I was wondering how much I need to be in the same situation..A day of my life?All day long?
Or maybe a week ,an year...I do not know .Something it seems to be unchangeable..
My psychic doesn't works..I feel the blockage..I understand why ...But I will never understand
the reason for which I was hurted so badly...Maybe he couldn't accept me exactly how I am...or maybe he needed to change me and he realized that this change is impossible and it would destroy me forever...Maybe I wasn't in love with him ,but I trusted him..
Moreover ,I trusted the relationship between us.I thought that we can be two good friends who can share
feelings each other,but no,it wasn't truth..I felt the dissapointement and I embarassed the sadness when I understood that everything was only a stupid game,his stupid game and I was only a pawn for
his malephic movements...I do not know if I ever needed him,I do not know even I need someone now
just imagine that I do not know if I have any quintessentially need.I am very calm now .It is the calm of realness.Because our relationship is a real fiasco.Because I understand the facts ,and moreover,because I am capable to accept the facts.
Do you think that it is easy?No,not at all..Au contraire ,it is very hard.But we need to learn and we learn to be so... for our existence..
We need sometimes to have neither feeling nor hope..Netherless,I will stay and I will let him to leave me...

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Tag der Veröffentlichung: 15.02.2010

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