Alone

August 18, 2011

I am lost.
Beyond being found.
My journey is as cold as the night,
But on my way I found you.
It's complicated, these feelings.
What do they mean?
What do they want?
I still wander--
Through darkness,
Through rage,
Through fear.
I see no light,
But still I blindly cling to you.
Just to not be...
Alone.

I realize--
I am alone,
Alone.

Forever.
There is no future for me,
Only darkness.
Even though I sense your presence,
I am always alone.

Faux Love

August 23, 2011

Where is the warmth I once felt
When you held me in your arms?
Where is the light in your eyes
When you see me smile?
The warmth of your touch is gone--
Your touch is as cold as a winter morning.
The light in your eyes is gone--
Your eyes are shrouded in darkness.
How much longer will we go along with this?
Pretending to have feelings for each other,
When there is really nothing left to feel.
It's not right--
It may be what we wanted before,
And maybe we still want it,
But there is no more love here.
So let's stop pretending.
Let's just walk away from this
With our hearts still fairly intact.

Mysterious Mysteries

September 08, 2011

The pain goes away
When I am near Her.
For once, I can believe that there is peace--
That there is hope.
It's impossible for me to fight the facts:
She is aware,
She is awake.
Her thoughts are strangely peaceful,
But why?
She has no reason to care about us.
It's all a mystery to me--
Just like my own life.

I'll Be There

September 10, 2011

I am the shadow
That is by your side all the way,
No matter what happens.
When you are in doubt,
Just remember me,
And I'll be there.
I am the answer
To your worst fears,
No matter what happens.
When you need arms to hold you,
Just remember me,
And I'll be there.
When you need a shoulder to cry on,
Just remember me,
And I'll be there.
When you need a friend,
Just remember me,
And I'll be there.
And all the time you're remembering me,
Remember that I'll be thinking of you.

Don't

September 12, 2011

Don't cry on my behalf,
Life will go on without me.
Don't be worried for me,
It will only slow you down.
Don't burden your heart
With my pain,
My fears,
My hurt.
You won't be able to handle it.
Look forward, not backward.
Your future looks good now,
But if you concern yourself for me,
That will surely change.
But remember
That I will always love you.

Selfish Me

September 12, 2011

I'm so selfish,
Allowing you to steal my heart.
Look at what you've done to me:
My eyes constantly follow you.
Instead of doing my duty,
I watch you.
I made a promise to myself
That I wouldn't look away from my duties
As a servant to Her,
Or to myself.
I vowed to help this world.
But to do that,
I musn't let anyone get too close.
It hurts in ways I never imagined,
But the Mother calls to me
To help her children.

Reveal

September 12, 2011

R

emember this pain...
E

very drop of it.
V

eer off the course you have chosen.
E

nd your own fears,
A

nd give in...
L

ife for you is over now.

~~~~~

October 04, 2012

R

est here in my arms.
E

very day,
V

ow to never leave me.
E

very night,
A

llow me to see to your heart.
L

ove wraps around us.

Freedom

September 13, 2011

It's the air you're constantly breathing.
It's the wind blowing through the trees.
It's the birds at day,
And the stars at night.
It's the life you keep on living--
'Til the end.
Don't forget these things,
And
Don't forget your freedom.

Devotion

September 15, 2011

D

espair the day I changed.
E

veryone sees me differently now,
V

ery differently.
O

h, how I want to go back
T

o the way it was, before
I

discovered my own secret.
O

h, how I'm addicted to the blood...
N

ow that I'am sharing my body.

Yearning

October 10, 2012

You ask me these questions:
Why do I want the things I want?
Why do I keep my wishes to myself?
How do I expect to make them true?
My answers:
I don't know.
I don't know.

I don't care.
We have no reason to question the universe.
That doesn't stop me from wanting the impossible.
Everyone wants what they don't have,
What they see others with.
Clothes,
Shoes,
Money.
They'll steal, cheat, and lie, just to get it,
Whatever the cost.
Not me--
My heart is a closed book
That everyone seems to want to open.

Take Me With You

To my dear friends,
Ryann,
Jamesha,
and Alex.

October 10, 2012

Where ever you go,
Take me with you.
Through happy times or sad times,
Take me with you.
Through heartbreak and despair,
Take me with you.
Through love or hate,
Take me with you.
Through laughter and bright eyes,
Take me with you.
Through smiles or through tears,
Through comfort or through fear,
Through life or through death,
Take me with you.
I am your friend, and because of that,
Take me with you, through it all.

I Don't Wanna

To Jordan, whom I'll always love, no matter what. I didn't show this to you right away because as always, my feelings were totally mixed up. But you're a great friend, who makes me so very confused.

December 03, 2012

I don't wanna miss you.
I don't wanna cry.
I don't wanna feel that ache
All through my insides.
I don't want to call you,
Because then for sure I'l shatter.
I don't want to watch you move on,
Because then our past won't matter.
When I tell my friends I'm okay,
They know it's a lie.
I don't want to live without you--
I think I'd rather die.

Love

December 06, 2012

Love

is like a seed

:
It can freeze

into a pulp

From Winter frost

,
Or wither

away
From Summer drought

--
But when it matures

Into its full potential

,
It is a breathtakingly beautiful

sight.

Impressum

Texte: Christina Tyson
Lektorat: Christina Tyson
Tag der Veröffentlichung: 16.12.2012

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