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PROLOGUE
“Katheriiineee??! ? “– said my best friend Trisha, knocking in my door’s room – “ Kath, I’ve been looking for you, you don’t pick up my calls and don’t answer my messages, what’s going on...???KATHHH” – She screamed
“What you want ?“- I asked in a ruthless tone, while opening the door, waiting for a response - “I cant believe, you are still upset, because I went to Gina’s party” –she said, in a mercy look in her eyes “I already told you I hate that girl, after all she’ve done to me, she’s mean, you know that”- I said rolling my eyes –“Sorry , I went there just because I’m into Peter, I didn’t go because I like her, I was in a secret date with Peter”- Peter was Trisha’s crush since our first day of the senior year in high school, we would graduate soon, so she was working hard to convince Peter to date her, before college-“I know that, I’m upset, but it’s not about this, i’m just sad because, Georgetown didn’t accept me,I received the letter some days ago, I’m so sad, and kinda jealous of you, at least you have a college to go to, well me…You know”- I said looking AT both of us in the mirror- “Oh girl, is that what is making you uncomfortable? Don’t be sad, you know, besides Washigton D.C is far away from North Dakota, and your mom needs you, more than never, it is not the end, you can try in another college around here” – she said holding my left hand –“It is easy for you to say, you don’t have an addicted mom, sitting in your couch, moreover, your college is in LA, next to the beach, you know, look how perfect this is, you gonna left me, I’ve been working a lot, since my dad left, he just sends some money when he thinks I need, well, I need it, now, but where is my father? Uh? It is all her fault, she didn’t’ want to change, she’s miserable, and I hate this situation, I’m gonna be here to clean up my mom’s mess, while you are having your medicine classes, hanging out with some of your classmates and having fun at beaches, I’m pissed, this life sucks, I hate It, yeah it is just that .”-Crying I sat in my bed trying to regain my breath-Drying my tears she stared at me and said- “keep calm, everything’s gonna be alright, God’s gonna help you, you are winner with college or without it, I love you the same way also does your mom, even you don’t believe it, she’s just having a phase.”- “I don’t know what to do. I’m broken, my family is broken, I thank God I don’t have brothers or sisters, they would suffer.”
CHAPTER 1
3 months later, graduation has come
I was in Trisha’s house, we were getting ready together, she would do my hair and my makeup and I would do the nails, Trisha also invited Naomi and Ashley, they were nice girls, we both like them, I was really excited with my graduation.
My mom would come, after almost having an overdose , she was 2 months clean from any drugs she’s been doing, it made me happier, everything looked perfect, even my boyfriend Brad would come, he was 5 years older than me , we were dating for 2 months and a half, I met him when I was at the hospital with my mom, we had an instant connection, he was mixed , his honey complexion was stunning, beautiful smile, dark-greened eyes, taller than me, I was 5’3 and he was 6’1, he had a great body, a lot of muscle to look at , we were happy together . Everything looked so perfect, It has been a long time since the last time I felt this way about my life, my dad couldn’t come, because his wife was sick, but he told me he would make it up to me .
Trisha was looking for some foundation to match with my color, since I was 2 shades lighter than her, she was stunning in that dress, her body was just like mine, big booty and breasts, no belly, we used to work all together, well when I used to have some money for me, everything I do is work all day, I was 1 year older than her, because I went to school later, it was funny. All girls were gorgeous, it is a pity that some people will not be able to see our beautiful outfits, because we all are going to use that robe.
We were almost ready to go to the limo that Trisha’s dad had booked for all us we were laughing, singing and acting like crazy when we were together, and we had a lot of fun, I even forgot all my problems I was going through in the past.
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The first person I saw there was my beloved mother, even though, she wasn’t the perfect mom, she was the only one I had, my mom. She was addicted in pills, because of her depression, she couldn’t stand, but take the pills, every time she felt sad or upset, it became an obsession, she’s better now and I’m happy, I never hated her, I hated the situation, she was my mother and I loved her with all my soul, I would do anything to help her, even though I was rough with her sometimes, I just wanted her happiness. – “Hey Honey, you are so beautiful, today is your day, my little baby, time passed so quickly, I love you baby, I’m proud of you. ”- She said, staring deeply in my eye globe, she hugged me and made me remember how much I was loved-”Thanks Mom, I’m proud of you too.”- I said before walking to my seat.
Gena was the orator, I pretended I wasn’t listening to her speech, I didn’t like her, because she spread personal things about my mother and I , she could spread rumors about me, but not about my momma, after all that B*tch kissed the guy I liked in high school, she used him to make me feel like shit, she was cheerleader, skinny, white, tall, blonde, blue eyes, and no boobs, she was all popular I was just one more kid at school, but somehow guys looked at me, maybe she was just jealous or she hated me for no reason. When our graduation was over I was looking for Brad, I couldn’t find him, I called him, he told me he couldn’t make it, because his boss asked him to stay 3 more hours, I was upset, but I just chilled out, my friends and I went to Pretzels now , It was too funny, we all laughed and had a great night, we wanted to go to some dance club, but in my city the nicest place to go was Pretzels now, the best restaurant to meet people and hang out, I’m not saying this because I worked there, but it was good, then Brad sent me a message, my phone buzzed:
Hey baby, I miss you, I need to see you, now
Can you meet me in front of
5 Season’s motel, please.
-Brad
I went to 5 Season’s motel, he was so handsome standing there waiting for me so patiently, I walked in front of him and kissed him tenderly, I hugged him “What is this ? is everything ok?” – he asked –“yes, it is”- I said, looking him in the eyes –“Baby, I booked a room for us, we are going to spend the night together”- “What? What I’m gonna tell to my mom ”-I said with fear in my eyes- “Baby, she will not mind, just tell her you are in Trisha’s house, just chill, it is just a little lie, little lies are not sin, come on ”-he said, trying to convince me-“ok , I’m gonna chill, let’s go to our room.” I was fearing , I knew what would happen to me this night, I would lose my virginity with Brad, I don’t know how it feels , I was nervous, freaking out and sweating, while he was happy with a bragging walk, he didn’t know I was a virgin , I kept this just for me-“BABY? Are you there?”-he asked, looking at me, breaking my tension and all my crazy thoughts “Yeah baby”, the room was nice, not 5 stars, but cozy.
He started kissing me, making me feel in the heavens, he kissed my neck, giving me chills from the top of my head to the soles of my feet, he took off my dress, kissed my each breast and tried to open my bra- “STOP, I can’t do this, it is too soon”-I said in a ruthless tone,- “If not now, then when? Baby, stop, let’s do it, we both want this so hard, I can feel you are all turned on, stop being so old fashion about it, I’m taking you up to heaven, you will not regret, come on, ”-he said, putting his hands on my breasts-“I guess, you want this more than I do, you didn’t tell me if I wanted to come to this place to have sex, you just made the decision for yourself, I need to go ”- I dressed up and went away, he came behind me, but I told him to leave me.
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I went home and my dad was there arguing with my mom about something, when I went in the living room they stopped talking to each other immediately, I ran and hugged my dad, I loved him and I missed him, he was tall, he used to play basketball at school, he picked me up from the floor, but when he putted me down , he looked at me with such a look, - “What’s wrong dad?”- I said with fear in my voice-“Honey, sit down ”- I sat-“Your mom spent all your money for college, you got nothing, she spent in gambling, sorry baby, I found out this morning, I needed to drive here to tell you this.”- “Mom, is this true??”- she didn’t look at me-“I can’t believe, you are so selfish, how could you? Mom? Look at me, MOM”- I screamed in tears-“Dad? Dad? She is crazy, dad what I’m gonna do, I don’t wanna be a waitress for the rest of my life, dad?”- I said in tears- my Dad hugged me –“Kath, you can come to my house, we build your life up again, no problem, you are gonna be fine”- “No dad, no. I’m leaving here, I just need some money borrowed I’m not staying here with this woman, I don’t even know her anymore ”- I said looking at her with anger- “Sorry Kat, I don’t have money, I’m broke.”- he said looking at me- “ok, I’m gonna help her, even though she stole me, I still love her, Dad please, leave, I need to be alone, please, I don’t want you fighting with mom”- “Ok baby, call me if you need something or if you are in trouble, love you”- he kissed my forehead and left, my mom was just sitting in there in awe and I was way to mad to argue.
The next morning I was feeling sick to my stomach, my mom was an addicted in pills and gambling, I didn’t lose my virginity with the guy I liked and I was poor, I called Trisha and told her all my situation – “Girl , I can’t go there, I’m leaving, I’m going to LA in 4 hours, I’m packing, do you wanna come over, I want to see you”- “I need to work and take care of my mom, but i want to see you also, at least a hug I’m gonna be able to give you”- I said – “ok, honey, I’m waiting for you.”
I saw my mom sitting on the couch watching tv, I think she was watching a gossip tv show, she saw me , but I left right before she could have an opportunity to say something, I went to kitchen to prepare my breakfast while I was doing it I thought about my mom, she used to be nice, when I was a kid she used to bring me at park to play with the other kids, she was perfect and present in my life, but a couple of years ago, she became sick with a deep depression, I didn’t know she used to gambling I discovered last night, it was a shock and she stole all my money from college, I was mad as hell, but I couldn’t do anything to her, but I could just ignore her, my dad went away when he found out she was obsessed with the pills, I begged him to stay, but he told me he would never leave me alone, even though he was gone, I believed him, but he started a new life with his wife, i couldn’t go to his house, he deserved to be happy after all, my mom ruined everything.
My thoughts were driving me crazy, maybe Brad would break up I was a bit nervous, my palms were sweating, but I would go to talk to him, but first I needed to see Trisha to say Good-bye. I was in front of her house, I didn’t knock, I just got in , I was part of her family, her mom loved me , the half of my clothes it was her mom who gave me. I went upstairs, there was Trisha, packing all her stuff, two big suitcases were packed already, there was two more to pack, when she saw me she hugged me so tight-”you’re hurting my ribs”-I said, laughing-“I’m going to miss you, I hope you take care of your mom, but first of all you need to take care of yourself. ”- She said, looking me in the eyes-“I’m going to miss you too, I’m going to take care of her, even though all she did”—“oh girl, you are gonna be fine, this is just a process, girl, I’ve got something to say, I kissed Peter last night, It was amazing, I’ll never forget.”-“that’s nice, I’m glad you did this, I mean both of you, I have work to do, Brad wants to talk to me, I need to go, give me a hug, I love you so much”- we hugged each other-“I love you too”- she said letting me go.
I went to Brad’s apartment, I knocked, a girl opened up, I got in , the girl didn’t say a thing, she didn’t have a chance to do it, I caught both of them, Brad was semi naked in his bed, while the girl had a towel wrapped around her, I wake him up and slapped his face, I was so nervous-“You asshole, I hate you, why did you do this to me, why ? ”-I beat him up – “Stop, you crazy? it was you who left me turned on in that motel”-he said while he held me in an attempt to stop me from beating him – “get off of me, you already have a bitch to turn on when I’m not around, let me go, get off”- he left me go, I took a cup of glass and threw at him, it almost hit his face. I went out running from all this drama, my life has become; it was like a nightmare that I couldn’t wake up. I went to work, feeling dizzy and sad, everything about last night seemed like a blur, this morning was shit. I decided to make my mom go to rehab, and she wouldn’t come, but I would force her, she needed help, but she denied believing that,but this would change soon, she ‘d get help.
I went home 9pm so tired, I was broken, but I decided not to think about this anymore, I needed to be strong or else I would freak out and cry anytime, I was surfing on the internet searching for some nice places my momma could go to treat herself, I didn’t have in the bank , but I kept around of U$ 400 dollars, I think it would be enough to pay her 2 first weeks, it was expansive, but my mom needed, the next morning I went to a place called ‘next to heaven’, I visited to see if it was a nice place for my mom to stay, she was clean from drugs, but not from gambling and this is sad, because I realized that her bedroom TV was gone, this problem became serious and I was concerned, I assigned the papers and I would convince her to go. I came home and started talking to her, it was the first time since the night I knew about the robbery-“Mom, you need this, you need help, you’ve already done big damage in our lives, it affected even my dad, do this for both us , I need you to be healed, I need you to be safe and health”-“I don’t wanna go, here’s my place, I will stop gambling I promise you, baby, I’m so sorry for all the things that I've done, I wasn’t thinking right, but I will stop I swear”- she said begging me-“Mom, you are going, I can’t stand this, you are selling some of your things, you need to stop, if you don’t go , I will never look at your face again, I’m gonna leave this house and forget you are my mother, I can handle all, I’m gonna be fine, I’m already 18, so let me, give me this time, give yourself this time to heal inside, do it for me, if you love me or care about me you will do it.”- I said threatening her- “I’m tired of all this too, I’ll do this for you, it is not because I want, I just wanted to prove you that I love you, because every time I said that you don’t believe, I’m looking for some redemption”- she said almost crying. I called, then they came to pick up my mother, it was too sad seeing her leaving, but it was the best for both of us –“Baby, you are gonna visit me? I need to see you”- she said crying. I couldn’t say anything, but see her go.
Everything was planned in my head, I would go to L.A soon to live next to my friend Trisha, I would get a job there and left here, but first my dad needed to assign the papers to make the house all mine, I was going to rent and pay my mom’s rehab, I didn’t want to stay in South Dakota I didn’t like the neighborhood, I was dreaming to get out of there as soon as possible and this would be my chance, the perfect time to leave that house. I went to work late, my boss were looking at me with anger-“Kath, it is the second time this week, help me to help you”- she said looking at me, well I needed help.
I came home and checked on mailbox, my dad assigned all the papers the house was mine, I put a plaque announcing that the house was available to rent.
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1 week later
I shock her hand and said- “Deal”- it was a nice lady who rented my place, some people visited my house, but just her liked it, I think it was because my place wasn’t big enough, I was getting U$600,00 per month, it was good, I was happy, I told her I would get out of the house in 3 days, she agreed, I was happy, all the furnishes would stay there, I would just pack my clothes and quit my job, well my dad didn’t know I would go to L.A, I would tell him when I got there, I already bought my train passage to go to L.A.
I went to my job and spoke to my boss, she gave me all the money she owned me, It was so good to leave, it seemed like a dream.
The next morning the lady came to have the house all for her, I gave her the keys and went to the train station, the train came, I got in and sat I was on my MacBook, looking at some photos of me ,my mom, my dad and Trisha, I loved them, they were my family, I would make Trisha a surprise, I was really happy and excited, I would arrive there in 30 hours, it would be a long trip, but it was worth it, if I can’t find happiness in South Dakota, maybe L.A was my best shoot, I was convicted it was the right place to go to have some fun and forget of my problematic life. A couple of hours later I noticed that a handsome guy couldn’t keep his eyes off of me, he was Latino, dark eyes and hair, skinny, he was in an expensive suit, nice shoes, he was like a business man, I wasn’t sure, I looked at him a couple of times, but it was an innocent look.
*****
I had just one more hour, I would arrive there soon, I was preparing myself, putting my laptop, makeup, toothbrush, toothpaste, inside my purse, I didn't notice that I left my headphones fall into the floor, when I looked up there he was with my headphones in his hand waiting me to say the magic words-“Oh, Thanks”- I said while I moved my hand to reach my headphones, but he held tight on it-“Can you give me your phone number?”-he said with a smirk –“Oh Sorry, I’m not available, can you hand me my headphones?”-moving my hand one more time, he allowed me to take it-“Ok, Sorry I bother you, at least I tried, you’re too beautiful, I couldn’t just leave without asking you your phone number.”- I smiled feeling guilty, after all I lied to him, but I wasn't in the mood to just give him my number, after everything I’ve been through with Brad Asshole, I was just looking for some fun, one night stand, I was tired of being the innocent girl, I would change it all by moving to L.A.
I arrived in L.A, I was tired, since I didn’t sleep very well in the train, I was worried about my mom, I would call her as soon as possible, also my dad, but first I needed to take a bath and have a great sleep, Everything was planned, I booked a cheap hotel it wasn’t 5 stars, at least it was next to the beach, I loved beaches since I was a little kid, I went just once, because it was far away from my house.
I needed a cab, I didn’t know a thing in L.A, I was a bit lost, but there were some nice people there, I took the cab and arrived at the cheapest hotel in the city called ‘Emphasis’, I was happy to finally be in there, it was magical, I adored everything, my room was cozy, one single bed, a table, two chairs and bedside tables, the illumination was really poor, but the sheets were well washed and smelled good. I threw my suitcase on the floor, undressed myself, took a bath, sometimes I felt one drop of cold water, I guess that shower was an old one, but I didn’t care, I went to bed, expecting so bad for tomorrow.
CHAPTER 2
I woke up the next morning, I could hear the sound of the waves, and it was so peaceful, I decided to go to the beach before going to Trisha’s apartment to make her a surprise, I had a plenty of time, because I was up really early, I was so anxious to see her, to see her reaction and everything.
I went downstairs, and walked just 5 minutes, then I was on the beach, it was 7:30am, I didn’t eat breakfast, I was so excited about the beach and Trisha, I forgot about it, but I didn’t care, because my money was over, I just had U$100, 00 and 45% of this money was to pay the hotel, the rest I would pay the cab and buy something to eat.
The view was amazing, I took off my summer dress, sat in a chair and it was everything perfect, after some minutes I noticed a handsome guy that I’ve never laid my eyes on, he looked good, wearing just a swimsuit, he was penetrating his eyes all over me, is this real?
His hair was blonde, brushed up and shinny, the sun just made him look more gorgeous, shinning all over his olive complexion, his six packs and blue eyes. Is this even real? Somehow he looked different from everything I’ve ever seen.
He was deepening his stare at me, it seemed that he wanted me to realize that he was there , I was 8 meters away from him, even though I could feel the gaze, I think we both did. He couldn’t stop looking at me, I looked back just a couple of times, I was enchanted by his way, every part of him was perfect. I decided to go swimming, my towel would be in the sand, I didn’t care, I just wanted the sea.
When I came back, I saw him next to my towel, he was sitting there looking at me to come near me, the way he looked at me seemed like he has known me for a long time, I didn’t feel the same way, but his stare expressed itself. I looked at him. –“I should come over here more, this place is good, but it is getting better”-he said checking me out with a smirk-“Oh yeah, it is awesome”- I said with a comforting smile, I moved to reach my towel, then he took it to give me-“Hi, My name is Alexander, but everyone calls me Alex”-he said, hanging his hand for me to shake it-“Hi, Alex, my name is Katherine, but everyone calls me Kath”-I said, shaking his hand-“Kath, are you from L.A?”- “No, I came from North Dakota. What about you?”-“I knew you wouldn’t from here, your beauty is different. I’m from L.A, but I was born in Michigan, anyways, can I buy you a drink? There’s a place in the next corner, we could drink something and have some fun. What do you think? ”- He said with a smug smile-“No, I have something to do, I’m all busy today”-if he thought I would be one more girl on his list he was totally mistaken, I knew the type of men he was.-“Oh come on, just some minutes, I promise you”-some minutes to convince me to go to bed with him, hahaha, what a shameless –“I can’t, I have my reasons,I should go, It was nice to meet you, Alex”-I said smiling-“Oh okay, I’m sorry, stop! Don’t move, there’s something in your check, hang on, let me take it off”-Paralyzed, I was terrified, i thought it was a fly,then he touched my face, I was already feeling the gaze, we both were, he came closer and kissed me tenderly, I had the chance to move, but I just decided I wanted this kiss as much as he did, we kissed It was kinda magical, I’ve never felt the way I did when he approached and kissed my lips, he was so kind, while holding me tight, but something came across my head, I stopped kissing him –“I should probably get going”-“Why? Please, don’t go, let’s finish what we have started.”- he said, holding me tight in an attempt to not let me go –“I’m serious I need to go”-making him let me go-“Can I have your phone number?-he said waiting me to give him-“No.”- I said, so I left the beach right after that, letting him, staring all over me.
Alexander
There were something different about that girl, she was hot, her body was awesome, her hair was long, but it was up in a Ponytail, she turned me on by the time I laid my eyes on her, she notice my look, but she didn’t care, I was watching her swimming, it was the perfect vision, she was like a heaven sent, when she approached me i decided to start a conversation, the worst thing that could happen was her walk away from me, somehow I wanted to have her, at least bang her once, I was thinking like a womanizer, but I couldn’t stand , somehow she awoke this side of me, I asked her if she was from L.A, but I already knew the answer, because I saw the label of her towel, she was staying in Emphasis Hotel the cheapest hotel in this city, I assumed she was broke, trying to start a life around here, I asked her to have some drinks, but I guess she is not the kind of girl who have sex after buying her some drinks, well she didn’t want to feel cheap, then I would make her a little surprise, I kissed her, I gave the excuse that she had something in her face, which it was totally lie, I just wanted the opportunity to approach her, That kiss was so good , awoke every part of me, especially, well you know, her fat lips made me kiss her tenderly, I didn’t want to kiss her with hunger or she would walk away from me, I liked white girls the most, but Kath was different, her way, everything about her was wonderful, I would make her feel expensive, this was what she wanted.
CHAPTER 3
KATHERINE
I was dressed up and ready to meet Thrisha, but before going downstairs I ate the food that I ordered, which it wasn’t that good, but I needed to eat something, I decided that I should call my dad, because I missed him and he deserved to know where I was at. – “Katherine, hi, baby, how is everything going with you and your mom? “–he said with a warm voice-“Dad, I have two news to tell you, I decided to make my mom go to rehab, she is now hospitalized”- “What? Really? How is she? Have you visited her?”-“No, because I’m not in south Dakota”-“Where are you ? let me guess in Trisha’s Lake House”-he said laughing -“No, I’m in Los Angeles”- I said fearing what he would answer-“Katherine, I can’t believe it, how could you go without telling me and letting your mom behind in South Dakota, that’s why you wanted the documents of the house, now this makes sense, did you sell it?uh?”-he said angry at me-“Oh come on, I’m grown up, dad, I’m not a baby also doesn’t mom, moreover she is not alone, she’s healing , I rented the house, when mom gets better I’ll give her back, it is not a big deal, the money I earn I spend all in rehab so please”-I said, “You are just 18, this decision was not well made, come back to South Dakota”- “What do you expect me to do? I have a contract, I can’t just go and tell to the lady to evacuate of my house”-“This is your problem, solve it, I want you back in South Dakota”-he said, almost screaming-“No, I’m not going back, you liking or not, you should support me, thanks, Dad”- I hung up the call, because I was really angry I didn’t do anything wrong, but my dad made me think I did.
I went downstairs with my suitcases, a man helped me carry them, I called the cab and went to Trisha’s place, it was 12:00PM, I knew she used to have lunch in her home so i would find her home, when I arrived there everything I could see around was buildings, I asked to the cab’s driver what was the Plaza II, he explained. I called Trisha – “Hey baby girl, what’s up ? I miss ya”- she said in a warm tone-“Well you don’t need to miss me anymore”- “What? What you mean? You crazy?”- she said laughing –“No I’m not crazy, come downstairs I have a gift to you that I sent, finally arrived”- I said, expecting to see her reaction when she see me –“Ok, I’m going to the elevator, you know I hate surprises, what’s that? ”-“You’ll see, I need to hang up now, see ya.”- She barely knew that she would actually see me.
She finally came down, I was hidden behind of a wall, she was looking in the floor, expecting to find her gift, when I came out and screamed her name, she gave me a look and hugged me –“Trisha I missed you so much”- I said smiling and hugging her-“Also do me, But what are you doing here, what are these suitcases for?”- She said with a ruthless tone –“I came to stay here with you, sisters are made to be together, we are better when we are together, right?”- I said, fearing her response-“Come up, let’s go”. She helped me to carry my suitcases; it was a deep silence till we get in her place. I got there, it was really cozy, small, but ok, I sat on the sofa, after that she gave me a juice and sat by my side, I knew it wouldn’t be good news-“Kath, you wanna stay here with me, but there’s no space for the 3 of us.”-she said holding my hand-“Threeee!!! Are you pregnant?”- I said in disbelief-“No, Peter will stay with me, he asked me to have him, till he gets back in his feet, you know” –“What? You guys are dating now? Since when?”- I said moving my hands-“We are going to try, he will arrive in three days”-“Trisha, is this a joke? He just wants your help not your love, open up your eyes, you are going to trade me over him? ”- I said, while getting up –“I’m not trading you, never, you are my sister, I’m just showing you my point”- she said, looking deeply inside of my eyes-“Trisha, you don’t even know him, what are you doing? I have no place to stay I have no money”- “No problem, I give you the money my mom sent me last week, it will be enough to pay you passage back to South Dakota”- she said, looking around to find the money –“You know what? I don’t want your money, but one thing I’m going to tell you, be careful with this man that you are putting inside of your house, you barely know him and you are not my sister”- I said while I carried my suitcases out –“No, Kath, I’m sorry, try to understand me, I’m your sister, come back, I’ll give you money, wait”- I was waiting the elevator when she came with the money in her hand- “I DON’T WANT YOUR DAMN MONEY, leave me alone”- I went down and I cried in the lobby, I couldn’t believe she did that to me I knew I didn’t tell her I would come, but she just did it because of Peter, someone she knew like 1 year, I was thinking about going back, but I didn’t have money, my dad and Trisha told me to go back to South Dakota, maybe they are right, I should go back to where I belong , the worst decision of my life was coming here , no one could support me, I needed money, the only thing I could do was to sell my stuff to get enough money to finally go back to my state, Trisha didn’t stop sending me messages so I turned off my phone.
I was walking on the street with three suitcase, one of them had strep, so it was easy to carry, the two other ones I needed to carry by my two hands, so it was a struggle, I asked to a lady where I could find a pawn shop around, she told I would have to walk 4 blocks away, I was so tired of that suitcases, but I would sell the necklace my dad have given me when I turned 16.
I arrived there hopping to get some good money, I saw an African American woman standing in the store-“Good afternoon”- Good? Haha, well, my afternoon is not that good!-“Good afternoon “I replied back I showed her my necklace, she was inspecting it with that binoculars –“Two hundred”- she said- “Just that? I mean this is gold”-I said in disbelief –“I know, but this necklace is a little one”- I couldn’t argue, I needed money, I should just take it, but I would come back and buy it back-“That’s right”- I said, looking at my necklace, I was standing there and I realized she was fashion, well dressed and I had some channel clothes that Trisha’s mom gave me, it was from the last season, but I think she would like it, I was broke I needed money so I would do everything I could to get it –“I have some channel clothes, do you want to see it ?”-I said with a smirk- “No”-she said with a cold tone, well I didn’t mind I just unpacked some channel dresses I had –“Take a look, this is not false, showing the label to prove her”- she looked at me –“I know you will spent it in drugs”-“What? Drugs? I’m not addicted, look I’m just a wretched girl who came from South Dakota to stay in my best friend’s house, but I just found out she cannot have me, because she picked someone else to live with her that she doesn’t even know, now I have no money, no place to stay and three damn suit cases to carry to everywhere I go , I’m tired, I’m hungry, I’m all sweat, I upset my dad and my life is just messed up, I don’t know what to do ”-I said in tears, I didn’t realize that there were some costumers there, a woman approached me and told me she would buy one of my suitcase, she told me how much I would like , I said how much she could give me , she gave two hundred dollars. I felt empty, because I adored those clothes, but that one would be to pay my passage back to South Dakota, somehow I liked L.A, this woman also told me to stay in a motel called wilson, she told me it was cheap, but comf, I would like it .
So I called a cab and went there, I needed to go back to South Dakota, but I didn’t have a home there, because I rented my place, which it was the dumbest thing I’ve ever done, I needed to apologize with my dad and visit my mother, I was thinking about fixing all this mess, but how I could do it, cause I didn’t have a plan at all, causing me to panic and cry before sleep.
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I woke up next morning feeling as bad as possible, I went to the restaurant to eat my breakfast and I thought about asking to the manager if there were any vacancy for waitress, I was concerned about going back to South Dakota, there were nothing for me back there, but my parents, I wanted to be successful in somewhere else. I was sitting while I was eating my pancake, I asked to Sylvia if there were any Job vacancy, she was the manager, but unfortunately there was nothing for me, I was frustrated, the situation was out of control and it was something that I caused, so I was blaming myself for everything, without noticing, a drop of tear streamed down my face, I quickly dried it.“Is this sit taken?”- A tall black light skinned guy asked, pointing to the seat that was in front of me –“No. It is not.”- I said while I saw him sitting. I thought to myself, why he is sitting the same table that I was at, it didn’t make any sense, after all he was good looking, brown eyes, perfect body, his hair was shaved, but he wasn’t bald, his look was intense like a knife piercing right into me, breaking my thoughts he started talking, I wasn’t in the mood to talk, but he looked nice–“Today is a beautiful day, even though we don’t take time to see how beautiful it is, because we are busy with college, work and our problems, but the sun is still there, the clouds are still there and the marvelous sea is also there, take a look outside people just walk, because they are busy, they rush everything. I mean we should enjoy our life, shouldn’t we?”- “Of course, we should”- I said looking outside, I didn’t know why he told me all those things, maybe he saw me crying and just wanted to make my day or he just wanted my number –“What’s stopping you to look to the beauty of this world?”- He said looking right into my eyes-“Long story… Problems”- I said with my eyes wet.-“Everything will be ok, life surprises us, my name is Christopher”-he said hanging his hand-“My name is Katherine, but you can call me Kath”- I said, shaking his hand –“What brings you here?”- He said with a big, white and attractive smile-“How do you know I’m not from LA”-“I didn’t mean LA, I meant this Restaurant”- he said, laughing-“Oh, I’m sorry, I just wanted to eat I think this is enough reason”- I said smiling-“Oh yes, that’s right. So where are you from? Did you come to LA because of work?”- “No, it is a long story, actually I have no work and I’m in trouble, big trouble, I’m going to have to go back to South Dakota, that’s my hometown, i thought about finding a job here, but there is nothing for me here, it seems L.A hates me, all my plans failed”-I said, speaking out what I was feeling, somehow I felt comfortable sharing this with him-“LA doesn’t hate you”- he laughed –“Well, I think you’ll like hearing it, I work in a big house as driver and my bosses need a nanny, it is a full time job, and there is a bedroom to the nanny, they really need, everyone they interviewed didn’t want to stay, because it is a full time job, they also needed to housekeep and help the kids with homework, if you think it is good for you, I could tell my bosses that I have a friend, which I trust a lot ”- he said –“Oh really ? It would be awesome, I’m not picky I just want a job and a place to stay , It sounds good, when could I go?”-“Right now, they must be having breakfast right now. I’m going to give you the address, You can go, I need to solve some problems in downtown, I’m going to call them.”- he said grabbing his cellphone-“Why you doing this for me?”- I said looking at him –“Because we need to help who needs help. Hello, Rosa, can I speak to Mrs. Blairdouf? Is she busy?”
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I paid the driver’s cab and went out of the car, I was in front of a beautiful house, I mean mansion, the most beautiful, well I couldn’t compare the houses one to another, because that neighborhood was full of luxury, people there were really rich, I only saw houses like these in TV shows. I headed to the main gate, I was unsure if it was the right house, kind of insecure, out of the sudden I saw an old man standing looking at me behind the gate, he seemed to work there–“Can I help you, ma’am?”- “Yes, I’m Katherine, I’m here for the job interview, Christopher sent me in” – He walked, and started talking to someone in a telephone, he came right after and opened the gate- “Come on in, ma’am, Mrs. Blairdouf is waiting for you, just stay this way, you’re going to see her”-“Thanks a lot”- I said, then I walked and I saw a White, tall, skinny, blonde woman waving her hand to me, she was well dressed, her clothes looked really expensive, her hair was long, plus perfect , it seemed she went to the hair salon every day, her eyes was blue, really intense, it was like I have sawn that eyes before, her skin was white as snow, but she does knew how to treat it, because everything about her was stunning from the top of her head to the soles of her feet, She looked 40, but I looked crap by her side.
“Hi, you must be Katherine, come on in, and please”- she said pointing to the door–“Take a seat”- she said while I was putting my bag on the floor, I sat –“My name is Ellen Blairdouf, I live here with my husband Adam Blairdouf and my two kids, one is a boy called Aaron, he is 5 and the other one is Lilith, she is 7, Christopher told me that you wanted to come to this job interview, so tell me a little bit about you, where you are from, family, I want to know about you. ”-She said, staring at me, I felt so insecure to answer all those questions, my personal life was a completely mess-“Well, My name is Katherine Glover, I’m 18 years old, I came from South Dakota, it has been 2 days that I’m in LA, my mom and dad are in my hometown, they’re divorced, I used to babysit when I was in high school, I tried to go to the Georgetown College, but they didn’t accept me, now I’m here in L.A”- I said fearing of what she would think of me-“What did it make you to come to L.A?” – “I would stay in my best friend’s house, I wanted to start a life here, because I don’t really like my hometown, I felt overwhelmed, I want to pursue my dreams here”-I said trembling, I was really nervous – “Ok, Katherine, I think I already know enough, I need your id, license, every papers you brought, cause I need to check somethings, Is that ok ?”-she said “It is ok.”- I said, opening my bag to hand her the papers.
After 10 minutes she came back and said –“Congratulations! You are our new nanny, you start tomorrow, but I’d rather you to bring your things here today, as you know it is a full time job, I’m gonna need you 24/7”-“Thanks, Mrs. Blairdouf, I’m gonna do everything I’m told, excuse me”. I took all of my papers and went back to the hotel I was staying, I packed all my stuff which the most of them were all over the floor and bed, I couldn’t understand how disorganized person I was, but this would change, my job would make me to change some bad habits.
Christopher
I met her, she was crying in that restaurant, it just made me feel really bad for her, she was so beautiful, but also so sad, she stopped crying, but still that sad eyes remained, she dried her face in an attempt to make that no one realized her weakness, but I was staring at her since she sat in her table, I knew I need to do something to make her feel happy, I couldn’t see her that way, even though I didn’t know her, I wanted to help, so I decided to approach and give her some comforting words just to make her day happier and take her away from all that sadness she was deepened with in, I sat and I started talking to her, I told her somethings I’ve learned with my Grandpa that really helped me some years ago, now I would tell her and try to help, when we stopped talking she looked better, not happy, but better.
I called Rosa and she told me that Katherine would stay with us, one more employee to make us company in that big house, I was working there since I was 22, now I’m 24 and I’m still there, I wanted to go to college, but everything is so messed up, I need to take care of my youngest sister, because my mom works a lot, they also need my money, I would never leave them over college, even though this is important to me.
I was parking the car in the garage when I saw her walking really fast going to the main door, I went out of the car and reached her by running, and I touched her shoulder and said-“Hey Kath, welcome!”- “Thanks Christopher, I needed to thank you for telling me about this job, earlier in the restaurant you were an angel, I’m so grateful”-she said, looking inside my eyes- “You are welcome, do you need help with your suitcases?”-“Nah, it is fine, thanks again”-“No problem, I need to go back, see you around”- I said leaving her right after that.
Alexander
I woke up dizzy, i had tto much to drink last night, i had no clue of what i had done last night, i just knew that my boss would freak which is my father, i hate working with him, he is too bossy and the most of times we do not agree, i wouldnt go to work anyways, i would stay and rest for some moment, my head was about to explode and i just needed darkness, only darkness could heal me. After some minutes i started to think about the girl who kiss i've stolen in the beach... She was hot, but she turn down all of my attempts, i guess she wanted something serious, she didnt want to party or didnt like booty calls, i was lost in my thoughts when my cellphone started buzzing, it was my father, DAMN IT! I just wanted some darkness and peace, but he wouldnt let me have some peace. -"Hello"- i said with a bad mood- "ALEXANDER, where are you, i cant believe you're not here, i need you here NOW, understand? I gave you a responsability and you cant take it, i think i've spoiled you a lot, that's why you are such a lazy person"- he was mad as fuck and i couldnt do anything, i didnt have any will to go to the company today.-"I cant go, calm your nerves, stop screaming, my head is about to explode"-"OH, your not coming, then forget about your one week off that youre gonna have in two months, you will double work for me, i dont want to hear excuses or your voice "-he finished the call not allowing me to protest, HELL! He used to put so many burdens on my shoulders i was really tired of all this, and i was reconsidering in quit, actually i shouldnt even been thinking about it, or he would kill me, or inherit me, i knew what he was capable of.
CHAPTER 4
KATHERINE
I never knew i would be treated so meanless by my best friend Trisha, maybe it was my fault i came without notice and she had her life, i decided i would call her to apologize, but i was still hurt, evn though i was happy that everything was flowing to the right way. I had a list of obligations, i would even help the maid when the kids were gone at school, my job journey wasnt easy, but i was ready to do it. I got up and took a bath and brushed my teeth, i decided to go outside before waking up the kids, there he was, Chistopher arranging everything to take my bosses to work, he saw me and he waved i smiled and nod my head, i came in and Ellen came with the school Adress and told me i would drive the extra car they had for emergencies, Rosa used to use that one to go shopping fruits and stuff they needed in the house, i took the key -"Be safe, take them to school, ah, You need to prepare their lunch ok? See you later" - then she walked to the main door. I decided to prepare the lunch for the kids, Rosa came and helped with the breakfeast, she was helpful anytime , she was the maid there since the kids were born. I went upstairs to wake them up, i got in their room, but they wasnt there, WHERE COULD THEM POSSIBLY GO? I heard some laughings in the next door which was the bathroom, i knocked the door and came in, they were brushing their teeth, they were so playful.... -"Kids, it is time for breakfest, but first i need you to get dressed" -"I wanna go with my Pajamas"- said Lilith looking to the mirror -Before i could said anything Aaron protested -"You can't go out in Pajamas, You dummie"- I wanted to laugh, but i couldnt-"Don't say that, Aaron, She is your little sister, you should be caring and not saying these things"- He ran to the bathroom, i finished their lunch and went back upstairs, they were ready to school, so drive them safely, i used my celphone GPS it was awful, but i drove safelly to their school, it was a private one, so big and fancy cars, i could see that everything would be different of what i got back then in my small town .... "No running, wait for me!"- Aaron was running already-"I didnt know you like that much of school!"-"They like their friends"-Said a woman, she was a little bit taller than me, and hispanic, she had a long straight hair-"I bet they do"-i said-"My name is Jessica, i'm a nanny, by the way you look you are too"-"Oh yeah, im a full time nanny, haha, my name is Katherine, but call me Kath"-"Ok Kath, nice too meet you, how long you are with the Blairdoufs"- How does she know that? - "Not long, i better get going!"- i was scared, she was sorrounding me to get some information maybe? - "Sorry, i didnt mean to scare you, i just worked in their house once the kids were just little babies. Be careful!" - "What? What are you talking about?"- i was so curious and isecure - "Im just saying.. See you around" - she got in her car and went away. Why is that woman saying all those things? It came a lot of thoughts in my head, that was a weird moment..."WHO COULD POSSIBLY SAY 'I'M JUST SAYING', I MEAN THIS IS SERIOUS" - I was scared but i couldnt do anything about it, simply keep my eyes wide open, may i shoudnt believe in that woman anyway, she coulb be a psycho, i dont know, but maybe she is telling the truth.
ALEXANDER
"Bae... Honey, sweetheart are you in there? BAAAAAAEEE!!" -- I woke up with Janine in the voice mail, screaming bae the sound ecoed all oover of my room, i was way too high again, everytime things got tense back in company i used to drink my ass off, my dad all the time saying what i should or shouldn't do, their accionist all the time judging me, telling bad things about me to my dad, when i owe that company they are gonna be all fired and i will make sure to look them in the eyes while firing them.
i got up to answer the calling and then i realised she had gave up on trying to get in touch in my home's phone, then she started calling on my cellphone, -"hey bae"
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