ALWAYS BE YOURSELF EVEN IF IT DAMNS YOU.

i really didn't beleive in the word love. everyone says it exsists, but i don't think it does. i have been alive for 15 years and i have never seen a good relastionship. they all fall apart. my mom and dad where together for three years. they always fought so they got divorced. he moved to ohio and she moved to california. my little sister, joey adn i lived with my mom. every weekend we went to see him. i love living with my mom. she's the best. okay, i'm lying. she's horible. she never lets me go to high school parties. she thinks i'm going to get raped or something. she never let's me have any friends over, except dani, who i've known scince the 7th grade. she thinks that they would steal. dani says what's on her mind, and i'm more of the quite type. we're the perfect pair. she always tells me that i don't stick up for myself, so she has to be out spoken. i just laugh and say whatever. she's the wild party type. she always sneeks out of her house to go to parties her mom told her not to go to.once in a while i go to her house to spend the nightand really just go there to sneak out. i almost got caught once. but anyways dani, is very tall. she's thin with semi thick legs. her hair is blonde and every long. her eyes arelight blue with green and gray woven into them.she's very pretty acourding to the guys in our school.she can pretty much get any guy she wants.i have a fewadmirers, but im not interested. they are all just affter one thing.and i'm not going to fuck some guy, and then have him totaly ignor me the next day.or have aids or something. puls what if the condom breaks. i am way to young to have a baby. i don't want to go through the kind of stress that dani went through when she got pregnant.she had to get an aborsin though, cause of her dad. if her mom found out she would kill dani. our mom's don't know about our secret lifes. they know the fake us. the us that always gets good grades,always makes good choices and never gets into trouble.basicly they know us as goody goodies, but the real us is on the wild side. we sneak out to parties. sleep with guys... well she does i dont. we drink all the time, and get drunk off of our asses. like last week dani got a tatto from this seventeen year old, at this party, then fucked him after to repay him for it. the tatto said, live it up drink it down and party till you hit the ground. that was at this guys party out in beaumont. we live in hollywood(la). my mom is a famous photographer. she has a lot of money. she always makes sure, me and my little sister joey, have money on us. my little sister is 2 grades lower than me. she's in the 8th grade, which means i'm in the tenth grade. she's got long bleach blonde hair like mine. her eyes are green like my mothers. my eyes are navy bule, with a tint of gray. she's thin and comes up to my chin. i like to hang out with her sometimes with dani. but when i go to parties i leave her out. i just pay her my money to tell mom i'm at dani's house spending the night even though i'm at a party. she does a good job, of backing my ass up. if she has something to hide, i would back her up too. it's the sister's code. i feel kinda bad for leaving her alone all the time. but knowing joey she can have lots of fun by herself. she's crazy and funny like dani. she doesn't fuck do drugs of drink like dani does. joey tells everyone that she's dani's sister instead of mine. she's embarssed of me, because, i'm normal and she's not. but any ways, this weekend i have to go to my dads, which i don't mind. i can actuly go to parties and drink when i'm with him. he knows about all the things i do with dani. he doesn't care as long as we use pertection. he's in a band and leaves all the time, but tells my mom we're at home all together. it's a long drive to ohio. i usually sleep and eat, th whole ride there. joey listens to her music on her lap top and eats. usually when we get there my mom gives my dad a rude look and starts to cry when we say goodbye. then she leaves, and we eat and talk. "so rylie hows school?" my dad asked. "it's okay. still getting thoughs good grades." i said, with a smile. "that's good. and joey, i heard you never pay attention, in class, and still never fail. that is amazing." he said, grinning. "yes. yes it is." joey said, taking a mouth full of mash potatos. "i'm proud of you honey, for not failing." he said, grabbing his coat. "well, i'm off to my gig. i would offer you guy to come but i know you aren't really into it. love you girls." he said, walking out the door. we said love you too. i cleaned up the dishes, and went to the bathroom. joey followed me and sat on the toilet, watching me put on makeup. "where you going?" she asked. "i'm going to our cousins party." i told her, as i put on eyeliner. "wchich cousin?" she asked. "bailey. she's going to be here in an hour, to pick me up." i said. "your going by yourself?" joey scoffed. "no, i'm going with bailey and dani." i said, putting on lip gloss. "wait how's dani here in ohio?" she asked, perking up. "bailey picked her up, and brought
her here." i said. "okay, and rylie?" joey said. "no more question's joey, untill i get back please." i said, looking at her. there was a honk outside. "oh i have to go love you joey." i said, as i patted her head, and ran out the door. i ran out to meet dani at the edge of the lawn. we ran to the big gray truck.
as we jumped in i noticed that my cousin bailey wasn't there. instead it was a guy. he had black hair, and his eyes where a light blue. he had angel bites and gadges. he was some what cute... he kept glancing at me. when we got there dani thanked him for the lift and grabed my hand and led me to the house. ther was flashing colorful lights everywhere. the place was crowded. dani went to some room with some guy. my cousin was in the room with two guys doing god knows what. i felt sick all of the sudden. i walked out to the back yard and put my feet in the pool. i closed my eyes, and heard a voice. "hey!" the voice said. i turned around to see the guy who drove us to the party. "hi." i said. "i'm sorry i didn't get to intorduce myself erlier. i'm tyler." he said. "you are?" he asked with
his hand out. i stood up and took his hand. "i'm rylie." i said, with a smile. "nice to meet you rylie." he said, still holding my hand. "nice to meet you too." i said, wondering when he would let my hand go. "do you want a drink?" tyler asked, with a smile. "yes, i would like that."i said, as he let my hand go, and went to go get some drinks. i was sitting on a chair outside when he walked up, with the drinks. he gave me one, and we did cheers. we sat there telling eachother about our selfs. "rylie, your a pretty cool, person, you know that." tyler said, looking at me. "i'm not really that cool." i said. "i have never met anyone that made me have fun, except for my best friend dani." i said, looking at the ground. "well i think that's about to change. how would you like, to go for a ride?" he said, stroking my cheek. i texted dani, and asked her if it was cool, if i left with tyler. she said, to have fun and to be careful. i looked at him, and said, "lets go."
he grabbed my hand and we ran to his car. he parked the car at a park. "rylie do you have a boyfriend?" he asked. "as suprising as this sounds, i don't." i said. "oh well, have you had, one before?" he asked. "well not exactly... it was more of a makeout buddy." i said, as i giggled. "oh so i take it, your a good kisser?" he said. "well i don't know." i said, my cheeks feeling hot. "well i can find out, if oyu let me." he said, looking at my lips. i sat still as he put his hand on my cheek, and kissed me. i kissed him back with my eyes closed. "wow." he said. "what?" i asked. "you are a pretty good kisser." he said. "thanks you are too." i said, smiling. "do you want to go some where for the night?" he asked. "we can go to my dad's house." i said. "isn't that kinda wiered?" he asked, with a wiered look on his face. "no, my dad is not going to be back untill tomorrow, and my little sister told me she's going to my other cousins house." i said. "okay lets go." he said,l turning the car on. soon enough we where at my dads house. we went up to my bedroom. we sat on my bed and talked. "rylie i like you." he said, slightly blushing. "well, i like you too tyler." i said, as i ran my fingers through his hair. "no i mean, i really like you." he said. before i could say something else, he kissed me. this time he shoced his tongue into my mouth. as we kissed he layed me down on the bed. i kinda wanted him in that way, but just couldn't right now. i wasn't prepared. he got on top of me and gabed my hips still kissing me. as he kissed my neck i pushed him off. "i'm sorry... did i come on to strong?" he asked. "no i just don't want to do this..."i said. "oh is this your first time?" he asked. "no. i have done this before." i said. "then what is it rylie?" he asked, in a sweet voice. "i have two reasons. one beacuse i don't want you too break my heart. two, i don't have pertection." i said. "ok it's fine. i wont rush you, or break your heart, i'm not like that." he said, as he kissed my shoulder. "let's go watch a movie." i said, as we walked to my door. i stoped and locked my door. "rylie what are you..." tyler was saying. i kissed him. as i looked at him, he asked. "are you sure?" i nodded. even though i had sex before this time it was perfect.

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THIS BOOK WAS WRITTEN BY LITTLE SISTER AMY D.