The Dreams

CHAPTER ONE
The night of june 2010 it was a sunday evening and i was fast asleep dreaming ......
I was dreaming of laying in his arms. Hearing the sweet music coming from his lips the words so captivating, it blew me away. It was so romantic. He had just finished the song and begin singing another, when out of nowhere as i began listening i could feel my body tensing and the hairs on the nape of my neck stand up ,it was just a song but as i listened closely it was the song i heard in every dream i had , well there not dreams ,there nightmares. But this one was so different who was this man,how did i know him and why were we embraced as though we had been together forever ,i looked closer at him i had never seen him before and how could he know this song or was this just part of the nightmare or was this all real was i really asleep this was getting creepy now . I saw myself geting up from the sofa and walking to the kitchen to pour myself another glass of wine. As i was returning to the frontroom again, i stood just in the doorway to the frontroom, i looked at this man carefully he was so beautiful like nothing i had ever seen before. he was still singing, but he wasnt singing, i froze and saw myself dropping the glass to the floor, the sound of shattering glass, in a thousand pieces covering the floor infront of myself. he was sitting still in the same place in all his perfect glory but he was not singing the song his mouth was still mouthing the words but now it was no longer his voice it was now infact a woman`s, i recognised the voice instantly it was my mother`s. i looked at him in disbelief, what was happening i suddenly felt my vision going blurry again, the room seemed to be spinning and i reached for the sideboard near the door but i must have misguided and i was gone..... i knew i was was heading to the nightmare part of my dream now because the pattern and sequence seemed to change in exactly the same way every night ,moments later i awoke in my bedroom, i had gone back to my human days again and yet i could see the transformation again with my own eyes, like i was a fly on the wall looking in on myself , suddenly i could hear the singing and i ran down the stairs and there she was, my mother. As i walked into the kitchen i could not help but notice the mirror in the hallway and the person looking back at me it was the old me. Oh how loverly it was to see the beautiful ruffles of my dress again, the splendid bow on the back of my bustle, the hand stiched corset with the rich feel of satin tieing it up so tightly at the back.But the thing i miss the most about my old life was the simplest little thing ,the way my mother use to do the tightest ringlets in my hair it was like one continuous curl it was so beautiful i carefully wiped the tears away from my eyes and turned back round to the direction of the kitchen. I walked into the kitchen and heard the song all over again this time it was a lot clearer ...

Una favola vecchia come il tempo
che più vera non si può
a malapena amici
Poi qualcuno cede
Inaspettatamente
Solo un piccolo cambiamento
Piccolo, per non dire il minimo
Entrambi un poco spaventati
Nessuno dei due preparato
La bella e la bestia

Sempre gli stessi
Sempre una sorpresa
Sempre come prima
Sempre una certezza
Come il sole che sorge

Una favola vecchia come il tempo
un motivo vecchio come una canzone
agrodolce e strano
Scoprendo che tu sei cambiato
Imparando che avevi torto

Sicuro come il sole
che sorge a est
(una favola vecchia come il tempo)
una canzone vecchia come una rima
La bella e la bestia)


I listened carefully to the words. Why was this song so familiar and what did it mean, i will have to get this translated. She turned around and my heart sank and tears flooded to my eyes i had forgotten just how beautiful my mother was. i wished i had treated her alot better and been a better daughter, she saw the pain stricken in my face and she gave me one of her most affectionate smiles .Then she grabbed my arm tightly and spoke but it wasn`t a regular tone, it was more a screeching sound. the sound reminded me of a very angry banshee. but why was my mother so angry,and yet her face so peaceful I could never remember a time when my mother was ever angry. People use to say I had the same temperment as her that aslong as I always kept this part of me it would be like she never died. but she was, and right now it was what i needed, she interupted my train of thought"I need you to dream kristen. Believe in what you see for your dreams are your way of undoing your future ,it would also help if you look up our ancestors. you need to remember who you are and what you are, if you stand any chance of getting through this. "THROUGH WHAT" I SHOUTED, then she spoke slower and words began to form calmer. "Stay away from him Kristen he is the reason me and your father are dead it was either us or you and your brother."Marcus!!!!, i had almost forgotten i had a brother .Mother what are you saying" I suddenly felt weary, what was she saying, this couldn't be happening. It was but a dream ,wasnt it ? ,she just looked at me like I was already aware of what was going on , but I knew nothing . "“He`s a liars and hes been trying to keep you from finding out the truth about your history and also your past. He was once a loverly boy and you too were obviously very much alike. He was so inlove with you and we knew that it was never possible because of what we knew about the situation and what we knew of his ancestors and who they were. But the difficulty in it all was we never really knew what he was exactly, because he was nothing like his family which gave us hope for him but we couldnt allow him to be with you but he tried everything he possibly could to see you he began possesing every mans body in town just to get close to you, we started seeing the pictures of young noble men in the papers and the search for them , till a few days later and the papers had there dead corpses on the front page. This was when we realised what he was capable of and who he had become.But his love for you never changed in all those years it became the death of us and the death of everything he once loved "i looked at her in disbelief and with such poison to my voice i replyed " what in lords name could be worse than me im an abomination, i am the damned, i gave my soul to the devil himself and your telling me im not the only evil thing out there you must have this all wrong mother"she took my hand in hers and looked me straight in the eye."You are far from being damned my sweet child do you remember nothing of who you once was the powers you possesed, the way it was so natural for everyone to fall inlove with you but this i do not blame them for i was blessed with such a beautiful daughter they would do absolutly anything it took to make you happy. You see kristen you were once a very powerfull siren. Your very presence made men fall helplessly inlove with you ,you were deadly to men and to men who had girlfriends and wifes and for this very reason it also became the death of you .But this was not your fault this was infact a gift , a gift sometimes i wish was never bestowed apon you but it was a gift all the same , it could help you right now with what will be happening in your life soon. You see kristen ,you come from a very long line of witches hearth women as we were once called you are exactly like your great grandmother you have one of many powers and talents you need to look up your great grandmothers grandson Henry he lives 167 lots road he can tell you everything you need to know about your family and ur heritage he will help you get to one with the powers and strengths and tune into to what rightfully is bestowed apon you many years ago i wish i had the time that was needed to have taught you this myself we were waiting for your 18th birthday waiting for the moon to ignite it and then explain everything but that night went very wrong and we never got the chance to tell you about yourself for that was the night the monster came and killed your family and destroyed your brother and you but luckly for us we had seen the changes over the years you were already showing traits at a very young age but unfortunatly the memories were lost when you became a vampire but they are there in you my child they are just dormant right now this is why you have these dreams my child it is me speaking to you fro beyond th grave calling to you because i know i left you without warning and you have become my unfinished buisness but know my sweet child if it was not for becoming dark you would never have see the light of day again i will explain in detail another time , but you must seek his help ok for i feel we have not much time till he finds you and shows you who he really is by then it might be too late he has already waited over 400years. But his patience are growing thin now for he knows you will be inlove very soon with your maker and when the time comes you will know who he is it will be as though he never left your side he will keep you safe i know he has done bad things but as i was dying i touched him as he walked over to you he looked down apon me and your father with such pain in his eyes but i could also feel his pain and see his past and how he was from a long line of shapeshifters he was born with a rare gift but so very different from the rest of his family his mother was a beautiful sucubus which enabled him to create dreams for a person and he could enter them and his father was a shapeshifter so it ment he could shapeshift into any human he saw almost like a dopelganger. So he was kidnapped, and had his life ripped away from him to save that of his family but his kidnapper wanted him for other reasons one late evening after he had served his kidnapper and guests all day he went to his room it was but a shed at the top end of the garden just as he settled down to rest his tired legs he was savagely attacked by 3 of his kidnappers guests he had no idea they were vampires he was left for dead he awoke 3 days later covered in dirt under his bed.His only thought at the time was to escape from this prison he was encased in.He dug at the surrounding dirt,scratching and clawing his way to the surface.As he emerged from his trap he could see the moon shining through a small window,how had he got there,who put him there and what was this unnerving feeling he had now feeling,every bone,muscle in his entire body as if it were craving for something,but what was it. What had transpired how did he end up in this situation ,his mind was trying to piece together what had happened but he didnt seem to have any memory.He stood taking in his surroundings wondering how long he had been here for,but they were just vague images nothing he could put a time too.He was now starting to feel thirsty but it didnt feel like any normal thirst he had ever felt before,it was as though his throat was burning and there was a strange fire growing inside of him,he went to get a glass of water as he stood at the sink and poured himself a glass,a strange odour seemed to eminate but from where he could not put his finger on.He lifted the glass of water to his lips,as he started to drink the water ,he suddenly had to stop he threw down the glass and was starting to be violently sick as if the water was contaminated by something.It was as if his throat was on fire,the burning seemed to go through all of his body almost ripping through his chest cage trying to escape like a ball of fire ,and this thirst this uncontrolable thirst was still there growing even more uncontrollable with every minute.He decided he could no longer take being inclosed in such a small enclosed space he deided to get a little fresh air he stepped out side to take a run it always calmed him down when he was stressed he began to run willing the unrelenting need to transform into to a favourite dog he had as a child but nothing happend he couldnt understand what was wrong he wasnt changing he tried other animals to shapeshift to but still nothing he slumped against a tree and slid down the trunk till he was sitting on the floor `how could this be? ,why am i not changing?,whats wrong with me?.After what seemed hours of deliberation he headed straigh for the house to speak to his kidnapper he found him in the usual place the study ." Oh it is you i thought i would get the oppotunity to speak to you sooner than this you have come with questions i see" "yes i have what the hell have you done to me is it not enough that you take me from my family and keep me as your glorified slave and gofer you make your friends attack me for no reason" he looked at me with greed in his eyes"i thought you would be pleased to become immortal and powerful like your mother""you leave my mother out of this you know nothing of her do not speak her name i gave you my word i would go with you and do whatever you want for the peace of my family and you promised" " oh but i do promise them peace i was just saying your mother is very powerful do you think i do not know of your family what each and everyone one of them are , your father is the heir to the most powerful shapeshifters known to us your mother is a seductive succubus/siren ,your sister is also a succubus/shapeshifter but not half as powerful as you my dear boy oh no not by far " "oh so what do you think i am " " its not what you once was that was poweful on its own but now you are so much more now you are incubus/shapeshifter/vampire" "woah i am no vampire i am not a monster i do good things i have never been a monster tears fall down his face " " oh but you are my friends saw to it that you became everything i wanted you to become have you not wondered why you feel uncordinated, you have a thirst you cant reach with just normal fluids, and this feeling of an imaginary fireball wanting to rip open ur chest cage and escape into the night have you had these feelings they are the unatural feelings of the monster you spoke of and its now inside of you ,you need to feed to regain all of your other powers." i will not feed and become a creature of the night a detesting sick monster i will not " " then i will kill your mother tonight as she travels through the dreams of men she seduces " "no nooooooo wait what do you want from me " "i want your total cooperation i will soon bring you supper see to it she does not leave this house alive drink her dry till you take her last breath and then when you are fully restored we will then speak about what i really want from you " true to his word 30 minutes later a girl came into the room she was beautiful with long blonde hair it was wavy her eyes were the most beautiful shade of green she looked so young and yet she smelt so good but i could not recognise the perfume i moved closer to her sensing her fear "its ok dont be afraid i just want to look at you closer i moved closer as i did the scent waffed alittle stronger i could see the pulse in her neck it was singing music to me my eyes drifted quickly back to her face before i realised i had done it i was right beside her stroaking her hair away from her face so gently the look in her eyes told me she was relaxing in my presense i slid behind her pulling the hair away from her sholder exposing her neck once more in an instant fangs started painfully extending from my canine teeth and the next thing i knew i had this beautiful girl in my arms drinking from her with complete pleasure the feeling was exhillerating and powerful like nothing i had ever felt befor is this how it would feel every time i started feeling the powers flowing fully through my newly formed physique i felt stronger than i ever had i was still drinking as i felt the girl slumping like a dead weight in my arms i knew her very existance was coming to an end and i never even knew her name the guilt started flowing through my mind the visions of her family out looking for her but then the visions of my mother being killed and the thought of never seeing her again out weighed this emotion the flow of the blood suddenly stopped as though an imaginary tap had been turnt off and the burning was gone i dropped the body to the floor and ran out the room i ran back to my shed and sat on the bed holding my head in my hands i knew i needed to get to the bottom of this and when i knew enough i would escape and before i do i will kill my kidnapper in the same way as i killed that girl with that goal in mind i sat and waited for him to return ,that evening around 9pm he sent his head servant to come and get me he knocked on the shed door "alexander, master will see you now", "he is not my master " i replied as i opened the door" but im on my way"i walked slowly to the house as i got to the study door my stomach twisted suddenly, i felt the feeling of fear, i was fearfull of this man suddenly and i didnt know why ,i didnt bother knocking, my inherbition of being polite was suddenly gone. i threw the door open and walked straight in, he was standing by the open fire with an elderly woman, she was still extremely beautiful and youthful looking even though underneath you could see she was but a fragile looking woman with extremely potent blood i could smell it instantly which made the burning feeling in my throat return immediatly i nodded at him and he issued the woman to leave."Thats my wife" he said as i scanned the woman carefully. I watched as she left the room the i looked straight back to my captor "ok we got things to discuss i did as u asked" he looked at me as though he was in complete control and i was just a stain on the rug beneath his feet."Yes i agree but before we do i have an errand for you to run" "you have got to be joking"was my quick reply. "No i certainly am not i want you to go to this addresse for me and spy upon this family i have not heard from them lately i am wondering how my great grand daughter is doing well it is my wifes family but im eager to know how she is fairing up go now and return as soon as you have seen her . I will tell you why when u return do not drink her blood do not even look at her in the wrong way she is to important to me "once he gave me the sheet of paper with the adresse on i turned and headed straight for the frontdoor outside the moon was high in the sky the stars were but a mere constelation all on there own they were so beautiful i was seeing the sky completely different scince my transformation the air was tantelizing so many different scents filled the nights air it was a pleasure to breath again instead of taking in great gulps of smog . I felt the freedom i had once felt just over a year ago befor i was taken and stuffed in the back of a van with a sack over my head why had he allowed me to leave like this knowing i could just run straight back to my home and bring enforcement with me this time thats when it hit me the answer came to me just as quick as the question had he knows i would go straight back to him because i have many questions i walked down the road coming closer to the the adresse in question as i got closer i heard something it was filling my finely accute sense of hearing with the most beautiful song i had ever heard, it wasnt the radio it was a girl the melody was so beautiful and harmonious it filled me with such peace. I moved closer to the sound i couldnt believe it it was coming from the exact house i was to spy on the lights were on in this little quaint country cottage they must still be awake i could see faintly an older man and woman sitting in what seemed to be rocking chairs near an open roaring fire the woman was knitting what could only be described as a scarf out on the porch in a love seat was a young girl she could not have been much older than 17 or 18 i glanced around taking in the surroundings it was nothing out the ordinary it had a beautiful garden all around the house so many different flowers and herbs and fruit and vegetables growing these people were certainly naturists i felt so sorry for them being related to such an evil man they didnt seem evil atall but how do i know from just first glance i stay back behind the tree i glance back to the girl what is so special about this girl that he would have me spy on her i didnt quite understand i moved alittle closer to the house as i did i gasped very deeply i noticed her i was mesmerized what i noticed first were her peircing blue eyes i had to double take they were breathtaking and alluring all in one i instantly found myself being drawn to her immediate beauty she was beyond beauty she was another catorgry all of her own i took two more steps forward to get an even closer look and thats when it happend the feeling of electricity thin in the air like an invisible string drawing me closer to her this suddenly alarmed me in all the 23 years of my existance never had a woman made me feel this way without even knowing her i felt the barriers that had been protecting my heart for so many years fall around me. I stand before her like this vunerable man willing to do whatever it would take to make her completely happy it wasnt just her eyes or her beauty it was her whole persona and her aura it was beyond my every expectation of the female race it made me wonder what this girl was and why she was so important to my captors plan but what was totally noticable was this girl was certainly not human.i noticed suddenly,she was walking towards me,she spoke with such a tone it made me quickly take a step back and make a run for the trees.i ran at tremendous speed straight back to hell i called home my crappy shed.i openend the door and darted for my bed.i could still hear the beautiful melodic tone of her voice,if her eyes and her looks were not enough to drive all the men in the village, insane with lust.Then her voice would be. I couldnt get the vision of her out of my mind,i must know her or at least her name.I remembered i had to report back to my kidnapper instantly,there were more things i wanted to know.i walked back up to the house and went up the stairs to the study.as i got there i noticed the door was shut,i knocked "come in",i walked in .he was sat in his usual chair,sipping a glass of the finest brandy."right get to the point,stop wasting time or im going to leave",he looked at me with a strange look in his eyes."oh dear boy,ive requested your soul,you will never get away from me,not as long as i live,i have insurance with your name on it" . i felt the anger rise through me from the tips of my toes to the very top of my head,just like a tsunami.with venom in my words almost hissing i spoke "you do not own me and one day i shall find a way to be free from you""dear boy you are but a mere shadow of my strength,besides we have more pressing matters to attend to,the girl did you see her" "Yes i saw her she was sitting on a love seat when i turned up i hid behind a tree " "how did she fair " "she has developed very well she looks around 17 or 18 she is the most beautiful thing i have ever seen she has the most beautiful piercing blue eyes and the most mesmerizing face i have ever seen who is this girl". "That is none of your buisness who she is she will be the wife of my great grand-son in the next year once she turns 18 they will make beautiful but poweful children together and my family will continue through the generations and i want you to be apart of all that " " thats sick to make grandchildren marry its incest " "you know nothing of this family we have been doing it for years "what do you need me for if you have been doing it for generations then" " the mother of the girl is very strong willed and very powerful just like my wife who is her grandmother and just like her mother before that and we cant risk any interuptions or difience on the eve of her birthday " just then my mother broke out of her trance and looked back at me "so as you see kristen that was all i got before he broke away from my hold but i think i got enough from it to know deep down he was not a bad person for he had no real passion for killing anyone he was ordered by his captor your great grandfather and did as he was told because of fear of losing who he truly loved his mother im hoping he finds you first for i know you will be safe "Mother who was my maker i know nothing of who he is or even what happend before i was turned why am i missing so much and forgotten everything i dont understand help me mother tell me " my beautiful kirsten i have just spoke of him but it was out of love that he changed for the fear of losing you was too much . I will tell you all in good time but you must listen to why it is dangerous to be incontact with this other person first i only have a short time with you before you wake " "Ok i understand" i quickly said "i fear you might beckon to him and my sweet child if you do you will be lost forever""beckon to who mother ,whats wrong with him who is he what does he want" He chose the wrong path kristen he seeked the help of someone very dark and gave his life to him to become something he once detested to get to the one thing he always wanted""what has he always wanted" i quickly said "you my darling" my mothers quick responce sounded the alarm bells in my chest"why me" i replied, this was when i saw the tears in my mothers eyes "beause ur great-grandmother was married to his great-grandfather and that made our family as one by marriage, they made a type of ancestral binding set between our two connecting families that the next grand daughter born from our family would marry the first grandson of there family to begin a whole new line of hybrid witches and so on and so fourth we were sickened by this news because the new part of our familes were demons consisting of succubus and incubuses,and many more and even death eaters they were the closest things to the devil and to the darkside that we had always tried to stay away from as light casters i have no idea how your great grandmother got involved with such a family im assuming it was throught of such force and power but she was the head of our family so we had to abide by the revelations that were to unravel in our once peaceful lives ".i took in a deep breath feeling so heavy with fear This began a whole new feeling throughout my body one i had not encountered in over 4 centuries as a vampire can turn off emotions and feel nothing atall but right now my mother was talking of such things you expect to hear in an adult comic book i was imagining a title like demons suck or a roadway to hell right from your family sofa i can just see it now the front cover of the latest addition, my family swarmed by the ugly relatives i shuddered at the thought she continued"so when family members became pregnant they quickly suffered miscarriages a few days later some say it was a god send or that they had been praying to the great goddess mother nature till we found out years later our great uncle morcam who was a warlock had been concocting a herbal tea that made you miscarry he was later executed for helping mothers abort their unborn child so other members had children and 75% were beautiful little girls which then married the grandsons till they had children which were evil children, you could tell by there black eyes they were half witch half demon we didnt understand why they would want this kind in the family but there was no talking to your great-grandmother or great-grandfather they were so set in there way your great uncle morcam told some of the others oneday that they were creating a manefestation to make sure the light casters were eventually wiped out by dark casters and they could oneday take over mankind itself and everything that was once human would no longer exist i never understood because we were always so gentle and also quiet but most of all we fitted right in with everyone there were very few we told in my case, i never told anyone i always felt so guilty though because i was one of the lucky ones when i was born there was no grandson born at the same time so i was allowed to fall inlove with whoever i wanted and i met your daddy he was a wonderfull and gracious man and so full of life and i was very lucky that he was also so crazy about nature like me oh yes as i was saying. The morning before your great uncle morcam was being executed he spoke to your great aunt winnie who was his wife , he said he remembered hearing the council members who were made up of the new generation hybrids talking they had all gathered one night in the parlour they were all talking between themselves one of them a female was saying that the vermin will onday not know whats hit them the evil children would then grow and settle down with humans have children with them and the evil would keep spreading town to town and soon there would be no full blood vermin alive" "what about the human they settle down with " "well most demons are immortal others have an exceptionally long life span so even by the time they get old the humans will probably be dead and they will then move on to the next vermin straight away there are no feelings involved its just there way of life but its not your way kristen just promise me you wont fall for it kristen be smart about this seek the help take it with both hands and embrace it ,its all down to you kristen to change this world as we know it ......... oneday we thought it was all over because your great grandmother and great-grandfather died in a freak accident but i think deep down we all know it was ur makers doing but have no evidence to speak of that we dont really know about so when me and your father were expecting you we thought it was all forgotten so we kept you and the day i gave birth to you was the best day of my life and we will never forget the day never!! but 14 years later he appeared in ur life as though he had always known about you and he shadowed your every move we tried to protect you but there was not much we could do, then when you turnt 16 he became even more attracted to you and more obsessed he began fighting off other gentleman who came to ask for courtship with you like you had always belonged to him and no one else your father stepped in once to tell him to back off but out worst fears came true he told us that the very thing we thought we had got away with was still very much in place.So you did belong to him but it didnt seem to bother you you seemed to like him the same way, so me and your father tried our hardest to protect you and keep you from knowing that part of the history and we just had to try and accept it but we never once liked it.We even started liking him but then we noticed the changes as his herritage started taking affect on the person he once was and we couldnt let you be with him so we moved but as i said he tried everything he found out where we moved to and he began searching for you till half the village of men were dead we saw first hand the evil in his eyes we saw what they did to him when he thought he couldnt have you we watched as he killed everyone in our family who wouldnt tell him where you were till he got to me and your father and we gave up our lives for you and your brother but he had plans for you both you especially you .As we laid dying on the floor we watched everything , your brother wanted to die he did not want to become a monster but he had no choice it was over very quickly and your brother fled from the house you must find him kristen you will sense him YOU MUST FIND HIM FOR HE HAS THE SIGHT YOU NEED!!!your brother is your best chance to help you remember everything especially about the people that will be entering in your life....... you cant see it but believe me my love he's a changed man he's evil but at the moment he was about to lay you down on the mortar unconcious it all went wrong for him you see the person who made him turnt to you and knelt down to your side and held your hand in his and and that was the moment me and your father knew he would live a lifetime of never having you for this man had taken you for his own he left you human for a longtime till one night he had to change you to save your life he came home one night to find you had been attacked so badly he knew who did this and so do i but he loved you so much he knew changing you would make you forget who you were with him and he knew he would have to search the world for you to make you his again but he knew if he didnt save you he would live a lifetime alone without his reason for living his sun and his moon he couldnt stand the thought of never seeing you in this life time or the next but dear only you can stop this once you remember you were once extremely powerful and you need to be again "."Control from who.....Who mother " was my reply my legs were going weak this was all too surreal for even me "Alexander and Sheridan" her answer threw me into panic how did she know about them and what did they have to do with my death, the room was fading and i began to see fragments of my flat returning to focus again but before i left she had one last thing to say "Find out as much of your ancestors history and use your powers to find out what’s going on it’s the only way please Kristen before it’s too late for you and your brother .
i woke up shaken and sweating "i have a brother !!! .


CHAPTER TWO

THE YEAR WAS 2011, ON A THURSDAY. THE PLACE MY HOUSE, WELL MY VERANDER TO BE PRECISE. THE CITY WAS LONDON ......it was 8pm, the sky was clear and not a star in sight. The sky seemed like it could go on forever, it was so pure with the slightest wisps of clouds still lingering from the day i had missed. I had spent the day talking to the love of my life, when we spoke it felt like a minutes when really it was hours, I could never bore of our conversation or his voice. We spoke about our day; he was telling me he had family coming from Italy next week and how he would love me to meet them. I was a little apprehensive when i spoke, but i told him i would love too, i then went on to say i would have to stay at your house for the weekend ,he got so excited and told me he wouldn’t have it any other way which made me feel so good inside. I felt so wanted by him it was so hard to remember i had ever spent my life alone, he just seemed to erase that part the day we met, and to be honest i didn’t really mind losing the feeling . I hated that part of my life, i hated the feeling of an empty house, empty streets, empty bed, and an empty heart, i know my heart was dead a long time ago but there was still a longing of wanting to feel it beat one more time, because before he came along i was all alone, never leaving my house till dark and always returning before sunrise i was completely all alone. I had spent my days so scared of human contact and the fear of wanting nothing more than to rip open there jugular and feed till a frenzy came over me and the feeling of not being able to stop till they were dead. Before i had learnt to control my thirst and the desire for human blood i was repulsive, i wouldn’t stop, i couldn’t stop, i just wanted to kill every day. It became an obsession and i was good at it. It controlled my every thought, my every movement and even my life, the thrill it gave me was beyond this world, the feeling was immense that was until Doc took me under his wing. He had spent his human life as a psychologist, caring for the mentally ill patients at the local mental institute. Till one night in June, he was on call and his life as a human came to an end. He then spent the other 465 years of his life taking in sick and confused vampires, making them cling to every human cell they had left making them remember the good sides and their emotions and the way they use to love and the way they wanted to be loved. He also began managing our fury’s till he knew we could manage them ourselves and even when he was done with us and we were safe for the human society, he was only ever a phone call away. He had helped me so much more than any of the others, something felt wrong about this and i have asked him why but he just tells me I’m imagining things but I know something isn’t right about this feeling i have i just can’t put my finger on it but all i knew was this over whelming feeling deep inside that I owed him my life something told me this everyday maybe it was my guilty conscious or my sub conscious i couldn’t tell but i felt a connection to him a kind of gratitude and i knew thanks to him i would never be like that again , not now, not ever i was more in control than i had ever been and i was now living a full and happy life with the humans everyday and I was soooooo happy again. If i had never learnt to control the vampire in me I would never have met him my reason for living my soul mate, his existence, his life, his soul, was the most important thing to me, before I became a vampire i had loved people so deeply i felt what they felt, feared what they feared and i loved feeling so emotionally tuned with them. I did this every day of my life but there it was again this mental block not knowing what I did as a human but I just knew it was to do with the human civilisation and my connection with them but all I knew from what I know .It was the best feeling ever. I knew i had to keep that part of me alive, i had to. I could never hurt a person again, I could never go from loving people so deeply to killing them again it would kill me inside and a lifetime is a long time to feel hurt and regret. so i chose to stay away from civilisation for their own protection and my sanity, but i longed for love and i hated being so lonely and i never wanted to feel that again. we then spoke of his nana, she was so frail she was diagnosed with cancer just before we met. she was doing so well but i could hear the emotions in his voice i tried to make him feel better by telling him i burnt toast today, how stupid it sounded, but he still laughed, then he said" oh wow babe, how time flies, I’m just going to have a shower and ill be right over" " sure see u soon" i said. " ok till then stay safe" he replied. I put down the receiver , damn had the day gone by so quickly. i couldn’t believe it i was so lost in our conversation and then it was time to see his beautiful smile and his longing eyes and arms that were made for me. I fitted so nicely in those arms , it was as if god created a fitting jigsaw piece in the shape of his muscular Adonis arms to fit round my curvy body. I knew over the years we would probably find many more pieces that would fit nicely around us to create our lifelong jigsaw puzzle together ........my thoughts then trailed down a more intimate path I started to remember other details like they were so fresh in my mind like his scent mmmmmmm he smelt of a summers day in the forest. The woody musk scent combined with dove soap and his hair was the smell of lemon and lime head and shoulders, all topped off with the pungent smell of the most expensive aftershaves i had ever smelt .He took such great care of himself. Every day he smelt of a new one but he already smelt divine without it, he made me wannaaaaaaaa ..... hearing the phone ring again i jumped suddenly feeling grateful for the interruption to my train of thoughts, before i even picked up the phone i knew who it was , i picked up the receiver and spoke...." hello" a familiar voice was on the other end...." Kristen its sheridan here, you’re running low on supplies sweetheart. when are you going to come by and pick up. also i would like to have a chat to you” I answered with caution ...." yeah sure ill pop by your house tomorrow evening say 9.30 pm, what do u want to talk to me about" ........" err just come by at that time and we will chat then, its nothing for you to worry about" ........" oh ok, yes ill see you then doc”.....without waiting for a bye I put down the receiver. i looked back up to the sky and there they were still the wisps of the clouds carefully separating into a thousand specks melting into the darkness above , just then the door knocked twice it was our secret knock so i knew it was him, but i could already smell him coming up the pathway. i quickly checked in the mirror grooming my hair quickly tucking my curls behind my ears and one continuous ringlet falling gently onto my cheek i touched up my lip gloss too and ran to open the door, there he stood in all his glory an inch or two away from me out of sheer impulse i jumped into his arms wrapping my legs tightly around his waist ,looking deeply into his eyes i could see the fire building up in them already for me and i couldn’t help but giggle it was just then as i giggled i was sure i was going to see his amazing smile and sure enough i could see it happening , his top lip turned up and out into the smile i love so much. when he smiled at me this way his whole face lights up and i swear i can see Orion’s belt right there twinkling in his eyes, that smile is deadly to me and he knows it drives me crazy but he does it anyway . He put me down gently holding my hands before saying the same thing he says everyday" GOD DAMMIT UR SO BEAUTIFUL, IM THE LUCKIEST MAN ALIVE, IVE MISSED YOU BABY” I never tire of hearing him say this to me I turned around looking into his eyes and as i lead him to the veranda " I MISSED YOU TOO BABY I GOT SOMETHING TO SHOW YOU". Stepping out on to the veranda i leaned against the railing looking up to the sky , i felt him quickly taking his place behind me wrapping his arms securely round my waist suddenly i feel it like a sudden surge of power like electricity currents running through his strong arms into my body and back into his nothing in this world can compare to that feeling the feeling of the connection of mind body and soul calling out to each other it was immense and i clung onto it for dear life because the moment i felt that i feet alive again. He felt the calling of our bodies too , his body shuddered against me and i felt a quiet giggle creep through my lips . I looked up to the sky as a sort of distraction for the longing i was feeling and the wisps had finally disappeared and ever so carefully forming were the twinkling of the brightest stars i had ever seen. i pointed to them and said “that’s our star baby" i know he never saw them because only my eyes could see that far he replied saying "where Kristen i don’t see them "but of course he was right they were still so far away for the human eye to catch, i tried to cover up my mess by saying " ahhhhhh my mistake it must have been a comet the sky is absolutely perfect for them tonight trying to seem quite interested in the solar system instead of a crazed vampire seeing something a human would never get the chance to see and I'm guessing it worked because all of a sudden he laughed but I knew it was only minutes before they exploded in the sky in full view of every passer by who might be looking like we were. i felt him stretching his neck around me to get a better view probably hoping that he might catch the tail of a comet this time ,as he stretched i turned my head to see the nape of his neck exposed and so close to my face i cud see his pulse and i could smell the heady scent of his blood racing through his veins. ahhhhhhh i rubbed my nose down his neck gently feeling the twang of pain i had felt so many times with him, he had the richest scent of blood i had ever smelt in a 475 years and it was a smell that drove me absolutely crazy the first day i met him it travelled across the room to me like a gust of wind through the trees it hit me head on making the room spin around i darted my eyes across the room searching the face that was the first time i had seen him he spotted me staring and came walking over i turned round trying to compose myself as i heard the footsteps getting closer i had to breath deep long breaths but every time i breathed in the fire sent me withering in pain internally, i heard the chair next to me being dragged out and then it went quiet i slowly looked to my left and looking back at me was the most gorgeous guy i had ever seen he smiled at me i smiled back and then if his blood wasn’t enough to drive my senses wild he spoke " hi, are you new in town it’s just i would have remembered your beautiful face " wow this man knows exactly what to say i couldn’t help but smile again before i replied "as a matter of a fact i am well i was born here but have spent the last 15 years traveling all over " he was taken aback by my answer i could tell his body language had also changed too he had turned himself completely round to me arms relaxed to his side eyes focused on mine " wow he said before continuing that’s amazing so you are a wise worldly woman then i like that " i couldn’t believe how all of a sudden i had become so relaxed with him the scent of his blood had already become more manageable and i couldn’t figure out why i suddenly laughed out loud i noticed the beginning of the intoxicating smile from before appearing " that’s sweet of you to say so are you from round these parts " he quickly replied " yes i was born in Chelsea" i quickly butted into his next sentence "oh my god i too am living in Chelsea " his eyes lit up but by the look on his face so did mine " no way he said then we are neighbours " " sure are i said im sorry im Kristen and you are ???" "im alexander it’s nice to meet you " " likewise alexander is a beautiful name but it’s not English where do you originate from " i was now completely intrigued " im Italian i was born in Rome and i travelled to London with my parents when i was young to help my father run a small Italian restaurant but ofcourse one small buisness turns into many we now own a total of 12 in and around london ,he took a step back and flushed ,im sorry i was getting way ahead of myself he said quietly but if im sure of one thing .. you must come for dinner one night " " i would love to i said and smiled " i looked at the clock suddenly aware it was time to eat and i looked back at him and stood up and as i went to speak he said " would you like me to walk you home " i smiled graciously and nodded " sure" i said , as we left, the coffee shop was getting busy all the way home we walked silently just the odd glance in each others direction and a smile but it felt almost natural and pleasant per se ,as we got to lots road i heard him gasp i looked at him to see his face enlightened " looks like we are more than neighbours we live down the same street" my feet stopped dead underneath me it was true we lived only 6 doors apart i couldn’t believe it i was gobsmacked he walked me to my door i graciously said thank you and headed for the door as i turned the key in the lock i heard my name being spoken like a beautiful note on a piano it had such a beautiful tone when he said it " Kristen can i see you tomorrow " " i would like that very much i said in reply" and that was a year ago and we have seen each other every day since I’ll never forget the moment i met him and that was the moment when blood became less than important and he became my everything my love for blood became Nothing. i gently pressed my lips to his neck kissing it ever so gently and there it was again the electricity of our mind and body connecting, i felt his grip tighten on me in seconds he had turned me around looking directly in my eyes, his eyes told me he was hungry for me he wanted to feel me pressed against his body, with no hesitation he pressed his lips to mine kissing me deeply within seconds his kiss turned a fevrant hunger easing his tongue gently thru our parting lips searching for my tongue. I felt it touch mine and i jumped around his waist holding on round his neck, we kissed till our heads felt like mush and i knew if we carried on he would probably pass out through lack of oxygen. i pulled away looking into his eyes again his pupils had dilated to the extent that the beautiful green rings looked so emerald, i held his gaze for a long time no words were said no thoughts just the closeness and the contentment of our aching body’s purring for each other. i still couldn’t believe it i was in the arms of a man, i never saw this coming i never believed it would be possible till a year ago, i ached a good feeling in my body it wasn’t hunger it was contentment, pure indulgence of a love so pure i had to pinch myself to make sure it wasn’t a dream he still didn’t understand why i did this maybe one day i would tell him why, i honestly thought i would spend the rest of my cursed years alone. but here he was i turned my head to look at the sky again my eyes lit up because there they were the pies de resistance the stars had finally broke through the skyline and were twinkling right down on us i turned back to see his awe look he too had noticed the stars finally , looking deep into his eyes again i spoke , it was almost a whisper," yor the love of my life, i never once saw this coming" i told him," saw what coming" he asked", well i said from when i was just a little girl i imagined what love might feel like, seeing the glow in my mother’s eyes for my father the admiration in there tone as they spoke of their day for simple little things they did together i never thought i would ever find that but i feel i have found that and sooooo much more" he looked at me and placed his finger against my lips and said" always and forever" !!!!! I turned back round towards the stars reaching my arms around his, leaning my head against his chest looking at the stars smiling inwardly thinking about this moment. His name was alexander . he was the most beautiful thing i had ever seen in my life and in 500 years I’ve seen a whole lot of the male species, he had the most delectable tanned skin every line of his abdomen was defined, every muscle was defined ,every crease looked perfect , his eyes were an emerald green his brows were structured making his eyes stand out more, his jawline and bone structure was so delicate yet so prominent, he had everything a perfect vampire should have, except for pale luminous skin because the fact was my alexander was human, he was more than human he was a god if he stood next to Zeus people would assume he was his brother, he had total sex appeal but saying this he wasn’t just a pretty face he had brains too, and not forgetting the biggest and loudest beating heart id ever heard i loved to lay my head on his chest hearing his heart thrumming me sweet music, music only i could hear, he was perfection with a capital P but every time i looked at him i could see something else i was irresistibly attracted to, what was so surprising about him was he had absolutely no flaws which was surprising for a man anyway but then again i was so in love with him i would be biased, wouldn’t i , and to top it off he was mine how the hell did i manage this i was a monster, a creature of the night, a hunter, a hybrid which made me even more deadly you see im also a very powerful siren. You could say i am like the well-known black widow i entice, excite, allure, my victims to a state of complete vulnerability, then the complete compulsion of wanting me then i strike, i kill them and leave no trace. He never stood a chance but i hope deep down it was me he fell in love with and not my charm.
I searched deep in my mind to see if I could ever remember if there was ever a time i used any type of control, I sieved through every memory of us my brain had become my personal diary accounting the moments we shared together, I then thought back to the time he asked me to dine with him at one of his many resteraunts , everything from the passion behind those eyes, to the way he held my hand flat pressing against his chest asking if I could feel his heart beating and that it only beats my name, was this a moment i controlled , oh my god no it was all him for that split second i realised he was controlling my emotions, for a split second i looked like I was crying how was that even possible vampires don't cry how could he make me so weak and vulnerable it made me start to think what if he aint human after all, like the first day I met him if I wasn't already completely in control of my vampires ways i would never have got passed seeing his beautiful face i would have just devoured his body right there and then leaving not a single drop of blood in his body, because if someone’s blood smells that potent they are just signing a death wish to us vampires and after I would have finished with him i would have to clear out the cafe too it would have been a massacre ......a complete blood bath the vision of the blood made me feel that familiar pang of hunger ahhhhh I seriously need to feed "Snap out of it" a voice in my head said I was glad for the intrusion in my mind there was no way I could ever imagine that because if there was one thing i was certain of this was the man i wanted to spend the rest of my life with.

Chapter Three


"Kristen ....Kristen wake up baby your dreaming , please your scaring me WAKE UP!!!!," as i was awakening from unconscious sleep i could feel arms wrapping tighter round my waist "Kristen I’m right here I’m holding you it’s just a dream again Kristen........ should i phone sheridan" as i was coming to i heard the familiar click of the receiver to the bedroom phone and then the buttons being pressed and a dialling tone, i lifted my hand and touched his face and spoke but nothing came out...... i quickly cleared my throat and as i went to say "no don’t” it was too late i heard the familiar voice ........ "Hello who is calling this time of night”..... "sheridan its alexander , Im worried about Kristen i know it’s late but something’is wrong this is the fourth dream this week and after them she is weak for days. She speaks of her mother singing a certain song and the smell of porridge and the warnings she tells her to use her powers to find out the truth what’s going on".........the phone went silent for a while and then i heard the worry in his voice ......"ok alexander Im on my way make sure she is completely awake when i get there"...... the phone went dead.

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