As i stared into his beautiful blue eyes it brought me back to the beginning, the beginning of all the tears and the smiles, all the laughs...all the fiights, just the beginning <3

i was sitting in the lunch room with my friend Abby. "Annabel!!" she squealed "Look at the new kid!!"

"Ya. he's something." i didn't pay much attention; i didn't even look at him. he had been here for a month or so, and she talked to him all the time. She had dibs on him. thats ok though. i loved her as a best friend and i would never do anything to mess that up.

"Jefffffffffffffffff" she yelled across the cafetarie smiling at him. he smiled back and begun to walk towards us. By the time he was at the table i was in the hall getting ready for my next class. I didn't want anytihng to do with him, i didn't. i glanced back and seen them. She was so happy. i loved Abby but she went through boys like i went through eyeliner, and that was just sad.

i arrived in french class and took a seat, waiting for it to begin. "Annabel!" i heard Zoe yell from across the room. i merely smiled at her "Hey Zoe." i looked back at the board that i was reading. But before we had a chance to say anytihng else Ms. Blunder stepped into the room. Silencing the whole class with just a single glance.

"Classe Bonjour, comments'est passe votre week-end? L'ignorer ne pas repondre a cela. Toute facon nous sommes loin le long en francais alors vous devriez tous etre capables de comprendre exactement ce que je dis. peut me dire ce que je viens de dire."

every one looked around the room looking for a hint. i rolled my eyes, That was an easy one. Didn't anyone pay attention in class? i mentally kicked myself when i realized what i was thinking.

"How about this, someone raise their hands right now, and if no one raises they're hand i will close my eyes and whoever my finger lands on, will tell me, and if you are wrong the whole class has extra homework" she shrugged her shoulders and closed her eyes pointing at linzy.

i heard some one stifle a laugh and mutter it's not nice to point at people, earning him a glare from Ms. Blunder.

"Linzy. you have about a minute to tell me what i just said." linzy shrugged her shoulder and sat there in silence. "ok fine everyone has extra homework unless someone can answer the question for me pronto."

i bit my tongue and threw my hand up in the air

"oh k Annabel, what do you think i said?"

"how was your weeked? ignore it, don't answer that anyway we are far along in french then, you should all be able to understand exactly what i am say. who can tell me what i just said?" i copied her word for word. the whole class sighed of relief and ms blunder shot a death stare at all of them in less then a minute.

"Class everyone has extra homework besides Annabel since she was able to tell me what i said."

she started clapping. "By the way, great job Annabel."

the bell finally rang, and i walked out of the school. "Annabel!" abby called me over to her. i slowly begun walking towards her. "Ya?"

"ima come home with you, if that;s ok?" she questioned. i nodded my head and stared down the long sidewalk at Jeff. i shook myself out of the daze, What was wrong with me!? Jeez! he was dating Annabel!! "Annabel did you hear me??" i shook my head. she sighed. "i said, i want to say goodbye to Jeff, can you please wait for me? You know what, come meet him! Please!!"

"i'll sit here and wait for for you" i sat down on the sidewalk with my back facing towards the school.

"ok. plus i am going to go real quick and get my science book. ok?"

"sure Abbs."

"promise me you wont go anywhere??!?"

i nodded my head. "mhmm."

"Thanks Annabel!" she screamed and gave me a huge smile.

"Yup." i said popping the p. after 10 minutes i heard footsteps walk up behind me. "DId you really have to take that long?" i asked without glancing up and looking behind me.

"Uh...i i'm....sorry?" answered an unfamiliar voice.

i could feel the heat appearing on my face "Sorry i thought you wrere my friend Abby." i managed to whisper.

"oh." the footsteps stepped ahead of me and stopped. "So you're Abby's best friend, Annabel. RIght?"

i nodded my head and glanced up at him. for the first time i was taken aback by his beautiful blue eyes. he stared beside him. "Cool."

"mhm." i muttered, uh..so you're the dude that is dating Abby, right?"

"Ya." he answered blankly.

"cool." i closed my eyes hoping Abby would appear soon. as if right on que Abby walked out od the school.

"Annabel!! you stayed!" i didn't look up but i could hear the trace of a faint smile in her voice.

"mhm."

she sighed and turned towards Jeff. "Jeff.... the office seen my wrist and they know that you do it to. and they wanted to talk to us in the office."

he nodded his head and set his folder down beside me, "Do me a favor and watch this?"

"k." i said as i reached into my pocket and pulled out my phone.

i decided to text Cassi *Hey Cass* *Annabel! :)* *haha, sup?* *nothing much, i was thinking about walking to your house but it's really quiet...are you even at home?* i shook my head even though she wouldn't be able to see me. *No, actually, im still at the school i was waiting for Abby.* *Ew.* i could almost picture her scrunching up her nose in disgust. *be nice cass she's my friend.* i frowned. *ok, i know, im sorry that was uncalled for.* i was about to text back when paprts started to blow out of Jeff's folder.

shit. i scrambled to get the papers back in his folder before they came back from the office. no sooner than i had gathered all the papers and closed his folder, Abby and jeff appeared in the doorway. i picked up my phone as the stepped out and made their way over to me.

"thanks Annabel." Jeff smiled.

"sure."

i didn't look up at him. "Hey Annabel, i can't come home with you anymore, me and Jeff have to go see the counsler at the highschool. How about i visit you after!?"

i finally glanced up. "Whatever Abby, i have theraphy today in an hour so you should just stop by another day." i stared down at my phone as i was speaking to her.

"Wait, wait... you have theraphy??" Jeff asked.

"mhm." you aren't the only one with problems." i started walking away.

"Annabel, wait." Abby and Jeff were right behind me.

"What?" i asked not bothering to hide the ignorance in my voice.

"Can i talk to you...alone?"

"i don't know Abbs, Can you?" she glanced back at Jeff and he nodded and turned around.

"How bad was it this time?" Abby asked close to tears.

"See for yourself." i whispered.

she reached over and pulled up my sleeves. "Oh my god Annabel!!!!!" tears started building up in her eyes as she stared down at my fresh cuts. "i thought you said you were getting better...." she wrapped her arms around me and hugged me tightly. i stood there nad let her hug me making no movements to wrap my arms around her and hug her back.

"Actually.... no. because that yesterday was a suicide attempt... not just a random burst of emotions... Look in all honesty Abbs, im thinking about getting put away for awhile, this theraphy is not doing me any good anymore."

"Annabel you can't!! your my best friend...."

"ok Abbs. i have to go now. Bye." i started to walk away.

"we're all going in the same direction, why don't you walk with us?" Jeff asked

"fine." i started walking as they caught up behind me.

"So Annabel... you're a cutter?" Jeff asked bluntly. he managed to squeeze his way inbetween me and Abby. so he was walking besides both of us, occasionly rubbing against each of our arms. i shuddered as my heart jumped every time he did.

"yup. if thats what you want to call it." i began walking faster.

i left them trailing behind me and i could hear them whispering. "Is she straight?" he asked winking.

i could hear the hurt in Abby's voice as she whispered. "no, bi."

"oh damn niceeee. she's hot as hell."

i rolled my eyes, obviously he was a good guy.... complete sarcasm he was probably just a player.... who went with the quote 'All hail the heartbreaker' i mean... talking to your girlfriend about her best friend and calling her hot as hell. pig. player.

i could hear Abby quickening her pace to catch up with me. "Annabel, Slow down?"

i gradually stopped and waited for her to catch up. when we reached a couple blocks from my house i walked into the opposite direction.

Jeff stood on the sidewalk and Abby followed behind me, throwing her arms around me. "be careful Annabel. i'll be over tomorrow when i think your home."

"ok." i whispered as i quickly hugged her before she turned and started walking towards Jeff. i don't know what came over me, but i smiled at Jeff and blushed when he smiled back. he lingered there hugging Abby, and staring into my eyes.


"What did i do? that was the stupidest thing ever!" i whisper to myself as i pace back in forth in my room. i have a firm grip on my head trying to squeeze away the headache. "why why why why why??" i ask myself repeadently mentally kicking myself for every time i don't have an answer. i take a deep breathe. and begin to think Jeff is with Abby, Abby is my best friend, i can not start to crush on her boyfriend. and then reality struck and i started laughing at myself. me like Jeff? HA! He's a player. it was a moment of misguided judgement.

a truimph smile comes across my face as i laugh. i would never throw away a friendship that i've had so long for a player, and no i don't mean a football player; though that's what he is to, but i mean the use the girls and then date they're bestfriends player.

i jump off my bed as i hear my phone goes off, and skrillex begins to play.

"hello."

"Hey Annabel, i know you have theraphy tomorrow during school, but i was wondering if you would walk up and let me walk home with you tomorrow?"

i nodded my head. "ok abbs."

i could hear her smile through the phone. "ok good!" she all but screamed.

i slightly laughed. "ya see you then." and then hung up

i rolled my eyes and i laid on my bed and closed my eyes. i would just lay there and relax until my mother got home.

i didn't wake up until 6:05Am. i groaned and pulled myself out of bed, readying my self for the day.

"hey mom." i said lazily as i shuffled into the kitchen.

"hey." she whispered as she got another sip of coffee.

i shook my shoulder at the hardness in her voice, i was used to this on a daily basis.

"look, your father will be here to get you at 12:00, take you to theraphy and then i need you to go some where that isn't here."

i nodded my head and turned my attention towards the fridge peeling off the magnets as the doorbell began to beep. my mother made no movenment to go and answer it, i sighed and stood up throwing open the door.

"Hel-" standing in frony of me was Isiah. i blushed and wrapped my arms around him the full extent. "Isiah!!" i scream loud enough for every one to hear. my mother turns the corner as her sleepy eyes survey the room.

"Isiah.. What are you doing here?" my mother asked not sounding pleased. she didn't wait for an answer, instead she trailed off in the direction of the living room.

"Heyyyyyyyy Annabel, hows my babe?"

i rolled my eyes and let go of him. "Isiah your my best friend now, that's all."

he shook his head. "well i was hoping that i was worthy of another chance..."

i took a step back as i realized what my reaction had done for him, just boasted his ego and made him think that he had a chance with me again. "Maybe Isiah." i whispered slightly smiling.

"good. so what are you doing today?" he asked slowly.

i glanced around my hall and shrug my shoulders." i was gonne sleep till bout 11:00."

he rolled his eyes, "why don't we hang out ill about 11:00?"

i smirked. "alrighhtt." i said happily

"ok." he smiled and grabbed my hand pulling me out of the house. "Where do you want to go?" he asked politely.

"i don't know, like i said i had just planned to lay in bed, but since you want to hang out, today what had you planned on doing?"

he glanced over at me with sorrow in his eyes, that didn't match his smile, but it was gone before i could even blink "coming to your house, and begging you to skip school if i had to, looks like i didn't have to beg."

i laughed as we walked past the middle school, where i could see Abby, Zoe, and Jeff and sitting together. i felt bad for them. Sometimes Zoe didn't know how to shut up.

Jeff saw me and smiled before poking Abby and pointing towards me, she smiled until she seen who i was walking next to, she ran over to me and yanked me inches away from Isiah. "What are you doing with him!?!" she asked alarmed.

i shrugged my shoulder. "we're walking." i could tell she wanted to press it farther but the bell rang and the teacher came out signaling for every one to come in. i dived behind Isiah so the teacher couldn't see me.

"well hello there." he whispered as i wrapped my arms around his waist as an attempt to hide.

i glanced up at him. "Yo."

he straightned me out as we started walking further away. i glanced back and seen Jeff lurking in the window with pure rage in his eyes. i shook my head and kept walking.

***

i olooked at my phone as skillrex went off again, meaning it was Abby. i opened the text message. *Hey are you coming?* i shook my head and quickly shot back *no, sorry.* i could feel the anger through my phone as she replied *k. whatever Annabel.*

i shrugged my shoulders again and t urned to face towards Isiah. "you should go now." my mom said i'm not allowed to be at home today, so i'm going out with Cass."

he rolled his eyes and climbed off my bed, he pecked my on the lips and then walked out. i smiled and then shook my head back to reality. no no no not allowed to be happy because of that! i should be pratically chasing him out of my house with a butcher knife!!! but i knew i couldn't. i knew he was still my friend, and i couldn't do that to him.

i decided to get on facebook for alittle bit, i didn't have anything better to do. i typed in my email and password and it said incorrect, i typed it in again and it said incorrect. i lost my temper and smashed my fist into my key board before trying again. i smiled content when it logged me in.

there was a message from Abby.

*i'm trying to text you and you aren't answering, so look can you talk to Jeff for me?!? he broke up with me and i am ready to die.*

i rolled my eyes but clicked on Jeff's name *hey.*

*uh hi Annabel :) *

*what happened between you and Abby?*

*shes freking phycho. i hugged my friend Karen and she went bilistic on me, i dumped her.*

for this one moment alone i was on Jeff's side. i scrolled down my chat list and clicked on her name explaining what me and Jeff talked about. she shot back angerily that she did not go bilistic on him. i rolled my eyes. *i don't believe you Abs, you've gone bilistic on all of your past boy friends for hugging other girls.* Abby clicked off line so i went back to my chat with Jeff.

*alright Jeff, sorry my friend is phycho.*

*mhm.* i hated it when people did that to me. i was getting ready to log of, when he sent me another message. *hey Annabel... Do you wanna text?*

*ok.* i said blankly as he typed his number.

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Tag der Veröffentlichung: 12.12.2011

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i want to dedicate this to my ex best friend, Our friendship might be over... But if it was for her, My fairytale never would of came true <3