The Wedding

He was so handsome, the man of my dreams I met him through a friend of a friend. I had never thought of blind dating, but I followed my heart and took a chance. She was as beautiful as the first day we met she came at a time in my life when things were real hetic, she was what I needed after the bad divorce from my first marriage she brought some reasurrance into my life. and the you may kiss the bride we kiss each other as some cheered and some sat in disagreement. at the reception we greeted all of our family, and friends, my husband walked over to chat with his best man as my grils all set complimenting me on my hair, and makeup. my best friend and maid of honor Sasha was the first to speak Girl you look soooo. good! thank you gurl, and I could have not done this without you, whatever Gurl you owe me. so go find you one of these elgible fish and I can repay you now. I think i"ll pass on that one, I'm fine just the way I am single, and free to do whatever, whenever and speaking of being single I think I see a little some something that I want to taste as she eyed my husband James best man. So James how does it feel. How does what feel walking around in those handcuffs. Its not even like that dog, my best man, and friend since high school Terrance was always taking jabs at me for wanting to marry he knew this would destroy our relationship, no more parties, no more strippers, no more clubs, it was all over I tried to reassure him that things would still be the same but deep down on the inside, I felt the same way myself, Terrance never understood whay I wanted to remarry so quickly after the divorce. So if its not like that lets roll out right now. What dude its my wedding day. yeah today its your wedding tommorrow its the Kids, and the next day who knows homie lets face it, your life is over. I got this thing dwag dont worry I wear the pants in this relationship, and when I say jump she says how high, speaking of high terrance said looking at me and reaching into his inside jacket pocket. I shook my head as he laughed and went for the back entrance, we danced, we ate, we laughed...          

3 Years later

Marilynn sat on the sofa looking at the old wedding pictures thinking how things use to be, it had been so great in the beginning. a small sigh of release came and she closed the book as James pulled into the driveway. Hey Babe how are you. Don"t you mean good morning, not now Marilynn Its been a long day, and will be a even longer one at the office tomorrow, well today that is. it had been so long since I and james had been intimate with one another, it was always work, home, work, home he didnt even notice me anymore, their I was in my black see though underwear, and he walks right by me as if I'm not standing their, I storm to bedroom as he raids the kitchen, dont forget that we have James Jr PTA meeting tomorrow is that tomorrow yes, and I would love if you could be their this time, also you will need to get the kids Friday from school due to I have a Church meeting and will be running late, he lay in bed with his back turn shrugging his shoulders as if he were listening, I pull into the church, I'm a few minutes early the Pastor has already made it, he greets me at the door Hello sister how are you, I'm fine Pastor how about yourself, good, good, and James. well James is James, Pastor took that as opportunity to dig deeper, is everything ok, well its just he's working so much now we barely see each other, and when we do spend time together its always about business or the kids, its like were total strangers, and have you told him how you feel, I've tried numerous times, but he thinks that I'm being insecure and whinning to much, I really dont know how much more I can take, well you have to understand that the Lord will never put more on us than we can bear, it felt great having someone to share my feelings with, not only my feelings but someone who would just listen, as I was driving home my cell ph rings, Hello this is Watson Elemetary we were calling because no one has came to get your children, I am so sorry, their father was to pick them up I'm on my way, I slam the ph shut and immediately call James who of course goes to voice mail. I hang up the phone, and immediately rush to the school, that night James comes home late as usual as if nothing has happen, I sit at the empty dinner table waiting for a response, what is it now, what is it now I say angrily, did you forget your children today. Its one thing to forget my birthday, our anniversary, or even a simple hair do or outfit, but  to forget your children James how could you. Look I'm sorry we had a meeting that ran over! its always a meeting James this is getting old! Old you know whats getting old is this whinning about this, and whinning about that! I dont hear you whinning when the check here! oh whatever its not about the money James its about us, and our relationship. Since our children things just are not the same! Oh here we go agian how many times I have to tell you that someone has to make a living around here. I get up from the dinner table, and storm into the bathroom to dry the tears from my eyes. The next day my phone rings hello sister this is Pastor I was just thinking about our conversation the other day and deciced to call, is this a good time. well Pastor I'm actually going thru a lot right now. Would you like to come by the office and talk about it, well maybe later. well how about Tuesday that will give a little time for the dust to settle and then then we can talk is that ok. That will be fine Pastor, I hang up and think about how nice it must be to have someone who is so concerned, and understanding his wife is so lucky.                         

The Meeting

Tuesday 2 P.M. I pulled up at the church I walked in, Pastor greeted me as we walked to his office he offered me some water as we sat, and talked, he allowed me to vent as he sat at the desk and listen, I began to cry as I thought about how bad our relationship had become, as I began to blame myself. maybe I was complaining too much, or maybe I had let myself go, I have put on a few pounds since having the children, Pastor walks over with a box of tissues, look your a very beautiful young woman any man would be glad to have you as his wife, your smart intelligent, and great with children, he lifted my head, and wiped the tears from my face as he began to brush the bangs of my hair in my face, I began to smile I had not been touched that way in so long I embraced the moment untill it was time for me to leave to get to the school to get the children, thank you Pastor but I must leave now as I got up we hugged each other and as our eyes met it happen all at once and a passionate kiss my mind was saying let go but my body was enjoying the moment, I pulled away immediatley. Sorry I should have not done that, look I got to Go. I rushed out the door as I began to cry. After dinner, and I had finally put the children to sleep, I reached for my cell Ph that was vibrating due to needing to be charged, as I checked it shows Eight missed calls, and Nine text messages I look at the number which says Pastor I immediately go to erase the calls, then I pull up the text meesages, before clearing my inbox my urges push me to read them, Marilynn I'm terribly sorry for today please call me, Marilynn look I understand how you feel please let me explain, Marilynn look you are a very beautiful woman, and it hurts mee to see you cry and I believe our feelings got the best of us please lets talk, with a breif sigh I realize that he was right not only did he kiss me, but I kissed him back, so I deleted the inbox, and dialed his number immediatley he answered, and he began to apoligize I apoligized as well, and he asked to make amends by taking me to lunch in a public setting, and I had to make this right so I agreed. as we sat on patio of the resturant, silence was the only conversation for the moment as we both thought of words to justify our actions, finally as we both spoke together look I'm sorry no I said I'm sorry I havent had someone in a long time treat me the way that you treated me. no marilynn I played on your emotions I should have not came at you like that, but your very beautiful, and to see someone like you crying...I just got caught up in the moment. so He gently touched my hand so where do we go from here as we both looked into each others eyes, we both knew this would not be the end, because our bodies both wanted much more. Look I have a meeting in about Fifteen minutes at the church can you please meet met their so that we can make this right. I wanted to say no But I had to see him agian my emotions were all over the place so I agreed.                       

Drawn & Hooked

Well brother Paul you take care and I call you later, as Pastor was wrapping up his meeting I knocked softly on the door and entered he ask me to have a seat as he walked brother Paul out of his office. I had a seat on leather couch as several thoughts ran through my head, right when I decided that this was not a good idea he walked in he could tell I was nervous about beng their so he offered me a glass of water. Instead of discussing our reason for being their he managed to make small talk about last weeks service, and upcomming events, we laughed and joked as we shared ideas eventually I had forgotten why I was their his raido was playing jazz softly in his office as I began to hum to the tune. and what do you know about Jazz, well for you information I studied music in college, as I asked, and what do you know? We began to share in music as one of our favorite artist came on he began to sing along, and I could not help myself because it was one of my favorite songs as we began to sing together before we knew it we were so close to one another it was if something had pulled us together, and before we knew it we were in each others arms, we can"t do this I whispered, he said but why does it feel so right, you make me feel wanted, I havent felt this way in so long, but its wrong, look I understand how you feel marilynn and I also have the same feelings about you. We have so much I common, and it seems as if we were meant to be together. He began to stroke the back of my neck and I could feel chills run up my body I wanted to move but I was drawn in and hooked. We kissed passionately as he laid me back on his couch, he began to massage me gently as I soaked up every moment, as his hands moved softly across my body, I managed to to pull myself away, I got up grabbed my sweater and ran out of the office, as I got to my car my heart was racing, my mind was running in circles as I thought about what I had done, how would my husband, feel or how would his wife feel, what would my children think of me, more or lees what would the church think of me, but most of all what did God think of me.  

Sunday

That Sunday at church service his words were like a knife piercing my heart as his voice echoed from the Pulpit...           We all have Sinned and fallen short of the Glory of God and It was only By God"s Grace and his tender Mercies that we are able to be here today , the Bible says that for God so love the world that he gave his only Begotten son whom gave his life for the sins of you and I. After church service I tried to avoid everyone, and just leave but it would not seem normal not to make small talk, as we were leaving Pastor greeted us at the door. Hello James how are you. Fine Pastor great word today. And Marilynn How are you as he made a small gesture by putting his hand on my back as his finger hit my neck, reminding me of our last encounter, as we left I and james rode home silently as i sat looking out my passenger window thinking on my emotions, I loved James with all my heart, but things just wasnt the same we no longer took time out for each other, we no longer complimeted each other, and when we did manage to notice something different about the other, the thought never occured that maybe it was a cry for attention, it was always wow you changed you hair who are you going out with, or wow you smell good, big date tonight, which each time would just case the other to get defensive. How did we get so far off course, all I wanted was someone who would love and protect me. James was a graet provider but his life surrounded his work, and I had began to feel lonley, and left out, not to mention the frustration of raising two children, all of my friends now had lives of their own, and I had no one to turn too. When we arrived home James went in to change clothes as I prepared to feed the children, as he came out I noticed that he was dressed as if he were going to the office. Not today james coule we at least have dinner together. Look I have some documents to go over and sign and i should be done, but can it wait till after dinner, Marilynn. i cut him short and just walked away as I slamed the pots, and pans on the counter, I heard him walk out the door, after dinner I decided to cuddle up with my kindle for a good book as I was searching different topics on BookRix my ph rang. Hell Marilynn how are you fine Pastor, and yourself. Please call me Troy did I make you feel uncomfortable today. Well the gesture on the neck was a bit much. I certainly do apoligize if I offended you, it was never my intentions, did I catch you at a bad time. Well I was about to dig into a book. Novel? no possibly a short story, and I take it you're and avid reader? yes I do read often we began to discuss different books and authors, before we knew it time had passed by. Marilynn I must see you agian, I cant get you out of my mind you're all i think about, its driving me insane. I..I...feel the same Troy, but its just not right. Look meet me at the church tomorrow can you just do that. i will think about it. Ok till then. as we hung up my mind began to think back to our last encounter how how good I felt, then I thought about afterwards, I was so confused, as I prepared for bed my mind raced back, and forth. I began to think about the sermon that morning as i shook my head and went to sleep.        

           

 

The Next Day

As I pulled up at the church He had text messaged, and told me to let myself in, and to lock the door behind me, due to being an employee their I had a key to the church, as I walked in all the lights were off and I could hear Jazz music comming from his office. Hello Jame's How are you I'm fine and yourself fine thank you. Look I was thinking about our last conversation, and I thought maybe you could meet me at the church and we could get together with my Husband, and come up with some ideas. That would be great I'm nearby now. well I'm headed that way would you like to meet me sure. Both James and the Pastor's wife pulled up at the same time as they were walking up they didnt pay it no mind that both cars were their due to both Marilynn and the Pastor worked out of the church, they both walked up together as his wife searched for her key to unlock the door. 

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Texte: Mack Min
Bildmaterialien: BookRix
Lektorat: Mack Min
Tag der Veröffentlichung: 25.09.2013

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I would like to dedicate this book Firstly to God for granting me this gift of writing as and outlet of what I see and hear in the world, also my wife, of 9 years, and our 4 wonderful children, I want their children's children to one day be able to walk into a library, or pull a book up online and say that your grandfather wrote this many years ago, and that way they will always have a part of me to look on and be proud of