Chapter 1

The day I died, I was really late for school.
My eyes tinkled open with the sun shining gently in my eyes. The curtains in my room smoothly tapping the window; that’s slightly open letting the warm braze in. I looked to my side table to check what time it is. My hand reached for the clock and felt the humidness of my room.
When I looked at the clock my eyes nearly jumped out of my head. Its nine o’clock! The sleep in my eyes banished as I raced with myself to the bathroom. I had a shower that just touched my skin and I was out. I got my clothes on, picking any top and a skirt; that seemed easy to slip on.
I knew that this is goanna happen someday; my seven year old brother always argues with me, so if I forget to put my alarm on he will be the last person to see that I’m up. School starts at nine-fifteen so I won’t make it but I could try. Connor didn’t even wake me up! He’s really a stupid creature; also he’s despaired, again, I don't see the use of him!
Running down the stairs I forgot my jumper so I ran back to my room to pick it up; I picked my school bag while I was at it. I didn’t bother with breakfast, because I never have it anyway so I won’t miss out. I jogged down the outside steps and broke into a run. I got to the main road and waited for the green light for walkers. I could feel the sweat running down my face, the blood pumping in me reached my ears and was really loud. I needed to take my jumper off. No cars were coming so I started walking, even though it was red. In this town not a lot of cars pass so no one really bother's with the lights. I started to pull my jumper over my head, so that when I cross the road I can run again.
As soon as the jumper reached my eyes, total blackness stroke me. My right side was in pain. If i knew that that was the last breath I was going to take I would’ve made it longer. I could feel my body giving in to gravity and my head started to feel cold suddenly.
I vanished into nothing.

Chapter 2

I can’t call it opening my eyes. It’s more opening my mind, because my eyes were already open. I saw, heard, felt the emptiness of the pitch. It was nothing, just plain white deepness. Then I saw a girl, standing there looking at me. She had a light pink dress on, pink shoes, and a pink head band that accented her dark black hair. Her blue eyes searched through me, and then she gave a me a sweet, shivering smile.
‘You look exactly the same when you’re dead.’ Her voice didn’t match the age she looked; her voice sounder at least twenty, but she looked ten. I wanted to see if I sounded like a sixteen year old but I couldn’t make myself to say anything. It’s not that I didn’t want to, it’s that I couldn’t.
‘The person you’re going to take care of will be lucky. You seem like you could care for a person.’ She came closer to me, I was still lying down, she sat down and crossed her legs making her face seem older when she’s next to me.
‘Ok let’s get this over with.’ She took a long breath and looked me deep in the eyes. ‘You died by a car hitting you in high speed. It took a few seconds and you died. People die vary easily but we, angels, need to know how and why people die. Most people don’t have angels, so that’s why we only stay with different people for there last week, after the person dies and we have made them happy we move on. Is may sound confusing now but you’ll get it.’
Her eyes spoke to me silently telling me all that again so I would understand. But I don’t. ‘Your angel tried saving you, that why you died early by a hole week. He is very ignorant isn’t he?’ She didn’t wait for a response. ‘We must never interfere with their death; we can only stay with them. If you want, you can show yourself, but make shore the person doesn’t blab anything out or you will have to call one of the killer angels.’ She smiled at me and that killer smile shut my mind.

Chapter 3

This time I could feel my body again, and I opened my eyes. I don’t know where I am, all I can see is clothes piled in the floor. I sat up looking around. The walls are blue with pictures of football players on them; I know some of them from my stepdad screaming their names out while watching the game, and my mum telling him off for swearing in front of us.
The bed was messed up and the window was closed keeping the smell of aftershave compact in the room. Then the bed sheets moved. I couldn’t feel my heart but I knew if I felt it, I’m shore it would be jumping out of my socks ; even though I wasn’t wearing any. The boy sat up and yawned. He rubbed his eyes and slid of the bed. When he opened his eyes and saw me he didn’t react he just stared. I stood up and didn’t know what to say. He was wearing his boxers so it made things even more awkward.
‘Hi I’m Willow.’ I didn’t know why I said anything,but I had to see If I could, but I did and stretched my hand out to shake his, but he just stared at my hand and then; to my surprise, pinched himself and then me. I couldn’t help but jump back, because he was strong, and my skin got guess bumps everywhere. ‘Hey what’s that for?’ I asked rubbing my hand.
‘Why are you in my room?’ He managed to say after he swallowed really hard.
‘Because I’m going to be with you for a whole week’ I didn’t understand why I was here ether, but I explained to him everything the girl had said to me. The news took him really hard, because he sat on his bed and put his head in his hands. My mind gazed back to how I would react if this happened to me, but I didn't remember anything.
‘So I’m going to die? And you’re here to keep me company?’ He asked not looking up.
‘Yeah, and if it helps, if you get hit by a car. It only hurts a little bit.’ I didn’t exactly remember if it hurt but since I have to be with him for a week I’ll try to be nice and not freak him out too much.
He looked at me; now I noticed his blue eyes and black hair, the way his face was shaped, but when I saw the sadness it made me sad too.
‘Do you have to stay with me?’ He asked with no expression at all, leaving me to a question I didn’t know the answer to.
‘Well I think so; this is my first time so I’m not goanna try leaving you, in case something bad happens.’ I smiled at him, which got me a smile back; not for long because then he stood up and looked at himself.
‘But can you leave me to get changed?’ He looked at me amused, because I blushed realising he didn’t have much clothes on.
‘Yeah, where should I go?’ He pointed at the door next to me. I went in, and sat on the shut toilet. When I looked in the mirror I realised that the girl was the old me. My blond hair, blue eyes and the rest of my body was still the same; including my freckles that if I could I would so get rid of, after all I'm dead shouldn't I be able to do that?
I don’t understand what I’m doing, but I know I’m dead. So as long as I can breathe air and feel my heart, then I’m ready to stay with whatever person I have to.
He didn’t take long to get dressed, in only a few minutes he opened the door; dressed with jeans and a t-shirt that said I’m an undiscovered genius at heart . I looked at his face and he was smiling.
‘What?’ I needed to ask, because now he had a smirk on his face.
‘You have to go to school with me.’
‘So?’
‘As my girlfriend’
‘Oh.’ I didn’t know what else to say.

Chapter 4

I didn’t end up going to his school, because I haven’t signed up. Its better this way because I feel really sleepy when hes not close to me. It turns out the guys name is Phoenix and he is seventeen years old ; he has one little sister and he’s parents are separated so he’s mum takes care of them.
Phoenix gave me a t-shirt, so I would go to sleep, because I look really tired; which is what every girl want to hear from a guy she just met. He’s sister goes to a private school because she has a disability, so there mum has to work days and some nights. Thinking about the fact that he’s going to die, that brings tears to my eyes. He’s family will be crushed.
Every second that passed I forget more and more about my family. The things that I don’t think I will ever forget though; are they’re smiles. Now I can feel my tears running down on to the pillow. My emotions are gone, but there dying of sadness.
When I heard a loud noise I opened my eyes alarmed, but then I saw Phoenix jumping on one leg and silently groaning.
‘What are you doing?’ My voice came in almost a whisper. Phoenix turned to me and gave a goofy smile.
‘Sorry for waking you, I tried to be silent but I hit my leg on the door.’ It was clear that he wasn’t lying, because you can tell by his flushed face. It brought a smile on my face. I wonder if he could hang around with me after he's death...
‘So did you sleep well?’ Phoenix sat down on the bed next to where I was laying. It made be blush again realising I was in his t-shirt and in his bed.
‘Amm.. Yeah thanks’ I didn’t dare to meet his eyes, but if herd the giggle come from him.
‘Well its five in the afternoon, are you hungry?’ Phoenix met my eyes this time and smiled.
‘Wait. It’s five?’ Phoenix nodded. ‘Then how slow do you walk from school?’ Normal schools end at three, Phoenix didn’t tell me he went to a special school; I was trying to avoid the fact that I slept through most of the day.
‘I have a job in the cafe.’ Phoenix stood up and took a pair of jeans out of his bag, and put them next to me. ‘These are for you, since I think you might get cold in that jean skirt.’
‘Oh, ok thank you.’ I smiled in gratitude because I didn’t know what to say or do, since I haven’t been the best host so far. First I tell him he’s going to die, then I invade his bed and now I made him buy me jeans; well he chose to buy them but I could have put smarter clothes on before I was going to die.
Phoenix smiled and nodded at the door; I nodded back and slid out the bed. I took my new jeans and slipped them on. Phoenix turned around, but still waited for me. I walked right behind him and waited to leave. Instead he looked at me with an eyebrow razed.
‘You’re still wearing my top.’ I didn’t look up at him.
‘Shut up .Its comfy.’ I slightly pushed him and he started laughing. I don't know why but I could feel myself around him, without him around me I felt very lifeless.

Chapter 5

We ate lasagne that his mum made; leaving a note for instructions for how to put it in the oven. You can imagine why I teased him for that. After we went to his bedroom to watch TV, but I fell asleep , well zoomed out.
The alarm woke me and by reflex I jumped out to stop the alarm, but instead I slapped Phoenix in the face. He was so shocked that he fell out of bed. I set up and looked at him.He was glaring at me from the floor.
‘What was that for?’ Phoenix asked still laying on the floor, looking defeated.
‘Sorry, my reflex is to turn the alarm of my bedside table and this time instead of the table there was you.’ I smiled but he continued glaring at me.
‘Tomorrow were swapping sides.’ He got up and slid back to bed next to me. I didn’t remember agreeing to sleep in the same bed, but I can’t complain; I’m lucky he let me stay.
‘You’re forgetting one thing.’ Phoenix looked at me with a surprised look and then looked at the bad sitting on the chair. He groaned, got out of bed and went to the bathroom. It’s Tuesday, Thinking about it now, I died yesterday. It doesn’t feel like I’m dead ; apart from the fact I can’t hear my heart or my blood pumping around my body. My life doesn’t seem real now; I don’t think I can call it a life at this point.
My thoughts were interrupted with Phoenix clicking his finger in front of my eyes.
‘How much can you sleep?’ He almost sounded agitated.
‘Well I’m dead, who knows how much I can sleep.’ That offended him.
‘How can you know you’re dead for shore? Maybe you hit your head and your just lost! Every time I look at you you’re not some. Ghost. At night I can hear you breathing!’ I knew that one time he’s bound to break out, I mean I wouldn’t be so calm If someone told me I had one week to live ; hell I don’t even know why he bothers going to school! But this isn’t about him he thinks something is wrong with me.
‘No Phoenix your wrong! I am dead, because otherwise I would hear my heart beating!’ I didn’t mean to shout, and then once again I could feel tears running down my face, I didn’t know why. Right now I feel anger but instead ,this happens. Phoenix opened the door and went out. I stayed upstairs, because first I’m not hungry and second, I think he’s just goanna leave for school anyway.
When I died I don’t remember anyone telling me when I’m going to die, maybe it’s for the best. It was always me, martin and my parents, no one else, we didn't even have a pet. Phoenix has a very un-happy family, just the opposite of mine. I think. The image of a woman, a man , and a little boy that I know is my brother laughing, is stuck in my head. I don’t know why I only remember my brother, but its better this way.
The door opened, Phoenix came in with toast, jam and milk on a tray.
‘You hungry?’ He didn’t look me in the eye.
‘Not really.’ He looked up and I smiled at him, teasingly took the toast anyway and made room for him to sit down.
‘Can we just forget the conversation we had before?’ He sat down next to me and took the other toast on the tray. I don’t know what to say to that. When I finished my toast he’s eyes begged for an answer.
‘Yeah, shore.’ We finished our breakfast. He went to school and I went back to sleeping. Thinking of what the conversation would've been like.

Chapter 6

Days passed with the same routine every time, but it made it harder for me to look in to his eyes and smile knowing that he’s going to die soon. He didn't believe it, I wasn't shore If I did too.
On Saturday we woke up at one pm. He’s mum was home so he went downstairs on his own. I was stuck in his room for hours. The perfect time not to be tired. I was soo bored.He finally came back at six with me sitting cross legged and cross armed glaring at him.
‘I’m soo sorry! Mum made me go to the shop with her.’ Phoenix sat next to me , and I felt a breeze coming of him.
‘Oh, you are so unforgiven! First you leave me here for hours and then you come back cold!’ I put on a angry face to hide my laughter inside.
‘What am I making you cold?’ He hugged me, giving me goose bumps. I screeched a little because I haven’t been outside for a few days, but it shore seems cold.
For the rest of the evening we stayed together watching TV and once gain I fell asleep, but this time in his arms. So I wasn't that tired.
The next morning was on my count the seventh day. I didn’t want to let go of him but he slid out the bed to the bath room. I can feel it. He’s going to die today and I can do anything about it. I couldn’t cry because it was too hurtful to even consider the thought. Phoenix came back and hugged me. The touch made me shiver. I wanted to be with him. We collided together touching our souls. He kissed me passionately; yet so softly. When he ended the kiss, I felt like I was paying for all my sins. I have kissed boys before, but this was my first kiss in my after life. It made it special. It felt better then in my real life, I could feel his energy going into me. I couldn't explain it if I wanted to.
‘Mum told me that today I have to go t work with her. I’m going to leave now.’ I was about to protest but he put his finger on my lips. ‘I hate goodbyes.’ He kissed me and left. This time the tears came and didn’t stop I wanted to die with him again, I can’t. There’s nothing I can do. I curled up in a ball and just waited to see what happens. It came to nine o’clock in the evening when I fell asleep.I never stopped crying. The light came and got me. Again.

When I woke up I was laying on the floor in a room with toys, I sat up and saw a little boy sitting and playing with cars, making sound effect that gave of the happiness he felt. Guess some thing don't change. I saw his smile. The smile made me smile too. I could feel his touch from far away.

I know the little boy. He’s my brother.

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