They are there & then there gone…
By: Brianna Williams
Have you ever had someone there for you and you thought that person was real until they turn into a destructive monster and destroyed your family, fairy tails, and dreams? Well I have.
I was just a speck that did not even exist until my mom met my father and a dream came true for her. She had her first child, a girl, and she decided to name her Brianna. That child was me. When I was two; my father began doing some unhealthy things. He started to do drugs and drink heavily; he started to become abusive and was a danger to my mother and me. My mom thought about taking me and leaving because of his choices but she decided not to, and like a moth later she did not leave he took off. I was still a child and did not understand what was going on, and had no fear of him. Then came the day he left. He took off without a trace, a phone call or even a letter. He was gone; he just vanished into air as if he was a fragment of my imagination.
Then at the age of seven, after five years of not knowing my father, or where he was, or that he even existed. He came to my house and picked me up, acting like nothing happened. My grandpa said, “You’re going to stay with your dad for a while.” I had been terrified and confused, I got to the house to see two girls and a women standing there. They were my step sisters, Rebecca age 8 at that time and age 15 now and Pendora age 12 now 19 and my step mother was Trish. He treated me like he knew me. I was a very quiet girl, and I mostly just kept to myself. It took about three years before I even had the thought that he was really my dad, and not just some stranger.
After my 11th birthday my step mom and my father got married. I was going insane inside as my anger grew, I did not now what to do, what to say, or what to think. My 3rd and 4th grade years of school were when I started to screw up and not care about my work. This man came into my life claiming to be my father and had the nerve to marry some devil that was placed in this world for no good reason. How dare he have secrets that I knew and I kept from my mother because I feared she would make me stay away from him. I feared I would lose another person in my life and thought of some one leaving me is too hard to even explain. He told my mother he was clean, he told her that he was not drinking anymore, he told her these lies and I went along with them and kept them from my own mother.
At the age 13, I was still having issues with these things. As if it was not hard enough, then my sisters moved out of the state. More people gone and I couldn’t stop them from leaving. I needed someone to talk to other then my parents, so I went to my grandmother; let’s just say she had left to. Then my best friend and uncle did too. I felt as if I was alone with no one there for me.
Long term effects are the pain I am suffering. I like to be kind to people. So I think this could also be a good thing kind of because, I like to talk to people and show them there are other things that you can do if you are suffering as I did besides stupid things. I want to help people if they are suffering they should not have to suffer as I did for those four years, you should get help right away. If I am not able to be an art teacher I want to be a counselor for a middle and high school to help them and show them there are ways to deal with pain. Maybe the ones that suffer won’t turn out to be the monster and destroy there family or children’s dreams like how it happened to them. Well maybe the world could change if all people were like that they take the things that you suffer from and bring you down, and you through them out the window and turn you life around to prove them that you are better then them. That would be amazing if everyone that has to suffer some issues turns the issues or problems into a better way that you can look at life because they can see a fuller life if they let the problems teach them instead of hurt them. They are all not monsters that come to destroy your life some are supper heroes because they think of saving others from the monsters that roam the earth. They think of saying others before them self these are the true heroes.

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Tag der Veröffentlichung: 13.04.2011

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