Some girls talking to eachother in a group and giggling, a girl flirting with Ian or trying to get his attention. And the same gang from this morning putting "kick me" signs or "hurt my feelings" signs, but I ignore them and walk toward Ian, the only familiar person here. When I get there to where Ian's at there's a girl sitting on a spare desk trying to get Ian's attention by talking about her new designer clothes, but Ian's eyes are on me. "So are you dating anyone?' the girl asks Ian. Ian doesn't respond and then the girl loks at my direction and gaphs at what I'm wearing. "OMG, what are you wearing?" the girl asks me with a horrified look on her face. "Something better then what you're wearing so get off the tabke so my friend here can sit." says Ian, which surprises the girl. Then she gets off the desk and when she walks by she gives me a evil glare as if I just ruined her life, I just snicker back at her. I sit down next to Ian, and next thing I know my hand accidently lands on top of Ian's hand. I try quickly taking my hand off, but Ian holds my hand instead. Ian looks in front of us and smiles. I look in his direction and see that the girl that was flirting with Ian earlier, is now watching us, horified as if she just as her boyfriend cheating on her. I lean closer to Ian's ear and whisper to him. "Your not dating anyone, right?" I ask. He leans toward me and I can smell a strong smell of redwood trees from him, even though there from California. "No I'm not dating anyone." He whispers back to me. And he leans back into the chair still holding my hand. Then the next thing I know the bell rings. The teacher stands from his desk and taps on the white board behind him. It says "Open books to Chapter 6 and take cornell notes while reading." Everyone in the whole class including Ian groans. "Hey! No whining or detention you little idiots can work with your elbow buddy, and only about chapter 6, do I make myself clear?" the science teacher asks. "Yes Mr. Wilson!" everyone says. The the phone next to the door rings. Mr. Wilson stands from his chair and goes answer the phone. "Uh huh, yes she's here.....,yup I'll send her down." says Mr. Wilson and hands up the phone. "Hey where's Lucia?" Mr. Wilson asks the whole class. I stand up from my chair. "I'm right here" I say. "You need to go to the nurses office." Mr. Wilson says. I don't ask him why and I just go out the door toward the big childish sign that says "Nurses Office" with big hearts around it. I roll my eyes looking at the sign and when I push through the door I gasp at what I see inside.

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    What I see isn't good, not at all. I see two boys sitting on one of the beds with blood stains on their shirts, and they're holding their noses with blood soaked tissues. The one next to them has a boy lying down with bandages wrapped around his head. And then the one in the very back is Lev. I rush toward him and stop and gasp at the sight of him. I have to grab one of my hand from slapping him. "What happened?!" I say to Lev and he almost jumps out of the bed. "Nothing" he says to me. I get so mad at him I slap him. He looks at me and so do the other boys that are hurt. "I SAID, WHAT HAPPENED!?" I yell at him. He looks at me as if he were hurt. "You know you sound just like mom you know" he says to me. I whimper at the mention of mom. "You don't bring her into this" I say at him. "Hello dearie, are you Lucia, Lev's sister?" I hear a woman's voice say. I jump at the sound of the woman's voice, and I turn around to see who the voice is. When I look behind me it's a woman in her early forties wearing a light pink dress with a doctor jacket on her. "Yes I am." I say to the woman. "Well aren't you a pretty girl, anyway your brother got into a harsh fight so I suggest to let him go home, and I just want to update that he might have a few brusises and I already put some liniment on him so that should take care of that so watch out." the nurse says to me. "Thanks." I say back to her and the nurse walks back to her office in the corner and does some papers. "Can I go now nurse?" asks Lev as if he just watched a baby show a million times. "Of course dear, and be careful with that arm will you?" says the nurse. Lev just nods and starts to head toward the door, and I follow him out. When I close the door I grab Lev from his shoulder and slam him against the lockers with a loud bang. Lev looks at me with a surprised face and some other kids in the hallway looks toward our way. "What happened to you when you were at that fight?" I ask Lev with a low voice so not everyone can hear us. "Do you really want to know, cause you might start a fight with the other boys like I did." says Lev with a questioning look on his face. "Why else would I slam you against the locker to get answers, so I can waste my energy on you?" I ask Lev. "True,true" says Lev. "So spill brother." I said in a low tone voice. "Ok ok, when I was just passing by in the halls the guys in the group were talking to eachother,but when I got closer they were talking about you how you will probably uh..."-Lev gets a little closer to my face and says"a hoe or hooker or a girl that'll just make out with guys out of knowhere." Lev steps back a little. I let go of Lev's collar shirt and stand back,shocked. I look back at Lev "You better not be lying to me got it?" I say to Lev. Lev nods and says looking at me in the eye"You're gonna do that little trick on them aren't you". "You know to me too well brother." And then the lunch bell rings. All the doors open and a flood of high school students fill the hallway to the cafeteria. I follow the the crowd toward the lunch room smiling to myself thinking about the trick I'm gonna do the boy group.

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I enter a enormous room with tables all arranged in a neat row and kids all filling the tables by seconds. I saw one empty table and saw Lev sitting all by himself,but then Ian walks toward him fist bumps Lev and they start talking to eachother. I decide that I should sit with people I'm familiar with which is Lev and Ian,so I start to walk toward their table. When I get there both Lev and Ian looks at me. "Hey Lucia" says Ian,and gestures me to sit with them. I sit down next to Lev and look inside his lunchbox. He has some juice,a sandwich,potatoe chips,and an apple. I take the apple for myself and start to eat it. "Hey, that's mine" says Lev. "You know you sound like a baby whining so shut up and I don't care." I say and contiune eating the apple. Then I feel a slight touch on my calfs under the table. When I look down Ian's leg is touching againist mine and I can start to feel heat rushing in my cheek. "You ok, you look a little pale and red in the cheek." says Ian. "Yeah yeah I fine." I say. I lean toward Lev and whisper into his ear"If you see those boys from earlier tell me",and Lev points in front of us which was the group of boys that beat up Lev,and they start to walk toward us. Ian looks where Lev is pointing and looks back at us with the expression on his face oh-shit-we're-dead look. 

  The boy in front of the group has blond hair with blue eyes and is wearing a blue t-shirt and blue jeans with white sneakers. He could be my type if he didn't have a scar on his forehead,and didn't try to beat up Lev. Blond stops a foot away from us and tells the group behind him to go,which they all leave,and he starts to walk our way. "Soooo you're new girl, right?"says Blond. I just nod at him. He sits down next to Ian and says"Well then you might not know,but you don't want to hang out with this loser" and points to Lev. "Hey dumbass she's my devil sister,you think she doesn't know that already?" says Lev. "I can speak for myself Lev." I say and stand up and walk toward blond and lean into his ear "Meet me outside in the courtyard." I say and when I look back when Blond is looking at me I wink at him,and he starts to follow me. When we get outside we walk toward where there are no one near by, a.k.a on the side of the school and Blond pushes me onto the wall. I just watch him looking into my eyes with deperate look on his face. "So what's your name by the way?" I ask Blond. "It's Chris what about you?" Chris asks me. "Lucia" I answer. Then next thing I now Chris's lips are on mine and his hands are on my waist holding me firm and close to him. I wrap my arms around his neck and keep kissing him while Chris put his tongue into my mouth,and Chris starts to put his hands on my thighs. I accidently let a moan escape from my mouth,and then Chris stops kissing me and looks at me. I try not to make eye contact with him by looking down on the ground. Chris touches my chin with his hands making my looking at him. Then Chris gives me a gentle light kiss on the lips.  

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Chris and I walk back to the lunch room together trying to look like we didn't do anything, wrong. I head inside quickly toward Lev and Ian. When I walk inside the lunch room Lev looks at me like something happened between us. When I get to the table I sit next to Ian and staying silent. "You ok, you look like you just saw a ghost or something." says Ian. I don't move a muscle at all. "Hey say something or move something,jeez you're scaring me." says Ian with a frighten face. "Don't worry she's fine she's just surprised with something that happened between her and Chris." says Lev. Then I shoot Lev an evil glare and Ian jumps. "Sooooo what happened to you guys?" asked Ian. "Nothing" I said quickly which made Lev look at me. "Hey sis can we have a sister brother talk?" asks Lev. I nod and go to his side of the table. Lev leans into my ear and said "You and Chris did something together,didn't you?" and he looks at him. I lean into his ear and say "Maybe",but when I said it,it sounded more like a question than a respond. "So it's a yes isn't it" says Lev. Before I can answer the bell rings for fifth period. I stand up qiuckly and start to head to class. I look down at my schedule and next is accelerated math. I walk into the class room and sit in an empty desk right next to the window. At least there might be something interesting going on out there. And when I look outside I'm correct. I see Chris outside hanging out with his other friends and they're beating up a boy with thick glasses and braces with thoses tan slacks and weird sweater on him even though it's a little hot outside. Chris tells something to the gang and they walk up to glasses boy and start to punch him and kick him. When I look back at Chris he's looking straight at me with the expression on his face I-just-fucked-up look. I frown at him and look toward to the board where it says do problems one through ten and there are a stack of papers on the teachers desk. Everyone goes up to get a paper so I go and follow them to get a paper. I grab the paper and start on some of the problems which is starting to give me headache. I stop in the middle of the third problem and look outside of the window to see if Chris left,which he did. I wonder why he beat up that boy. For lunch money? For revenge? Just for fun? I don't even know why kissed him anymore and I put my head down to the table. I lift my head up and continue with my math problems. When I finish a teacher in her fiftys or sixtys walk into the classroom and says "When you are done put your worksheet on my desk and don't forget your name." Everyone nods at her and gets back to working on their math probelm. I stand up and put my paper on her desk and walk back to desk feeling everyone's eyes on me probably thinking she's done already!? I sit back down and look out a the window then the bell rings. "Whoever isn't done with their paper it is for himework" says the old lady. Everyone groans and leaves the classroom without a sound. 

 

I follow the crowd out of the classroom and head to my next class which is 

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