As I walked threw the forest. I thought to myself Why do i have to be the one with such gift Why was i the one to see dead people. I cry myself to sleep every night asking them who seek me to leave me alone. But they just set there and stare at me in a way that would make you pee on yourself. They whisper in your ear all types of thing you never here before. When you talk to them they try to come closer then you can imagine. When they touch you all tiny hairs in the back of your neck stand up' the room get dark' they house is cold' and most of all you get scared. When they know your scared they try to 'you don't even won't to know. I try each time to push them away, but no matter what they always find me. My mom tried everything.shrink, doctors, any thing to make me feel safe.

One day a spirit came to visit me and he screamed and hit me and threw me across the room in my room. That's when the ghosts, demons, spirits, came to haunt me and beat on me. I cried i couldn't control them. Thier dead. Some even wake me up slapping me. Some just grab me by my hair or throw me arround until they get tired and leave. I wake up every morning go down stairs, my mom would scream and call the doctor and they say they can't help me no more.

I realize I couldn't sleep no more.I slept during they day. I would go to the basement and sit in the
rocking chair. Then i would go in the living room and sit on the couch where mt mom would be reading her book. I'll sit next to her some time, she'll put her book down and just look at me with frighten eyes. She'll turn her whole body to me and put her shaky hand on me knee and say "Baby girl im so sorry,"
i'll look at her watery eyes and say"don't be," and i'll leave her be. My mom is all i got. My dad died. Here's the story:
My dad was reading the late night newspaper and he stard at the window one moment andlooked at me. Ijust shrugged. Her looked at my mom. asahe looked at him and she knew what he was seeing. He gripped the paper really hard and tears came down his eyes. I ran to him and he told me don't come near him or it'll come to me. I didn't know what he was talking about but i did obey my father. He stood up and gave my mom a kiss on the cheek and a hug and siad "Take care of my baby girl" she cried and picked me up. I called after daddy but no responce came he blew me a kiss and siad" 3 word, 8 letters, 1 meaning." he steeped out the front door and never came back. The last thing he siad to me was that. I knew that he siad I LOVE YOU. That's what happened to my daddy.

So in the family it was only me and my dad that as not normal. So as i went back to my room i stopped at the door. Someone was in my room in day light. No ghost was sopposed to be at me room during day light. Iwas shaking in me shorts so bad that i ran to go use the washroom. Whan i got back to me room door the ghoat was still there i wasn't able to see the face.
I stepped in side my room, only an inch. It was a he ghost. He was sitting in my chair by my computer holding my book in his hand. Inoticed it was my diary. He looked up and smiled at me. I took a step back and started to pant really hard. He was gorgous.

He was a clean, nice looking, ghost. If he's clean he got to be a spirit. They love to beat on me to. So i walked to the window and turned to look at me and smiled the beautiful smile i ever saw in my life. Itook a deep breath. He started to walk towards me and i put im hands over my face so that when he hit me i would be prepared for the beat.

He moved my hand away from my face. So i shut my eyes shut tightly and balled my hand up into an fist. He unballed it. I flinced when he touched my cheek. It was a big surprise when he huged me. I didn't hug back. When i saw that he wasn't going to hit me, i hugged back. I held the tears. He pulled back and layed me on the bed, when he didn't do nothing i got up and went to my computer desk. He followed.

I asked "What do you want?"
He turned my chair toward him. He didn't even touch the chair. I faced him, my face 1 inch away from him. He just looked me in my watery, frighten eyes and shook his head. Tears came down my cheek and he cried himself. I was quite shocked to see a spirit cry with me an stead of beat on me.
"Im so very sorry." He siad to me. I backed back away from him and tried to run out my room door but he shut it.
"LEAVE ME ALONE!" I shouted
"Im not here to hurt you darling." He siad coming to me "What do you want?!"
He came to me and picked me up and put me on the bed, then he kissed me so softly and siad" Im here to help you" he sat next to me turning my body to him. I can tell he tried not to grip me to tight because of the sores on my body.
" May I?" he asked with pleading eyes
"Yes" I siad with regretful eyes
He touched me softly on my arm then my legs.
"Would you mind if i-"
"No not at all" I siad interuppting him. He went slowly taking of my shirt, then he stood me up an undid my shorts. When they was off he stood up and rubbed my body where the scratches was. He went behind me and saw that my back was worser than my legs and arms. There wasn't that much bruses om my stomach so he was able to touch and rub my belly without hisitation. HE dissapeared really fast. Where did he just go?
2 minutes later he came back with 1 small towel and 1 big towel. He went in my room drawer and pulled out a fresh piar of tank top and underwear set. What was he doing? He grabbed my toothbrush and lavender lotion. He dissapeared agian and came back empty handed. He took my hands and took my to the direction where the bathroom was. That's when i heard the bath water running. Ilooked at him and he smiled at me.

He stepped in the bathroom and closed the door after me. I turned to look at him with question eyes. He was planning to wash me up! He went behind me and unhooked my bra, then he let it fall and took it in. I didn't even know this ghost/guy, what was he thinking. This is not helping, this is flirting. I stood there not doing nothing. He looked at me with worried eyes. He took off my underwear for me. No one never saw my girlie parts, but my mom. He looked me up and down and smiled at me. He do a lot of smiles at me. I never smiled back, and im not about to start now. I mean why should i? I mean like he pop up in my room, i don't know him, im standing naked in front of him, he's dead. Do that sound like anything to smile at?

He grabbed my hand and put me in the warm water. he helped me sit down in the slippery tub. He grabbed my towel from the water and put my lavender body wash on it. He started to wipe my back and shoulders and also neck. Then he went to the front of my body and wiped my breasts then belly. He gave me the towel to wipe my other private parts. Then he took the big towel and wiped me down til i was dry. He carried me to my bed and rubbed my levander lotion all over me til i was shiny and smooth. Then he helped me put my bra, underwear, and tanktop. I looked arround for the shorts then notice he didn't give me any. He watched me. He knew what i was looking for because he siad
" Didn't give you any". Ilooked at him and notice he changed in ti a pajama set as well. They was very nice looking. They were black with a skateboard on it. The pjs really fit him it make him look more handsome.

I pulled the cover over my legs and he walked to my bed and sat next to me. I scooted closer to the wall. He stared at me and siad "Your so beautiful"
"Thank you" i siad shyly
All of a sudden i started to thinf of what my mom was doing. When i looked at my room wall clock it was turning 9:00pm. I started to panic. This was the time when a ghost would wiat to get ready to beat me. I started to shake. He looked at me with worried eyes.
"Whats the matter?" he asked
"It's time" i answered
"Time for what?" he asked looking at the clock.
"Time to get beat by the dead" i siad climing out the bed. He grabbed my wrist and pulled me to him.
"Only one can visit. Im here. So they can't come.Im here now no more beating on you not while im here. Your dad sunt me here to protect you. That is exactly what im going to do." he siad, i was shock. My dad. My dad. I smiled at him. I layed back on the bed and he followed. He went to go turn off the lights. He scooted under the covers with me. I turned to face him but i didn't notice that he was so close. He looked down at me. He moved towards me and his eyes crossed and i closed my eyes and felt his warm, soft, gentle, fierce lips om mine. He wrapped his arms arround my wiast, I put my arms arround his smooth, soft neck.

He harden the kiss. "Abigial" he whispered. How did he know my name?

He flipped me over to my back. Ik new what he was thinking. I was thinkig the same thing. He looked me in my eyes. He pulled my shirt over my head, he licked his lips. He bit his bottom lip. I don't get the whole loosing your virginity to a spirit. But it was a spirit that my dad sunt to me.

Loosing your virginity at 17 with a spirit and not telling your mom is bad. But if she not wanting to want to know is great. I ave a plan. I wont tell her.

He took off his shirt. And his pj shorts. The only thing remianed on him was his blue boxes. The only thin remianed on me was my bra and underwear. He was now taking off. As he continue to kiss me passionately i was loosing myself in his soft kisses. Then he deepened the kiss by slipping his tougue in my mouth. I was panting so hard. Ihad no more clothes on he didn't have any clothes. we layed there nude. Admiring each other body. Wow he's big! He looks good to eat!

We took a deep breath at the same time. He looked down and grabbed my leg and put them on each side of his wiast. He came down to me, we was skin-to-skin connection. I put my hands on his abs, slidding them to his hip. He shivered at the touch of my hands on him. I tuned my head to the wall because either way i was going to feel the beautiful pian of love making.

He entered with force and i screamed with pian.


The mornig came. Iturned. He was still there. He held me close to his naked body and kissed me softly on the forehead.

I woke up. He was watching me watch him.
"What's your name?" i asked kissing him on the lips softly before he answered.
"Ulyesses."

That was the second time i smiled in 14 years.:-)

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