Your The One

u

r the one that makes me happy when u come around me ur the one that god gave 2 me and for that i thank him becasue there cant be no other man like you ur my boo my heart my soul my air my breath my wings when i get to heaven becaue without them i wouldnt be able to fly so i need you 2 be there right by my side ur the one that keeps me alive because when i walk the streets i dont know when i am going to die or when it is my time 2 rest with god but knowing i am loving someone like you there is nothing much i cant do but always love you there is nothing more to do then just 2 keep you in my sight and in my heart becasue ur the one i should have had from the start

How Can I

How Can i Ever Forgive U Of The Things U Did 2 Me U Tellin Me U Wantin Me And Da Next Min Its Just All A Lie I Don't Want To Forgive U 4 Wat U Did 2 Me Wat If I Had Did That 2 U, Did U Even Have A Clue of Wat Was Running Through My Mind Lost Of Thoughts All Leading Back 2 U And Wat u Did 2 Me I Will Never Forgive U 4 Da Things That U Did 2 Me.

The Things That U Told Me I Thought Was So True But U Didnt Even Have A Clue Of Wat U Did 2 Me U Scarred Me For Lyfe This Is Something That I Will Never Forget I Dont Even Want Nothing 2 Do With Yu But People Say U Have 2 Forgive And Forget But Me I Aint Like Dat I JUst Cant Let Go Of Something That Hurts Me I Just Cant Do It I Break Down And Cry When I Think About Wat Happend And The Things That I Was Put Through And How U Have Hurt Me And Making Me Go Through These Things And Me NOT Having A Shoulder 2 Cry On When U Was Da One That Caused This Mistake In The First Place Knowing That U Was In Love With Someone Else And When U Put Me In The Situation u Hurt Me Instead Of Someone Else How Can I Ever Trust U Again 2 Be My Friend Knowing That This Might Happen Again?


I Needed You

Needed When I First Layed Eyes
On U Never Knowing How Love Colud
Affect Me Until You Showed Me
How True It Can Be.

I Needed U Casue When You Came Into
My Life You Started Calling Me Your Wife
I New From That Day That U Was Here 2
Stay And Never Leave My Side Becasue
You Was Here 2 Show Me How A Real
Dude Could Ride Wit His Gurl
Through Thick And Thin And
Was 2 Neva Run Eva Again.

I Needed U When All My Life Felt Like
It Was Coming 2 An End And It Was
Just Me Aganist The World Me Feeling Lonely Until
U Showed Me That I Was Going 2 Never Be Lonely
With U By My Side I Just Cant Belive That U Didnt
Dought Our Love When Everyone Else Did They Said That
U Was Not The One For Me U Was 2 Much In Da Streets 2 Be With Me But It
Me Forever 2 Show Them How Faithful 2 Me.

Now That I Know That I Have U In My Life I Will Neva Be The Same Again Becasue Our Love Will Grow For Ever More And Show Other People How Love Can Change Things In A Crazy World.


I Remember

I remember the things you told me when u said you couldn't live without me and you told me that we was going to be forever and that nothing was going to get in our way and the days i went without seeing u i felt like i was going to die becasue i needed u by my side at the time when things was not going right 4 me.

I remember when my heart fell into pieces when i found out that you cheated on me and my heart kept telling me that something was going wrong in this relationship and then i had 2 find out for myself that u was cheating on me with my bestfriend and me n her was just like sisters i cant even believe that you did something like this.

I could'nt take no more or of ur lies me hating you one min and loving you the next i would feel lonely when i felt on the otherside of the best and seen that u was not there i would up crying one night just thinking about wat u did 2 me all the late nights of working and me at home sleeping in our bed y am i still feelings like there is no one else in this world for me u made me weak when we kissed this is something that i could never 4get u had this affect on me that i never had with no one else i just want you to know that through all the pain you have caused me i still love u i hate 2 say it but its true and i want you back so bad but i cant trust you nomore with my heart becasue it is broken all into little tiny frames of my heart but i will get over you soon becasue there is better men in the worl than just u.


My heart crying for you

The way that I crave you are the most amazing thing that ever happened to me my friends saying no and my heart telling me yes you just don't know about the big diversity about me and you its like the world is with me my friends and god with my heart knowing that I love you that much that I would go through anything just to have that second with you to have that 1 little kiss then all the things that I wont with you still wont fade away because you are the rose to my peddles that is how much I love you and want to be with you u are the sun to my sunshine you are the angles to my wings my hearts will never stops beating because I know that when I am loving you I will live longer when we are on the phone we talk for hours and there is nothing I would rather think about then you my heart all ways cries for you I don't know why but it does maybe because I love you to much then that will explain why when I am at school and I see you I just weak in the knees like a connection has me bonded to you but all I want to do is love and let my heart continue to cry out for you.


life completed

my life complete until i found you struggling to find some one like you time and time again my grandmother telling me to that i was to young to be in love but when i found you i prayed and the angels started singing from above my life was completed when you told me you loved me having these interaged feelings for you to hold me tight all through the night my life was complete when you came into me heart it never never wanting to let you go my love for you is truer then heavens pearly gates so shiney and outrage my life wont complete until i found you and know that i did all i can do is think of you.


until i found you

until i found my life had been so blue me sitting around thinking who would love me for me but not what others wanted me to be me sitting around not knowing what was out there until i found you i have all my love to share 2 you i would give up the world 2 have just you in my arms 4 eva becasue you and me were ment to be togather no 1 can ever take your place because the love i have 4 u my heart was racing but when u found u i knew what i was facing my heart never skips a beat because you sweep me off my feet until i found you i never thought love was possible 4 me deep inside i always felt like i wasen't me but what you made me into today i will 4 ever stay because now that i found you my world is never blue.


There Till The End

I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU NO MATTER WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH WHEN TIMES GET ROUGH JUST CALL ME I WILL BE THERE INDEED GOOD TIMES BAD TIMES WE ALL GO THRUOGH AND WE WILL ALWAYS NEED A EXTRA PAIR OF FEELINGS TO FOLLOW THROUGH WHEN YOU NEVER SEE THE LIGHT AGAIN JUST CALL PICK ME AND I WILL FOREVER BE YOUR FRIEND STICKING AROUND TO FIND OUT YOUR PROMBLES
I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE IF YOU NEVER HAVE A FRIEND I WILL STICK WITH YOU TILL THE END.


Pain In My Life

i feel so lonely in this world no one to eva tell the way i am feeling becasue they are all caught up in there own feelings i just wish my life was not so complicated me having problems with people just was not to be ment for me not right know anyway i wish people would just understand what i am going through my life aint a family portriat i just lost the biggest porition of it my mom is no where around and my brothers and sisters is no where to be found. all my life i thought i had a good life but being 16 living with my grandparents is not all that fun i have to go through hell and back to get what i want and all i ever dreamed of was having fun but all that went down the drain when i lost my bestfriend. the pain that i'm under is just got me caught in between heaven and hell i wish i could have rewined back the time to fix my life but it does not work that way so all i can do know is pray and ask god to forgive me for all the wrong that i have done and just start over as a new person.


The More They Talk About Our Love

the more they talk about out love i start to worry that you wont love me no more becasue you are feeding into the talk like a little red ant i hate it when you dont trust me isn't it that i dont suppose to be trusting you i had it with all these rumors i hate people who just want to become between out relationship and when we break up they want to go out with you and then you end up going with them and i will get mad and hate you for the rest of my life i just wish they shut the fuck up and stay the stay the hell out of my business and tend to thier own when we were togather i would feel uncomfortable with you becasue all of a sudden you would just come out of the blue saying these stupid things and then we would fuss and fight and make up the next day you are the bad habit that i have we are so close that i wouldnt go no where without knowing that you were by my side and when i would passmy mom fussing on the phone she would say " if you are at this age maybe you dont need a boyfriend but you know i didnt listen to her becasue i still loved you after we fussed and fought i dont listen to them dumb ass people and you shouldnt either becasue you are the only thing in my world and i am the only thi g in you world so dont worry i am always will be here for you no matter what you going through we are bestfriends you can tell me anything that is on your mind and i will to cause i know twhat everybody says so you shouldnt have no kind of doughts what we are going through we have alot more to worry about in the future.


Still In Love

memories started to play in my head
me wantin to tell you how i am
feelin about yu but
dont even try to call me and see
how i am doing im still in ♥
wit yu from the way
we kissed the way yu said
yu loved me but we had ended it .

we said that we would never
part and that yu would always
love me know me wishin
that i had never broke off what
we had im still sprung as yu can
see im stuck on yu cuz
this is what yur love
is doin 2 me.

im still in love wit yu cuz we went
through so much togather
yu always told me that
yu would neva break
my heart no matter
what had happend knw im
settin here cryin cuz all
of dat was a lie and knw im
missin yu more then i eva i
thought i would cuz yur
love has me pheanin.

just wishin yu knew how bad im
missin yu was my rock, my love, my heart, my life
but the issue of trust kept
running through my head i
wanted to believe that our love
would keep yu from cheatin.

im still in luv wit yu as yu can
see my life has changed and
became worser since yu walked
out of my lufe its just fallin apart with-
out yu holding it togather its
like imma neva fall in love again
cuz im missin yur lovin that
much that no other boy's love
will neva be like yurs .


Revenge

the way i see things knw is so different
you claimed that it wasn't gunna
happen but it did yu say that
yur not a hoe n 3 more
but yu proved me wrong
all the things yu did led me 2
see that yu was wrong
all the late nite creeping
and the ways yu came
in the house so late
led me 2 thinking of why
i am feeling this way
all the things that yu said yu had 2 do
made me wish that i had never met yu.

when i went through yur phone
i seen more then just one gurls numba
it led me 2 conclusions
that yu never loved me all
the late night phone calls had me
wondering if yu was ever true from the
begining??
me 2 question myself all the time
thinkin that i had did something wrong
but all along it was yu
yu put me in the prediciment
that has me feelin this way
all the lies that covered up the 1st
lie made 2 wanna say that
yu is a lier a cheater and
a hoe all the girls i could
imagine lined up in a row one
by one and me the last one
2 find out that yu was
cheatin for fun
why didnt yu juss tell me
that yu wanted 2 fucc n not have
nothing else 2 do wit me
instead i was the next girl
in line 4 yu 2 fucc wit n den leave
yu juss dont kno wat
yu den got ya self in now
imma do the same shit
2 yu den leave yur sorry ass
outside n let yu see dat yu aint
ready 2 fucc wit me cuz
i can play the same game
that was played on me.


My Life

I may smile when yu see me but truely im hurtin inside i dont kno how 2 say dis but i feel like im dying inside i feel like dat im on mii own in dis lifetime its like a dream dat when i reach out for sumebody im here all by miiself like no one can here me or see me i seen mii life flash rite b4 me n im dying a long n coldly death and when im dead all i is can see mii life flashin rite b 4 me all the wrong i have done in mii life juss led up 2 wat made me i seen no wrong when i was alive but now that im dead no one can even help me i was told dat god can save you and you can live better life when yur dead but im not one of the ones that makes it 2 heaven im the one who ends up in hell burning in hell for all the wrong that i have dune all i see is the devil laughing cus i kno that i had done so much that was wrong so i juss sit there burning and wishing that i would have changed so i wake up frum the dream crying and shaking cus i kno what i had did to make this happen n im still crying so i got up out of the bed n i looked around 2 see that i was really dead n the whole time i was a spirit i seen mii body still in the bed n i juss knew dat i wont dreamin so i closed mii eyes n opended them again n i seen mii self walkin into a light n i aint kno where i was headin so i juss kept walkin until i seen mii daddy i was so happy dat i juss started cryin again and i gave him da biggest hug n said " daddy i missed yu" but den he started 2 fade away n once again i was all alone until mii little brother alganon started walking towards me wit mii step mommie n she said "drea welcome 2 heaven" and i started 2 see that i was not really dreamin i was dead i thought and i was in so much of a shock until i really woke up and seen that i could have sworn that it was real n that i was actually dead so i wish sumone could help me with mii problem but it feels like im loosin dis race on earth i may never smile again cus mii life its going to never be the same i still feel like im dying inside and im in so much pain if you could only step in my shoes and see the world end slowly and the dream that i had was juss only the beginning.


Fading

your like a song repeating in my head juss cant stop thinkin bout yew,

im startin to realize that we are not made for eachotha juss knowing that yu are

still in ♥♥ wit cha ex had me thinkin dat i wuz gunna neva be next.


its not the same how it use 2 be im fallin for sumeone else if

you cant see it i mean i still love yu but yur fallin 4 sumeone else and i can

see that she is the one.


all of the late night conversations on the phone had me thinkin i was neva alone and

knw its juss like yu den left me all alone not even thinkin bout yu is wat is startin 2

happen yu say yu like me but yu never show it when we are talkin

im juss sayin that i juss wanna be friends yu wont gunna try n start nuttin special

n e ways so imma juss finish this poem of by saying that i still love yu but its not

the same when all yu talkin about its yur ex loves pain the dummist shit that

you have done left ha all lonley n cold and for sumeone else 2 love ha

i undastand that she was da one dat broke it off but it was yur fault for lettin ha

go knw its me dat has 2 read n hear about it ova da phone its juss not da same

feelings that i had for yu before i mean they are still here but they are starting to

fade n im startin 2 miss my ex-lovers warmth.


Hiding

what is there to do when the boi yhuve fallin
4 has fallin in ♥ widd sumeone else do yhu
hide da pain or try to reflaim wat yall had widd eachotha.

do yhu hide in misery knowin that he belongs to
anotha gurl but the feelings that yhu have 4 him
starts to outshine hers n yhu not knowin how he
feels about yhu but yhu still pushin yhurself towards him
so yhu start to think dat he is feelin da samewaii about yhu.

Yhu start to ? yhurself about him he says he always thinkin
of of yhu but when yhu call or txt him he wont reply
bacc to yhu.

yhu start to ? yhurself more and more about it and then
you notice that yhur startin to stress yhurself about yhur special
sumeone the boi that gave yhu the respect yhu wanted and
yhu gave him bacc what he wanted n he vanished like magic on yhu
leavin yhu uncared for and hurtfull. yhu start to feel like yhu've ran out of
anwsers and all the thoughts start to cume more often n yhu start to get
confused and wonder wat yhu've done wrong cuzs yhur scared of bein alone..

he's stops contacting yhu but yhu have
to see him everydaii for the rest of ya life
n all yhu do is cry n hide da pain inside cus
yhu kno that yhu will neva find anotha
like him.. when all yhuve done is
wat he wanted but he still has fallin 4 this otha
gurl n yhu thinkin all yhuve done was going to
pay off and yall 2 would have had suttin special
but late @ nite yhu kno he is thinkin of ha n not yhu
but yhu still want him so bad dat it dosen't matta
wat yhu have to go through cause yhur
scared of tellin him how yhu feel about' em but
but yhu keep it hidin inside of yhu dat yhur in ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
widd him.....


??s Of A Broken Heart

Have you ever been scared of being alone bcus the
boy that you love is doing you wrong do you start yo feel sad
bcus the boy that you go with is cheating on you bhind you bacc but you kno that he comes
to you when he wants something from yu....

But yu still consider yurself taking him bacc bcus you lac the qualities
that all girls should have, do you want to get out of the relationship but you
cant bcus your scared of being alone. do you keep doing what he wants
bcus yu love him or do you want to get out of the relationship but yu dont want to hurt him.

But either way someone is getting hurt n e ways
do you go hide in misery and pain because you didnt want to loose
the love that yu have for him even though it hurts yu so much
that yu want to be with him but the decision's that he is making is taking all the
love you have for him away but yet and still you stay.

even though it hurts that you want to be with him but he is constantly cheatin with other girls
but he said that your his world but he wont stop what
he is doin but your still sleepin with him constantly do
you drive yourself to a dead end or end up loosing him
do yu cry yourself to sleep @ night trying to hide the misery inside
or do you find him and confront his ass and if he is is with another girl do yu kicc her ass
do yu leave it alone and stay in the relationship or cut him off and find someone else........


Back On Love

Memories Fade And Seasons Change But My ♥
For Yu Will Always Stay The Same
This ♥ Game Is So Unreal
But The Way I Feel For You Is So Real
The Moons Light Shines Like The Sun Glow But Our
♥ Shines More Then PPl Will Eva KNo
Our ♥ Is Like A Twins Since Wen Something Is Wrong I Can
Feel Yur Pain Runnin Through My Vains
Its Pumps My Heart B/C Yur The Otha Half To My Heart


Time Flies By People Change But What
We Have Shall Always Stay The Same
I Adore The Little Things Yu Do Like
Makin Me Smile Wen Me World Feels Like
Its Turned UpSide Down And On My
Face Is A Frown Yu Come And Replace It
With A Smile Yu Always KNo Wat To Do
Wen It Comes To Us Yu Will Always Be My
Knight And Shinning Armor Wen Danger Comes
Yur Always By My Side Wen I Need Yu To Be There
With Me.


I Will Always ♥Every Min Of Life With Yu B/C
I Forget About All My Problems That I Have
With Yu I Feel Like There Is Nothing Wrong
And Yu Make Them Go Away With Juss One Kiss
They All Melt Away Our Love Shall Grow
Like Springs Flowers N Our ♥ Shall Shower Over Others
So They Can Under Stand Why We Are So Connected
And Why I Will Never Give Up On Us Because Yur The One That
Makes My World A Happier Place With Yu Everything That Goes On
Fades Away.


Tired

Tired Of The Same Drama
Tired Of The Same Pain
Tired Of The Same Niggas
Tired Of The Same Game
Tired Of The Same Lies
Tired Of The Late Night Cries
Tired Of Wishin Dreams Was Reality
Tired Of My Insecurities
Tired Of Wishin Things Could Go Back To The Way They Were
Tired Of Niggas Playin The Same "Thug Role"
So Tired Of This World Not Treatin Me Right
So Tired Of Putting Up Fights
Tired Of Getting My Feelings Hurt
Tired Of Wishin That I Deserve Betta
Tired Of Listenin 2 Love Songs
Tired Of Bein Left Alone
Tired Of Doin Wrong
Tired Of Livin These Lies
Tired Of Going To Bed Crying At Night.


Misguided Love

We Fuss And Fight But That's What Couple's Do Rite?
Yu Say Hat Yur Goin To Be With Me Forever But I Can
See That Is Not True We Always

Break The Rules When It Comes 2 Our
Relationship But Somehow We Always Find Our
Way Back 2 Each other

Is This What Love Really Is??
If So Then I 2 Be Canceled Out Because
Through All Of This

Drama All Im Gettin From Yu
Is A Broken Heart And Unguided ♥

Why Cant We Just Be In This To Gather
But Yur Doing The Opposite
And Fighting Aganist Us

I Just Wish We Were In This Thing
2 Gather But I Can See That Yur In
A Whole Nother World

Cause Yu Dont Even Call Nomore
Or Come By 2 See How I Am Doing
So I Can See Its Best For Me
To Let Yu Go And For Me 2 Be Alone
Cause All Yur Showing Me Is Misguided ♥


Niggas Betta Listen Cause Yu Neva Kno Wat Yu Mite B Missin

-Fuqq All This Love Shidd
-Bout Time I Showed Yu Wat H E A R T L E S S Means
-This Is Why I Neva Wanna Show Feelings
-Cause Yu Niggas Is Always Playin Games
-Mite As Well Call Me A H E A R T L E S S Bxtch Cause
-Dixx Is Da Last Time Yu Will Eva See Me Full Of Pain
-Aint No Time 4 Apologizin Cause Yur The Reason Why Im Feelin Dis Way
-Bet Yu Wish Yu Showed Me Some Attention Cause Now Its Bout To Go Down
-Yu Tried To Brain Wash Me Widd Dat Love Shidd But That Was Da Last Straw For Now
-Yu Den Crossed Da Line Wen Yu d Showed Dat Yu Was Lyin N Reallie Didnt Care
-N All Yu Wanted Wass The Goodies
-So Its Time Dat I Do The SameThing 2 Yu Cause
-I Got Da Mind Set Of A Nigga 2
-Time To Show Yu Dat Gurls Can Run Games 2
-So Afta Yu It's Was On 2 Da Nxt One Like Yall Nigaas Do
-Haha Damn Shame How I Can Make A Come Baqq On A Nigga N Make His Nxt Bitch Mad
-Cause He Cant Stop Thinkin Bout Diss N Wish He Had Neva Left It
-All Yu Niggas Is All Bout Yur Money N Dese Streets
-N Yur Rather Fuqq A Hoe Den Get Widd A Dime Piece
-Funnie Part Is Dat Yu Dont Kno Wat Hoes Got Until Yu Catch It
-Den Try 2 Blame On Da Gurl Datt Cared 4 Yu But It Was The Hoe Dat Yu Wass Fuqqin Widd
-Its Time Dat I Showed Yu Cant Fuqq Widd Dis Bitch Rite Here
-I'll Leave Ya Ass In Da Cold N Be Widd My Otha Side Line Hoe
-Niggas Dese Days Dont Kno Wat Dey B Doiin 2 Us Females
-Cause Dey Think Dey Playin Us Wen Dere The Ones Gettin Played
-Think Its Time 2 Upgrade Yur SideLine Hoes
-Cause Us Females Got It Made
-Time Dat Shidd Changed N Niggas Start Treatin Us Rite
-Cause Dey Juss Dont Kno How The Game Is Played Until They See Us Females Gettin It In Rite...


Alone

As I Sit Here N Think Back On My Life
I Can See That Being Alone Is Something That Is Constantly On My Mind
I Always Wondered What It Felt Like 2 Have Someone 2 Call Mines
But They Say That Love Will Bring Yu Pain at the End of Its Line
So as I Sit Here and Mellow Into My Own Spirits
I Wonder 2 Myself Why Does This Feeling Keep Attacking
Is It Because Im Use 2 Being Alone N Its Time For Me 2 Fine Someone
Or Is It Because The Feelings That I’m Having Is Juss My Anxiety
But I Don’t Know What These Feelings Are Leading Me 2 So
For Right Now I Don’t Have A Clue Of What These Feelings
Are So I Am Juss Going To See Where It is Going To Lead Me
Because Maybe Being Alone Is The Key You Need 2 See Reality.

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