Winter Hour
Once a gaze with springs soft touch
with summers warmth in green iris's
a smile so sweet and crisp not even fall could touch.
But now winter has set in those eyes
a chilling breeze has come alive
as winter settles in the night.
Lips curve to smile like a winters wind
cold and chilling unto the end.
And green eyes set with a frozen glare
so much ice a bench would bend and break.
The winter settles but it's contained
with chains and jackets it's kept away
to do no more harm than it has done
to no longer hurt anyone.
And as the days go on and on
the winter chill becomes undone.
The softness of spring begins to show
yet all too late winter has one last show.
By chains it's dragged from its containment
forced to sit before a crowd
the winds they blast with one last strength
one last try
before winter officially goes away.
The final show now given
the drug it sets in
the freezing winter finally gone
but not before it comes undone
and started to show a gaze with springs soft touch
with summers warmth in green iris's
and then too little too late
the chilling winter has gone away.
Her World
Darkness had engulfed her world
she had not seen a light in years
locked way in her own mind
run by her fears.
Dark circles deepened
underneath dull eyes of brown
she had lost all hope of freedom
and so she waits to die.
Once long ago she had a light
that warmed her to the core
it pushed away the darkness
protected her evermore.
But that light how it faded
until abandoned her it did
so now she sits in the darkness
waiting for death to take her in.
But slowly a light appears
though different from the last
it pushes away all signs of darkness
its light a hot ember to her skin.
She finds herself floating
giving in and wanting
the light engulfs her very being
and she begins to mend.
The circles disappear
from neath her eyes
the dull brown Iris's
turn to liquid bark and shine.
Her skin once pale
now a soft tan
finally the light caressed her very being
as she was held in the arms of a man.
This man he made her life complete
became her light when she's in need
she smiled more happily
more willingly and finally she realized
her life was no longer a dream.
When He Brings You Up
When with one word from his lips,
you find yourself smiling,
you know he is the one for you.
When with a single touch,
you find yourself falling,
you know that it is true.
When he brings you up,
instead of pushing you down,
when he does all he can,
to make a bad day turn around,
when he works so hard,
to make you happy as can be,
you know that this is ment to be.
When without trying,
he knows what you are thinking,
when he knows without asking,
that you are angry or sad,
when he will sit there,
and listen to you cry,
you know he is perfect beyond a dream.
That is how I know
he is the one ment for me.
Monster in the skin
Annoyances turn to anger
anger turns to madness
and monsters come through the skin
their beauty disguised by scales
that rots away at the ends.
Nothing can chain the monster
once it is let loose
nothing can calm the anger
once it is given speech.
Nails drag the ground
claw like evils
blades of horrid dreams
they scratch and claw
at those around them.
The person as the monster comes
grows teeth as sharp as razors
they gnaw and gnash
and move in fierce rhythm.
Now the eyes
how they do bleed
as everything turns red.
Now the monster is let loose
nothing can survive its path.
Once the monster has returned
the scales leave the skin
beauty is once more shown
but the damage has been done
the world that was made
has turned to ruins
in the matter of a day
Seasonal Aging
At first comes spring with baby leaves
just waking up to give new trees.
Then slowly as the day’s move on
it grows to bloom before the seasons gone.
Then into summer the season goes
where fun and laughter comes with the suns brilliant glow.
The blooming flowers mature with the days
bringing forth beauty with their age.
Now into fall the season of beauty and work
with the plants slowly aging
and leaves falling from the comfort of their home
settling down to grow
and make a family of their own.
Then finally to winter
the aging process coming to a stop.
As the cold sets in the plants do die
though unto their death comes new life.
As winter turns back into spring
the deaths bring life among the aging seasons.
My wall
What life is there to live
If you have no one to live for?
What can you do but break
if no one is there to hold you together.
What can you do but plummet
if there is no wall to keep you up.
My wall had left,
I was breaking with each step,
I had no life to live.
But out of the blue
you came to me
sending me messages
lifting me up.
I found a wall
though still unsteady
yet I haven't found a life.
But slowly as we talk
I stop breaking
and a new life is reforming
my smile returning.
I'm having a better outlook
a better life.
I'm not as angry
and I’m not as sad.
This my friend is because of you
who has become my wall
and my shoulder to lean on.
Live, Love, Laugh
People live
People laugh
And people love
Live, laugh, love.
Live, Laugh, Love
As the world would have it
As the world would want it.
Live, Laugh, Grow
From baby to child
Child to teen
And teen to adult.
Live, Laugh, Believe
In all that you can be
In all that you can do
And can see.
Live, Laugh, Care
For those that you hold dear
Let nothing stand between
Don’t let whispers reach your ear.
Live, Laugh, Listen
To those who care,
Who understand
And wish to help you through.
Live, Laugh, Learn
From teachers and parents
Students and friends
Lovers and boyfriends.
Live, Laugh, Love
This is the only thing
A person can do
In a world
Where everything can be cruel.
With Your Last Breath
He came upon me,
Gun held high,
the mist that swirls,
covers his thigh,
where I am sure,
is strapped a knife.
You reach out to him,
calming in your gesture,
try to convince,
him to put it down.
But with wild eyes,
as sirens ring,
he shoots the gun,
you dive.
So I sit with you,
in the mist,
nothing left,
for you to miss.
With my hand in yours,
squeezing tight as your skin grows cold,
I feel your grip loosen,
as the darkness begins to take hold.
Tears fill my eyes,
as your lips move,
I lean close,
To listen.
"I'll wait for you,
at the white gates,
don't rush to see me,
because you will one day
I’ll refuse entry
'till you are there,
to walk with me,
to the other life,
where happiness awaits."
you say with you last breath,
a final good bye.
I can't help,
but let the tears fall,
as your hand falls from mine.
Your chest no longer moves,
Your eyes stare vacant at the wall,
As the sirens grow closer,
I begin to realize,
we never got a chance to love at all.
Unseen, Unheard, Untouched
I walk the earth,
Unseen,
I speak to others,
Unheard,
I stand in front
They pass right through me,
Untouched
Unseen,
Unheard,
Untouched,
I am nobody,
In a world of somebody’s.
I am nothing,
In a world of something,
Unheard,
Unseen,
Untouched.
I am the wind,
Flowing never touching,
Whispering never speaking,
Passing never seen.
Lost In the Desert
Dressed in the desert colors
his military cap on his head
lost among the weeds and sand
he'd been out there for days on end.
The only thing that kept him going
the only thing that kept him alive
was the fact that his family is waiting
hoping for him to come home.
He knew they already counted him as MIA
he knew that they were looking
that if he didn't find his way
soon he'd just be considered dead.
But he kept walking
searching and praying
hoping for a place to rest.
His supplies were running low
his food becoming scarcer by the day
his water had very little left.
A few times he had hallucinated he knew
seeing a Oasis
his family in the distance.
And when he heard the voices he was sure
that once more he considered it his mind
he considered it a hallucination.
But when the plane flew over head
the trucks came his way
he stopped and fell to his knees
realizing this may not be a dream.
The trucks they stopped the men jumped out
his friends ran to his side and hauled into the truck
and then they were leaving he was going home
finally his hope was full blown.
A few weeks later he was released home
and walking up the walk way to his house
he knelt to the ground as his children ran out.
The soldier had made it home.
New Love
You said you loved me,
said you needed me
wanted me
even gave me a ring to prove it.
I spent 3 years
three years of my life
ignoring your lies
ignoring the pain you brought to my life.
Three years of you disappearing
for months on end
no calls no explanations
I'd just sit and worry till you returned.
Then you'd give an excuse
lie just like you always do
and give me a gift
thinking that would make it all better.
But none of that pulled me through
I broke and broke with each passing day
then not long after you gave me the ring
you left to never return.
I waited for months
I waited for a year
waiting and hoping
hoping you'd come back to me.
But you never did
so instead I walked with a broken heart
a broken person among friends
I hid it well
they never noticed the pain I was in.
But then one did
he helped me pull through
after 2 years of pain and hurt
he was the one who saved me from myself.
So now that ring
I have lost
but I don't care
for I've got new love.
A man who treats me true
who doesn't lie
doesn't hide what’s really going on in his life.
One who doesn't force me to lie to my family
just so I can keep him at my side.
This man is a true man
one who is better than you can ever be
one who has proven he'll never be you.
Three Years
3 years
3 years, 4 months and 29 days
3 years, 4 months, 29 days, 6 hours, 36 minutes and 19 seconds
that's how long it's been since you left me.
Yet whose counting?
3 years
3 years since the day you gave me the ring
3 years, 5 months, 3 hours and 4 seconds
that’s how long it's been since you gave me a promise of forever
but I'm not counting.
3 years
3 years, 4 months and 29 days
3 years, 4 months, 29 days, 6 hours, 36 minutes and 19 seconds
that's how long it's been since you shattered my heart
since you disappeared and left me broken
but of course I'm not counting.
1 year
1 year and 7 days
1 year,7 days, 18 hours, 48 minutes and 2 seconds
that's how long it's been since I found him
since he came to ease the hurt and make me live again.
Of course I'm counting.
Your hold on my heart broke
the second he stepped into my life
I truly began to laugh again
and I truly became happy.
I didn't have to try to hide my pain
he knew he saw
I no longer locked myself in my room to cry
he understood and he loved.
Your pictures burn without remorse
as I burn away the painful memories.
1 year, 7 days, 18 hours, 48 minutes and 2 seconds
that's how long I have been free of you
that's how long he has loved me.
Cursed to Bleed
The chain's wrapped tight in her hands
cutting into her palm till she bleeds.
The tears she cries are a deep red
because her heart, it bleeds.
She pulls the chain tighter as she begins to think
using the pain to cut off all thought
of the past that haunts her so
a man that she works hard to forget.
The blood from the chain in her palm
drips slowly to the ground
the flowers quickly soak it up
her pain absorbed without remorse
and she quickly realizes
that her pain is of her own.
No one will come to her aid
she'll face this alone till the end
and so the chain shifts hands
pulled tight again till it cuts skin.
But pulled away from her it is
and wrapped around her neck
the chains pulled tight till bleeds she does
and on the ground she lies.
The figure having relinquished her pain
runs away with that necklace in hand
though he thinks it a prize
it's just a cursed jewel
upon which only brings pain and doom.
Now in new hands, the cycle starts again
the chain drawn tight and blood begins to drip
until once more the one it holds is dead
and it continues from hand to hand.
The knife, and the thief
The knife it draws across my skin
the tears I cry of deepest red
mixes with the blood from my hand.
The things you say push this knife
the action behind every word cuts it deeper
I feel my humanity beginning to lose itself
you stole my heart
you stole my soul
but did not stop to repay them back.
A thief you are
one of death
to bring upon such pain.
You let death drag me to a grave
it's pale fingers digging into my skin
I lose myself among the pain
my mind gone black forever.
But then you change and pull me back
save me from forever blackness
but then you drop to run away
forever a thief of my mind and thoughts
playing games with the slightest touch.
Sending me spiraling confused and lost
and so the knife I draw deeper
to keep me grounded in my flight
to keep me from losing my mind.
I love you enough to let you go
Years of bliss
of happiness and everlasting love
never thought the plans could change
never thought I'd be watching you drift away.
At first you pull the strong card
decide to stay
refuse to hurt me in anyway
but I start to see the signs
from simple actions
and simple words.
Your love for me it had gone
I knew it within the month
but even then I still held on
not wanting to let go.
But soon I saw the sadness
your need to be free
I began to see little signs
of someone other than me.
I finally decided
it was time to let go
no matter the love I had for you
it was unfair to keep you against your will.
I love you enough to let you go
since your heart no longer felt the love
and though I'd hurt for years to come
I'd know your happy and in love.
Car Parade
Silver tears
with deep black pain
the life she had
has ended.
Brooding life
and black drawn curtains
the room she loved
now empty.
Steel coffin
only the best there is
flowers scattered about
sorrow begins.
Black clothes
with sorrow faces
gathered around a coffin
it begins.
Car Parade
all black with death
the front a long black van
death comes.
Fates Cruelty
Every word that left his lips
fell like acid and began to singe.
The lies, the love
the simple touch of someone close to her.
She soon realized that all it was a front
to get close enough to break her already broken heart
nothing could stop the man
the pain that he had cause
it was as though life decided to rip all thoughts from her.
That fate had the need to see this woman suffer
the need to tear away her love
the very life from beneath her feet
the need to take away her reason for living
just for a good laugh about the world.
And then fate gives her more pain
by making the one she thought she could trust
turn his back and lie to her
without so much as second thought.
He had spoken with such words of silver
with such sweetness that no fruit could ever match
he had been willing to stay up all night
to listen to her cry with her broken heart
and yet he turned around to hurt her more
to lie and spit in her face against his very words
to turn hide the one fact from her he knew would kill her still
to date her best friend behind her back
then lie about it by saying it someone else.
The pain that went into her chest
when she heard from her friend of the dark deed
of the fact that it was no woman on his base
but instead a woman a state away
saying she had issues with their talks
when the woman that he talked of could not see nor hear their words
and so the pain she held it tight
not able to do more than want to die
because the man he hurt her so
and she was stuck beneath fates cruel toe
obviously ment for a life of pain and hurt
for a life of lies beneath every word.
The Being
The very life she breathed began to ebb and bleed
her feet, they seemed to be nailed to the very floor she wanted to leave
the creatures hidden beneath the wood
the death and decay that she so desperately fled
tried to pull the girl back in
so she could die her bloody death.
She struggled with her feet some more
as dark shadows shifted from the floor
and nothing she could do would help her move
instead she tried to claw her way from the room.
Then from the boards creeped a bloody river
threatening to drown her as it filled
but from the dark red depths it came
the being in which she saw her own demise.
Slowly the stench it over powered
like rotting flesh and the corpses flower
the being it made its way to her
where eyes had been were now just dark black worms
and teeth of rotted skin.
She tried to scream but could not speak
and tried to move but could not fall
frozen with the power of the being
the terror behind it all.
Forced to watch as her demise
appeared at her from everywhere
and approached her from all sides
trapping her beneath its stare.
So without a scream without a shout
the being began to slice her in and out
first her stomach where her entrails poured
then her throat so her gurgled pain could be heard.
Then next the legs to save for later
a pinky finger for its greatest treasure.
But last of course it tore her eyes
to use as its own once it left her side.
The being it slid them into its sockets
and blinked once then grinned.
Retreating to the floor boards
it left her bloody corpse not caring to clean it's mess
waiting for the next victim to come along
till it's body was complete
and it could walk alone.
Red Rose
A deep red rose
keeps it's petals low
among a field of white.
It stands outside
it wants to hide
but yet it's shoved
into the lime light.
The poor red rose
it's torn to shreds
the thorns of others relentless
as they keep tearing
until very little is left.
That red rose is tattered
torn and broken,
due to the harshness
of those around it.
But then another rose
bright yellow,
makes it through the field of white.
Picks the red rose up
fixes it, and heals it.
And so among that field
the red and yellow roses
both stand tall and taller
wanting to show who they are
who they can be.
The roses
they have let themselves be free.
Unnerved
To the world
so harsh, so cruel
understand my mental attitude.
I am of one
one mind,
one body,
and two different images given by few.
I know your thoughts
are edgy and unkempt.
Thinking I am one of plenty
who’ll give in to your rant,
about what I am made,
and who you think me as.
But to tell the truth,
I don’t care.
I am my own,
and live to find happiness and truth.
I love all,
and hate few.
You can speak behind my back
for no matter what you say or do..
I am one boat
in a murderous storm
that rages and makes waves,
so rough and mean,
to destroy me.
But on this boat
is where I stay
never tipping or turning over
to give it satisfaction of defeat.
Never giving in...
and when the storm is done
it’s rampage faltered...
there I stand calm and serene
unbothered and unnerved.
Forever sailing onward
through cruel storms and unfaltering whirlpools
that wishes to draw me into
the depths of the sea
to pummel and destroy my very being.
But here I stand unmoving and firm
not in a boat,
but on land...
not sea that wishes to destroy me, but people
whose words do others harm.
But not to me.
These words don’t touch me
they are just droplets falling
touching but never harming
sinking into the ground
where they are sucked in
to be repeated when thought needed.
So speak harsh world
continue your cruel rattle
your banter of falseness
cause I’ll stand strong and never fall
from the words that sear.
Cause fear that you send in others
will not touch me here.
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Tag der Veröffentlichung: 22.01.2010
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