Our Dream

 

Just look now

The dream is right in front of your eyes

Just look now

Everything we fought for is coming to life

 

We’ve beaten our shadows

We ran against the flow

We did everything we could

No matter the cost

 

There’s no way I’m gonna let you die

No way I’m gonna say goodbye

After all that we tried

I can see new life shining nearby

 

Just look now

The dream is right in front of your eyes

Just look now

Everything we fought for is coming to life

 

Hear our hearts beating

Our victory is breathing

Even though there is blood on our skin

I can feel our world begin again

 

So close your eyes for a second

Imagine the peace we expected

Smell the freedom

And open your eyes and see it

 

Just look now

The dream is right in front of your eyes

Just look now

Everything we fought for is coming to life

 

Just look now

Our torture is going to end

Just look now

We’ll be the greatest of legends

The Fading Of His Light

(About Kyra and Daith from "Shudder" by me)

 

He was there, an icy cold was in his stare

Behind that frost she saw what summers left

A gleam of light that she preserved

 

The silver moon shone bright for her

An eerie glow laid on his raven hair

But still it wasn’t he whom she feared

 

Sometimes that fearsome side would show

And then power laid upon him

Like a thousand secrets she would never know

But that beast was not her fright;

it was the fading of his light

And so she swore to bring his summers back

She would heal his ache

 

So there he stood, as vain as she thought he could

An insulting silence in his tone

And she swore to leave him alone

 

But underneath she saw what he had tucked away

On his shoulders a laden weight

And so she stayed

 

Sometimes that fearsome side would show

And then power laid upon him

Like a thousand secrets she would never know

But that beast was not her fright;

it was the fading of his light

And gladly she stood by his side

She took him in her stride

 

And the gleam of light that she preserved

She watched it raise and spread

As the icy cold left his stare and he was hers

Shatter Me

(Inspired be the Shatter Me - trilogy by Tahereh Mafi)

 

I’ve been waiting for hours and years

A character made of words and of fears

I’ve been folding in on myself

I thought I would never leave this place

 

But he came along

Only he wanted to know

His blue blue eyes saw right in my soul

His touch lit me on fire

He gave me wings to fly higher

 

And every single day

I want to put it in my pocket

Form these words to things

And keep them in a locket

So I can touch and feel this feeling

Over and over again

And I’ll know it was there

 

No face to see, no hand to touch

I’ve been alone and lonely too much

They locked me away, told me I was insane

And I didn’t know better

And I let myself shatter

 

I thought I was vicious, I thought I was mad

I thought I was condemned to loneliness

He helped me pick up my shattered pieces

But it didn’t last long ‘cause the time ticking

 

And every single day

I want to put it in my pocket

Form these words to things

And keep them in a locket

So I can touch and feel this feeling

Over and over again

And I’ll know it was there

 

But the time is ticking, and the clock is tocking

I’m counting the seconds that keep slipping

And his arms will never hold me warm anymore

Because it’s almost time for war

 

And I will feel this feeling

Over and over again

And I’ll know it was there

Destroy Me

(Inspired by "Juliettes Journal" by Tahereh Mafi)

 

Sometimes I close my eyes

And paint these walls a different color

I imagine I’m sitting by a fire

I want to pretend this cell is just a scene

That these hands don’t belong to me

 

I pretend this pillow is clean

I pretend this bed is soft

I pretend, pretend, pretend until it becomes

Real and my eyes fly open

And I’m caught around the throat

 

My thoughts, I think, will soon be sound

My mind, I hope, will soon be found

 

Sometimes I get so tired I forget

I’m not allowed to wish anymore

And I find myself wishing anyhow

For the one thing I’ve always wanted

I wish all the time for a friend

 

Someone who would hear

I’ve been thrown away

Someone to try and find me

Who would never be afraid of me

And I wish, I wish, I wish and dream of impossible things

 

My thoughts, I think, will soon be sound

My mind, I hope, will soon be found

 

We had homes before, all different kinds

We bought ornaments and twinkle lights

We purchased lives confined within

Stories already built

We lived in those stories for a while

 

We ate the things we shouldn’t

Spent money when we couldn’t

Lost sight of the Earth we had to inhabit

And wasted wasted wasted everything

Our empire fell apart

 

Hang tight, hold on, look up, stay strong

Hang on, hold tight, look strong, stay up

 

Pick a dandelion and close your eyes

Make a wish and blow it into the wind

Watch it change the world

Pick a cloud to pin it down and wear it in your hair

Piles of tufted snow sailing through the air

 

On darkest days you search for a spot of brightness

On blackest days you must keep your eyes ahead

But on saddest days leave them open to cry

Give them a chance to wash out the pain

In order to see fresh and clear once again

 

Hang tight, hold on, look up, stay strong

Hang on, hold tight, look strong, stay up

 

Color you personality

Shapes and sizes are variety

Your heart is an anomaly

Your actions are the only traces

You leave behind in your wake

 

Were you happy

Were you sad

Were you scared

Were you mad

When you screamed

 

Hang tight, hold on, look up, stay strong

Hang on, hold tight, look strong, stay up

One day I might break

One day I might

Break

Apart

And free

A Lovesong

(Raiden and Rin from "Freaks & Monsters" by me) 

 

I can’t believe this happened

Of all the things to be

Of all the faces to expect

The walls I put up carefully

Painted over them in gray

“Do not cross these bounds

Or there is hell to pay”

She brought them all down

 

And she fills that hole

Where my heart should be

Yeah, I might seem so strong

But I’ve never been so wrong

She is everything to me

 

I stand aside to watch it burn

Everything leaks out of me

My whole world took a turn

And my heaven lies in ashes here

So I pray for her love

To take me far away

And I pray to those above

Please take away my pain

 

But she fills that hole

Where my heart should be

Yeah, I might seem so strong

But I’ve never been so wrong

She is everything to me

 

And it’s secret, my love

You know, this feeling is tough

I’ve never felt so callow

 

And it’s secret, my love

Only she knows my heart

The only one who got it all right now

 

And she fills that hole

Where my heart should be,

Makes it whole

With broken pieces of her and me

My Execution

I felt it now for weeks and for months

I felt demons shake up my bones

Demons of red and of blood

And I recognized it in your touch

 

What happens when we become aware

Of how much we really care?

How much we know of each other

How much we love undercover

 

You’re my salvation, you‘re my grave

You’re my damnation, you’re my grace

You’re my hell and liberation

And you’re my execution

 

What we do is so much more than we should

What we feel is more than it’s good

I know, it lies all in details

You had me with the way that you smile

 

But how can a bird love a fish?

I mean, where would they live?

You said, you’d give me wings

You said, you’d take me with the winds

 

 

You’re my salvation, you‘re my grave

You’re my damnation, you’re my grace

You’re my hell and liberation

And you’re my execution

 

But this love, it cannot be

It is not meant to be free

We run, run and seek to hide

We must bide, bide our time

 

And all the little details

They can’t but will ever prevail

As a darkest secret they’ll be treasured

And they will hold, hold on until forever

 

You’re my salvation, you’re my grave

You’re my damnation, you’re my grace

But this dream remains an illusion

Or I’d be your execution

Gray

(Saoirse and Gray, characters of mine)

 

Well, me and my so-called independence

It is long gone, you threw off balance

I can’t stop imagine your touch

With hands so big, strong and rough

And I really don’t why

I thought I heard you voice in the middle of the night

 

And I guess you get used to someone

Like to the slow first morning sunray

And I guess I got used to this man

With these cold hard eyes so gray

 

You know the best how to put me on edge

Thousand times you had me standing on the ledge

With mad discussions about nothing

And I would hate you constant mocking

But I would miss it if it were any other way

And I wonder, if you’ll realize someday

 

I guess you get used to someone

Like to the slow first morning sunray

And I guess I got used to this man

With these cold hard eyes so gray

 

I never dreamed of needing you around

Of waking up and needing you like this

I feel like being lost and found

And to be honest, you had me long before that kiss

 

And I got used to this uncaring man

I can’t even say where it all began

And all I know is his despise

But I fell in love with steel gray eyes

 

And I guess you get used to someone

I guess you get used to not being alone

And I guess you get used to someone

I guess you get used to not feeling wrong

I Haven't Said It Yet

This awkward moment when you came by

My friend dragged in this mess

Just because I had no alibi

But now I know I must confess

 

Today was misery

Somehow I got caught up here

I couldn’t look at you

I couldn’t see through you

 

So many things we haven’t said yet

So many unfinished sentences

So many words left unspoken

So many doors left open

 

Today was misery

You wouldn’t even look at me

We haven’t spoken a word

I’m going for my last resort

 

You remember the moment we met

I rubbed you off the wrong way

Because I really didn’t know what to say

And I haven’t said it yet

 

I guess what my frozen heart really likes about you

Is that I feel so warm around you

I guess what my burning mind really likes about you

Is that I feel so shivery around you

And I’m really gonna say it now

Just what you are to me

I know I can do it somehow

I will finally make you see

 

I don’t know how to put it into words

My mind is full of blank space

What began as an innocent encounter

Ended in losing my heart to (him/her)

But I haven’t said it yet

 

So many things we haven’t said yet

We’re gonna say them now

So many unfinished sentences

We’re gonna make them complete

So many words left unspoken

We’re gonna speak them out loud

So many doors left open

We can choose one on our own

My Kind of Perfection

There are miles

There is distance

And there’s a boy

 

Dark blue eyes

The same flaws as mine

His antics are the carefree kind

 

He’s funny, he’s sweet

He’s awkward, he likes to talk

And he doesn’t even know me

 

He’s my kind of perfection

I love his kind disposition

And his wide eyed gaze

 

He laughs at everything

He smiles like a child

And he keeps my head spinning

 

There’s a song

There’s our music

We could dance to all along

 

Every day I feel close enough to touch

There’s an ache in my chest

It’s bittersweet and rough

 

But I know he’s far away

I watch him from day to day

And every minute I find more that we share

 

And in the middle of the night

I think of the never us

And I wish I could rewrite

 

There are miles

There is distance

And there’s a boy

 

Dark blue eyes

The same flaws as mine

He’s my kind of perfection

Tasteless Soul

You saw my passing

Running down the street

Oh, you watched me running

Running like hell from my living

Red blood and cuts on my feet

 

So you try to take me in

‘Cause you’re sorry for my face

And you want to kiss me

Don’t you want to kiss me?

Or the mask that I wear in place

 

And though you might want to

Don’t give me a bite to eat

No, don’t give me a bite to eat

The sweets you want to feed me

Have a stale taste on my tongue

They have no taste on my lips

‘Cause I got a tasteless soul

Got a bitter, bitter soul

 

You saw me running

Running like hell from my home

Oh, you watched me running

From a nightmare burning in

My love, it’s never again unknown

 

Oh, but you want to keep me

Shelter me from my own

You try so hard to keep me

Don’t you want to keep me

Away from being alone?

 

And though you might want to

Don’t give me a bite to eat

No, don’t give me a bite to eat

The sweets you want to feed me

Have a stale taste on my tongue

They have no taste on my lips

‘Cause I got a tasteless soul

Got a bitter, bitter soul

 

I ain’t seen the sunset

Yeah, cold in my childhood’s death

It’s been long since that I went

And since I don’t know when

My sleep’s been without breath

 

Oh, but you want to love me

Fill me and make me whole

You try so hard to love me

Isn’t that your goal?

Because you don’t know

 

That I got a tasteless soul

Yeah, I just taste like nothing

You can spit me back out again

When I got a bitter, bitter soul

Yeah, I just taste like nothing

It’s okay if you spit me back out again

 

And still you seek shelter

You take my hand and you want to pretend

But I’m so close to surrender

I want this dream to end

Yeah, I want this horror to end

Let me swallow and breathe again

Please let me swallow and breathe again

 

Watch the world begin again

Watch it begin once more

And the storm is rolling in

With sweet taste on my tongue

My bitter, bitter soul

This Boy

 

There was once this boy,

He fought a fight and bore the scars,

Let me tell you his story.

 

He had once been this man

That I met a lifetime ago,

He had once been this man

That had been all alone,

He had once been this man

That I really loved.

 

He had really green eyes

But they were bereft of life,

Frozen numb and cold as ice,

For too long he’d been forced to survive,

As if his very spirit had been exorcized.

But I saw the loneliness in his disguise.

 

I found this man was just a boy,

Small and scared in his empty soul,

Afraid of the fear, afraid of the night,

Because it’s so, so dark in the world.

So I lit a match with him

And I set fire to the dam.

 

And then I looked around and saw panic in his bones,

Past monsters wrapping claws around his throat,

Squeezing, strangling, cutting every breath off,

Until he was left trembling and wheezing,

Wondering if no one could hear him drown

But I heard him silently screaming.

 

There was once this boy,

He fought a fight and still bears the scars,

But let me show you the end of the story.

 

There was once this boy,

He had really green eyes,

He had been afraid of life and lies,

And I loved his every bone.

 

There was once this boy,

That I’ve seen a lifetime ago,

He grew up, never again alone.

And now I see the man that I love even more.

Loving Me

I can feel you all around me

My mismatched eyes can see

What you hold deep in yourself

What there’s beating in your veins

 

Your longing screams loud in my heart

It’s tearing it apart

I hear the breathing of your hope

But my lungs know only smoke

 

And I seek the day

When I’ll find you far away

And it will be your rescue

‘Cause you don’t know

What loving me will do to you

 

Silence wraps their arms around us

We dress ourselves in misty dust

And every word is worth a sin

On our burning skin

 

My buried heart was lost long ago

It’s got nothing to belong to anymore

My last tiny light is tied

In this darkest Ever Night

 

And I seek the day

When I’ll find you far away

And it will be your rescue

‘Cause you don’t know

What loving me will do to you

 

Tired, burning eyes, they haunt me

They break in in my dream

So many ghosts I’ve troubled this far

But I will safe your heart

 

‘Cause you don’t know

What loving me will do to you

Looking Good In Love

You walk in the room, bringing a scent with you

Of sunshine and roses and everything good

Your smile could light up the whole world

Your eyes shine in delighted emerald

 

On your cheeks an tinge of red

It’s been there for weeks and hasn’t faded yet

I know there’s one who does it to you

And I can’t stand it but it’s true

 

It looks good on you

When your eyes meet his across the room

Sparks fly and it’s hard to miss

He winks at you a kiss

And the love you wear it so well

Bright and clear on your face

And yeah, it looks good on you

 

It’s been years and you still don’t know

My heart’s been yours to hold

I envy that man that puts a smile on your face

Whenever he puts his arm around your waist

 

But it looks good on you

When your eyes meet his across the room

Sparks fly and it’s hard to miss

He winks at you a kiss

And the love you wear it so well

Bright and clear on your face

And yeah, it looks good on you

 

But how often did I wish for it

How often did I miss it

I lost count of my pleas to the sky

But ask what’s wrong and I lie

 

I pretend to be happy and content

I’ll be for you that one good friend

A good friend and nothing more

But a friend who’s there when he’s gone

 

But it looks good on you

Oh, so heartbreakingly true on you

And it looks right on him, too

The look of love, you wear it so well

So bright and clear on your face

 

You walk in the room, bringing a scent with you

Of sunshine and roses and everything good

On your cheeks an tinge of red

It’s been there for weeks and hasn’t faded yet

I know there’s one who does it to you

And I can’t stand it but it’s true

 

Yeah, it looks good on you

You Deserve Better

When you stand in front of her

Running your fingers through your hair

And she’s not even listening,

Can’t you see she doesn’t care?

So tell my why are you talking to her?

 

Is it because she’s way prettier than me

Or because she knows how to walk flawlessly

Is it because she’s flipping her hair back and forth

Or the way she starts to wrinkle her nose?

 

Anyway, let me say

That you deserve better

Just look around

Maybe you’ll find someone

That likes you the way you like her

 

Why do you carry her books

When she’s freezing you off?

Can’t you see that she doesn’t like you enough?

So tell me why are you following her?

 

Why do you do her homework?

Isn’t she smart enough?

No, she’s just lazy and you like to deal with her stuff – Don’t you?

Please tell me why are you crushing on her?

 

Anyway, let me say

That you deserve better

Just look around

Maybe you’ll find someone

That likes you the way you like her

 

Can’t you see she’s using you?

You act like you’re not able to

But I promise, someday you’ll do

 

Anyway, let me say

That you deserve better

Just look around

Maybe you’ll find someone

That likes you the way you like her

Rest In Pieces

I take a deep breath

And raise my head

Hold the tears in

And leave these ruins

 

It’s four-thirty a.m.

I’m sitting in a foreign car

Trying to remember our last phone call

And I begin to understand

 

My heart is deaf mute

My fingers feel numb

My breathing ceases

And I rest in pieces

 

A song on the radio

Reminds me of what we’ve been through

In the morning as through ice I think

We lost a game of bingo

 

I should’ve known it all along

Infinity isn’t for broken ones

And I’m not okay anymore

It’s the end of our storyboard

 

My heart is deaf mute

My fingers feel numb

My breathing ceases

And I rest in pieces

 

I stand tall

I force myself to go on

Our morning with phone calls

Are long gone

 

In the end our story left

Barely more than dust and ash

I won’t be okay but I breathe

I breathe and wish and try to live

 

My heart is deaf mute

My fingers feel numb

And it feels cheap and shouldn’t be

But I rest broken in pieces

 

I take a deep breath

And raise my head

Hold these tears in

And leave these ruins

War Of Roses

I wanna lay you down on a bed of roses

I wanna hush my heart and all these voices

I’ve lost my mind in too many battles

And I wanna come home to your red chapel

 

As we watch fire climb into the night

I see wonder and much more in your eyes

I feel your breath flee to the sky

And I swear to hold for the last while

 

I remember we met on a road

We were just children and had no way to know

So many wars the future would hold

And now I hold you and feel your blood running cold

 

I wanna lay you down on a bed of roses

I wanna hush my heart and all these voices

I’ve lost my mind in too many battles

And I wanna come home to your red chapel

 

I were the king and your were my queen of choice

We were much more than we were allowed

And love is as soft as rose

So easy to break but sharp as thorn

 

Fire swallows us whole, trying to keep apart

And I forget the beating of our hearts

I’m too consumed with pictures of the past

As our lives break in two broken halves

 

I wanna lay you down on a bed of roses

I wanna hush my heart and all these voices

I’ve lost my mind in too many battles

And I wanna come home to your red chapel

 

I wanna break down these walls of condemning roses

I will crush their hearts and all the voices

I’ve lost my mind and so much more

I will be breaking but I’ll keep what I’ve sworn

 

And no beautiful rose will know war anymore

Under The Moonlight

Silver in the sky

Magical wings fly high

We laugh at the stars

Counting the cars

 

We don’t need fancy things

We’re okay with simple dreams

We live enchanted

We breathe the unexpected

 

Oh, and what should I say, say, say, say?

It takes my breath away – ay - ay

And what should I tell, tell, tell, tell?

I finally fell, fell, fell

What started at day-ay-light

Ended up under the moonlight

What began with the star-ar-light

Ended up under the moonlight

 

Silvered touches

Burning white traces

Make me explode, oh

As we go with the flow-oh

 

When I call your name

Would you end this game?

I try to read the lies, lies

What lies in these eyes

 

Oh, and what should I say, say, say, say?

It takes my breath away – ay - ay

And what should I tell, tell, tell, tell?

I finally fell, fell, fell

What started at day-ay-light

Ended up under the moonlight

What began with the star-ar-light

Ended up under the moonlight

 

Magician of the sky

I finally see your eyes

When you call my name

My kingdom come

My kingdom come

 

Feel me explode

Take me with you

See me break out

Pray tell, what is true?

Watch me explode, oh oh oh

Watch me explode, oh oh oh

Explode oh, oh

 

Oh, and what should I say, say, say, say?

It takes my breath away – ay - ay

And what should I tell, tell, tell, tell?

I finally fell, fell, fell

Oh, and what should I say, say, say, say?

It takes my breath away –ay -ay

And what should I tell?

I finally fell

I finally fell

I finally fell

 

Silver in the sky

Magical wings fly high

We laugh at the stars

Counting the cars

The Hunter's Song

(Inspired by Veronica Rossi's "Under The Never Sky" - trilogy)

 

The wind is quiet in the night of the Hunter

Quietness growling with thunder

Dark secrets lie out of sight

But the Hunter sees it as bright as light

 

Some might hunt for power and pain

Some might hunt to invade and obtain

But the Hunter kills to feed

His people and child in need

 

And in the night of the Hunter

When the wind growls with thunder

He waits for prey and hopes fast

That his family’s life is going to last

 

Fierce eyes glare with awareness

His fingers strain the bow with tenderness

His game doesn’t know it’s at loss

In the wildness of the Hunter’s eyes

 

And in the night of the Hunter

When the wind is as quiet as thunder

He returns well and strong

And everyone will know

When he is welcomed with the Hunter’s song

Home

Once there was a cowboy

Well, he sure was never coy

He was young, sometimes crude

Never wise and often deluded

 

He had a life most would love to have

Nothing to lose, never sad

But I was my own worst enemy

That and the demon I found in me

 

A cowboy hat on his top

His feet hung out a pickup truck

Sitting lazy by the river bank

The young cowboy without a brand

 

‘Til the heart so gold turned to stone

All went dull what once shone

Never content, rarely satisfied

I did so wrong because of pride

 

Sometimes I dream of that boy

A little crazy with the brightest smile

And in some nights I wake up sorry

I guess that’s the cowboy in me

 

And I swear, I still can see it in the mirror

Beneath my stern, bewildered frown

Are blue jeans and a denim shirt

And tough boots and a little dirt

 

Once there was a cowboy

Well, he sure was never coy

He was young but has always known

This was where I called it home

The Oldest Story

(Inspired by Arthur and Merlin's relationship/adventure in BBC's "Merlin" - it is described as a "platonic love story")

 

 

I’ve heard it’s the oldest story in the world

This one or any other

Across time and space

Across dimensions

Two people, always separated

Always haunted, always yearning

But this is not a ghost story

It’s a love story

 

There were sounds in my head

Little voices whispering

That I should go and find my fate

Oh, and I found myself listening

But little did I know what they kept in wait

Now I’ll follow you for any cause

I’ll fight for you in any wars

And all to tell you that I am yours

 

But all the great plans of what our futures hold

Were but foolish lies of growing old

It always seemed we’re so invincible

But the truth is oh so cold

But I don’t care, go on and tear me apart

I’m still going to give you my heart

‘Cause I think I saw you in a sky full of stars

I want to die right with you in my arms

 

I want to know, is it so easy to leave?

Where is the prince, where is the king I believed?

You are not real, you never were

When my hand searches for yours in this dark place

I can’t find its warmth anywhere

‘Cause you slew all my giants, ignoring your own

And now that the haunt you, I am left all alone

I trusted a hero and look what I’ve won (I never heard his goodbye)

 

You thought you could simply change the rules

Oh, you always were such a fool

Time to wake up, put the fairytales away, the darkest hour is near

It’s striking midnight, can’t you hear?

Not every stories has happy endings

We can’t keep on pretending

So much for our ever after

When all I wanted was tomorrow

 

And the ache I feel inside

Is where the light has left your eyes

The time has come for letting go

And the hardest part is where you know

That our chapter is coming to an end

And all the stories that we wrote go down with us

Now the page is full and turned

It’s time to leave and turn to dust

 

I’ve heard it’s the oldest story in the world

This one or any other

Across time and space

Across dimension

Two people, always separated

Always haunted, always yearning

But this is never the end of the story

Because it is a love story

 

And when you’ll call my name, I’ll see your face

Take me somewhere safe and I’m finally yours

And I find everything I thought I lost before

And I find what I was missing for thousand years

So I’ll come to you in shards and pieces

And I know you will make me whole

And the stars will sing of us, we're immortal, you and I

And after all – we’re two sides of the same coin

To Arthur

(Inspired by BBC's "Merlin" - a letter from Merlin to Arthur)

 

They’re all watching you

They’re all waiting for you

Lonely is the road that brought you here

Many treacherous friends let you down

 

But believe me when I say

I’ll always be around

Because I understand

That heavy is the head that wears the crown

 

May my arm always defend thee

May your shield always protect me

I’m by your side in battles that still wait

And someday you’ll see the Five Worlds are in your hand

 

But believe me when I say

I’ll always be around

Because I understand

That heavy is the head that wears the crown

 

So keep your head held high, my friend

I’ll see you through the end

My sword and heart is by your side

Until the very day I die

 

Because I understand

That heavy is the head that wears the crown

 

May you sing the deeds of glory

May they see your glowing pride

You’re the true and destined prince

You’re the fated Once and Future King

 

They’re all watching you

They’re all waiting for you

Lonely is the road that brought you here

Many treacherous friends let you down

 

But believe me when I say

I’ll always be around

 

And I’ll see you rise again

In new ages somewhen

And you won’t be lonely anymore

When I join you for righteousness once more

A Story Of Starlight And Bones

(Inspired by Laini Taylor's "Daughter of Smoke and Bone" - trilogy)

 

We were flying so high

Between two moons and the sky

You eyes were burning so bright

Your wings were fire in the night

 

We rose ashes and dust

We dreamed of starlight and trust

We betrayed everyone but us

And it was paid in bones and blood

 

And this is not our world

This is not our fight

Where, you might ask, is our paradise?

And our dream and our love

Nothing was ever enough

Our wish split the world in two

 

It was doomed from the start

I had set free the enemy

It was wrong to trust our hearts

And war did us apart

 

Now I pray and you slay

I miss you more than I will say

And our souls and every ghost

Is nothing more than only smoke

 

And this is not our world

This is not our fight

Where, you will ask, is our paradise?

Once upon a time was our foolish love

Now it is no more

Our wish split us both in two

 

And after all we meet again

After all there’s still the pain

You’re still fire in the night, my dear enemy

But your deathcount I won’t forgive

Paralysis

(Inspired by Michelle Hodkins Mara Dyer- trilogy) 

 

Cover your ears, you live in danger

I’m telling secrets to a stranger

It’s like I’m sleepwalking

Stuck in paralysis

 

I’ll walk forever with stories inside

Trapped in my own mind

Can’t be fixed

Can’t be saved

Not broken but not okay

I’m burning everyday

 

Look into my eyes

It’s where my demons hide

It’s like I’m sleepwalking

Stuck in paralysis

 

I’m reaching but I fall

And the stars are black and cold

As I stare into the void

Of a world that cannot hold

There is nowhere I can turn

Nowhere to go on

 

Rattle my cage, see if I bite

Release me and I’d so all right

It’s like I’m sleepwalking

Stuck in paralysis

 

A little bit muddled

A little bit ruined

A beautiful disaster

The stars are falling faster

Hitting the ground, extinguish

Make a wish

 

Don’t blink, it will be quick

For an instant so beautifully lethal

It’s like I’m sleepwalking

Stuck in paralysis

 

Should I sink or swim?

Shadows start to sing

Mirrors start to whisper

Should I simply disappear?

My skin is smothering me

Help me find a way to breathe

 

It’s like I’m sleepwalking

Stuck in paralysis

It’s like I’m sleepwalking

Stuck in paralysis

It’s like I’m sleepwalking

Stuck in paralysis

It’s like I’m sleepwalking

Stuck in paralysis

 

Cover your ears, you live in danger

I’m telling secrets to a stranger

Almost Time To Say Farewell

(Inspired by / based on L's death in Death Note)

 

I hear the bells ringing

Deep and dark and blaming

They sound to my march

Up to nothing’s verge

And I feel on the stairwell

It’s almost time to say farewell

 

I can’t remember much

It’s all too dim and obscure

In the past a distant touch

But that’s forgotten and not here

 

Some sweet days it’s been

Thank you for being a friend

For long I’ve been unseen

Now all’s about to end

 

I hear the bells ringing

Deep and dark and blaming

They sound to my march

Up to nothing’s verge

And I feel on the stairwell

It’s almost time to say farewell

 

It’s going fast, it’s going slow

Can’t get a hold on things anymore

A burn in my chest, strange pulse in my veins

A glare to haunt me insane, I suffocate

 

I see the sky cloud over

I feel a pull on my heart

The rain cries in roars

And I see you there – in the dark

 

I hear the bells ringing

Deep and dark and blaming

They sound to my march

Up to nothing’s verge

 

There’re flashes of pictures

Vivid color spectrums

That my wide eyed gaze sees

And I’m sad to leave

 

But can you hear the bells ringing?

They shout to end the beginning

They sound to my last march

Up to nothingness’s verge

And I know very well

That it’s time to say farewell

Red

 

When we reach the end of time,

And everything is going down,

Our hands so firmly intertwined,

When we hit the ground, it’s gone.

 

Reason escapes me like a firefly;

Stained with red and forever beautiful,

I can tell, it’s all a lie.

Lead me home with your fire eyes

And wash me up with the river in you,

Bring me back to a safer shore,

Take me to all but the world.

And everything is red, so red.

 

The waves have claimed my heart,

You’ve become the current in me,

My wings lie erased in the past,

You’ve taken all of me.

 

And I protect your soul,

And I watch your feet,

For the moon sees sins at whole,

But he dare not touch the King I meet.

(Or so I thought …)

 

Reason escapes me like a firefly;

Stained with red and forever beautiful,

I can tell, it’s all a lie.

Lead me home with your fire eyes

And wash me up with the river in you,

Bring me back to a safer shore,

Take me to all but the world.

And everything is red, so red.

 

My fingers dimple the mask on your face,

I look into white blinding rays,

You force and carry me home,

Into a soft welcome of devotion.

 

The sky is one with the sea,

You’re the eye of the storm,

I can’t wait for the King to see,

The mist devoured me whole.

 

Reason escapes me like a firefly;

Stained with red and forever beautiful,

I wish I could tell, it’s all a lie.

 

When I reach the end of time,

And I feel you going down,

My hand grasps yours to hold on tight,

I can see your ghost, then it’s gone.

You Lied

(Inspired by the Avatar's death in Fire Emblem: Awakening)

 

I do remember, even after these years,

You’ve looked me in the eyes,

You’ve promised so sincerely,

That you would defy the evil in the sky

You lied

 

I do remember, I’ll never forget,

Your smile, unbeknownst to some,

The very first time we met

You promised to never leave me alone

Well, you lied

 

Nobody can save me now,

Now that nobody can save you now

All this time I’ve been afraid but wouldn’t let it show

My fault, is it my fault?

I let you fall off the edge, let your light turn cold,

Now I stand in the darkness and think about,

Of how I let you lie

 

You were the wind in my back,

You were the sword at my side,

A constant presence,

The world against you and I

Oh, you lied

 

The king was down, the prince was lost,

The sins of the world on yourself,

The silence screamed but I still believed,

In the dream that we had dreamed

But you lied

 

Nobody can save me now,

Now that nobody can save you now

 

You lied with a smile on your face

But I should have seen it in your tears

And in that moment I take off my eyes,

You make my heart cease

 

But this is not the end of you

Give me the promise, you’ll return

And this time vow to keep it

 

All this time I’ve been afraid but wouldn’t let it show

My fault, is it my fault?

I let you fall off the edge, let your light turn cold,

Now I stand in the darkness and think about,

Of how I let you lie

I let you lie

I let you lie

My love, I let you die

Nevermore

A poem inspired by the manga/anime "Black Butler" / "Kuroshitsuji"

 

"What once is lost is nevermore,"

I was told by a raven in the darkest hour.

My dreams and hopes got lost astray

As the raven spoke with dreamful eyes,

And I was wide awake

As I stared up to ghost-misted skies.

 

"I've loved you long, I've loved you ago,

I love your pure, revengeful  soul,"

He said to me in sinful whispers.

"A god's soul knows no rest,"

He wrote with greedy fingers,

"So let it sleep at last."

 

So I stood there void and empty,

Listening to sounds of eternity,

Poised at the edge of hellish despair

I saw a spider-thread of salvation,

It was as thin as a hair

And I grasped for it with determination.

 

"What once is lost is nevermore,"

I was warned by a raven in the darkest hour.

But my dreams and hopes were all but fakes.

As the raven spoke with dreamful eyes,

I was wide awake

And I gave my soul for revenge and demise.

She walks in Starlight

(Inspired by Kili and Tauriel's relationship in Smaug's Desolation and The Battle of the Five Armies) 

 

My way was long and hard,

I hadn’t known we were apart,

Didn’t know until she saved my life;

With her I feel alive.

 

In silent screams,

In wildest dreams

I had never thought of this.

But we both gave a promise.

 

But I know this cannot be,

She is far, far away from me.

And she walks in starlight

In another world.

This was just a dream.

 

It’s against reason, against peace,

Against anything could be.

Still I love her and maybe we will fade

But I am not afraid.

 

And we dance through constellations,

Conquering all desolations.

We lie beneath a fire-moon,

Wrapped in spider-web cocoons.

 

But I know this cannot be,

She is far, far away from me.

And she walks in starlight

In another world.

This was just a dream.

 

Mine is a world a shadows,

And I dreamt of one wherever

She would never leave my side

To guide me through the night.

 

Her days will go on forever

But I will never lose her sight.

We can change the world together

And if she leaves then so will I.

 

She walks in starlight

In another world

So far, far away

 

But it is memory,

A starlit reverie;

Precious and pure

And while nothing is ever sure

 

This was real,

(Amrâlimê)

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Texte: Victoria Marck
Tag der Veröffentlichung: 22.02.2014

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