Dear daddy,

I wish you where here. I miss you but mother says that you're in a better place. Sometimes, I leave my window open for you. I hope you come back soon. I try not to cry, but its hard.

LOVE ALWAYS,
YOUR LITTLE GIRL SAM. <3


I was five when I wrote that, when my father died. I cried every night,I even cried at school. I slept with my window open every night till I was ten. Someone told me that he was never coming back and said I was a cry baby. I came home crying that night, mother asked why but I ran in my room and broke all my pictures of of him. I had to tell my mom what happened. That girl who told me that was Cassie Sanders. Now I'm seventeen I live in the same place, same house. I don't have many friends and don't want to have many. My next door neighbor, well one of them is that same girl, the other one is a boy named Kiel and he is... friends with Cassie. I still carry a picture of my father with me. 12 years, hes been gone. I still cry sometimes. I am in class right now, planning to avoid everything. Now my mother is getting ill so I have to try for her sake.
“ Hey, psst,” someone said.
I looked up. Kiel was facing me.
“ Go away,” I said!
“ Class is over,” he said, smiling.
Al ready? So fast? I got up from my desk and collected my things. He stood there waiting for me. When I walked out of class he fallowed me.
“ What do you want? Why aren't you with Cassie?” I asked?
He looked at me and laughed.
“ I gave up on her, why? You jealous?” he asked?
“ You wish,” I said.
As I walked home, I thought about what Kiel did. I looked over at him and Cassie gave me a look. I wanted to tell her of, but about what and why?
As soon as I looked back at him, he met my eyes. His dark brown eyes. Cassie slapped his arm. I looked away still thinking.
“ SAM! WATCH OUT,”!
I was in the headlights of a car, stunned. But, then someone pushed me away from the car. “ Are you okay?”
Kiel?
“ Fine,” I said, oping my eyes to see Kiel.
“ KIEL! Get away from her she could have rabies,” Cassie yelled!
“ Great, now shes comparing you to an animal,” I said.

He got up and made sure I was okay. He walked back with Cassie and said to shut up. I stayed on the ground for a while. Well, until she went in her house.
“ You sure,” Kiel said.
“ Positive,” I said.
He laid by my side. Then he faced me. He touched my arm, then played with my hair. I would have slaped him if I did care. It was so pretty out side, but there where a lot of gray clouds. Then it started to thunder.Drops of rain started to fall on my face.

“ Hey, its raining come on,” he said pulling me to my feet.
He dragged me in his house. Then, his mom looked at him funny.
“ Where is Cassie?,” she asked?
“ Mom,” he said!
“ She is at her house. This is-”
“ I know who she is. Shes the daughter of that crazy man,”
“ MOTHER,” Kiel said!
“ What? You know the one who-”
“ SHUT UP! “ I yelled!

I started to cry. My father, why can't I let go already? Hes gone,GONE!
Kiel's phone rang. I listened to him talk.
" Your mom is looking for you. I'll take you home,” Kiel said, taking my hand in his.
I only nodded. We walked out and there was a long silence. Then I looked up...
CHAPTER2

When I looked up.... there was a ambulance and cops. “ No, mom,” I said.
I ran toward the the house. When I got there someone told me to stand back.
“ That's my mom! I have to see her,” I yelled!
“ Stand back!”
“ Why is she here?” Kiels mom asked?
“ Shut up mom,” he said leading me up stairs.

His room was neat and clean. It even smelled good. He sat on his bed then looked at his clock. He looked at it for a while.

“ So, do you think you could stay here for tonight?” Kiel asked?
“ I guess. Where would I sleep? Is your mom okay with it?”
He stood up in stood up in front of me, he was so close to me that I could feel his warmth and got nervous. He started to laugh quietly.
“ Of course not, shes a mom.”
“ If you only knew what I am thinking,” he said.
He slowly walked away.
latter on that afternoon, thinking about what had happened I went to check up on him. I walked down the stairs and looked out back. He was out there, his big hands griping the railing of the porch, his head was down.
“ You did this to him, he likes you.”
I ran off after hearing his mother say that. He looked in pain, his grip on that rail was terrifying. He was strong. I had found myself in the middle of nowhere after hours. I was tired and couldn't walk straight. After a while, I fainted. I woke up in my house. Didn't ever think about it. I lived in my house for five of six weeks. I still went to school avoiding Kiel. Sometimes I had to skip class to get away of him. I couldn't let go of what happened. I was walking home and didn't even notice...
Hey Sam! Why have you been avoiding me?” Kiel asked?
I turned around and looked him in his brown eyes. His eyes had sympathy in them. That's all I wanted, more sympathy.
“ You don't get it do you? You don't get what you did to me? Wow, you're useless,” I said turning away.
I'll tell you why I did that if you come with me home instead of going to your house, you left your stuff there,” he said.
So I ended up in his house, again. He brought me to his room.....
CHAPTER 3
“ What the hell were you doing in the middle of nowhere?” Kiel shouted?
“ I-Is it true?” I asked, sitting on his bed?
He looked at me confused.
“ Is what true?” he asked, more calm.
“ Your mom said you liked me, I ran out not thinking. Is it true?” I asked?
He paused, froze. He had to think, so I think its not true. I knew it.
“ It is true, I really like you. I didn't know how to say it, so I thought if I kissed you, you might get the hint. I saw fright in your eyes, not love then you turned your head I got upset,” he said his brown eyes never leaving my eyes.
“ So, that's why you griped the rail so hard,” I said.
“ But if you don't-”
“ Why do you think I said that? I thought you didn't like me and your friends put you up to this. I thought that you were playing with my feelings,” I said.
We sat there in silence, thinking what to say next.
“ I love you”we both said.
Then his mother called for him. He was gone for a while. I thought about him saying that he loved me and his expression. Brown eyes always told the truth. He came back smiling.
“ How about staying with me tonight? My mom doesn't hate you after all,” He asked?
“ Okay,” I said.
We spent the day together, we didn't go anywhere but just being with him and knowing that he loved me was enough. As we did, I couldn't help but look in his brown eyes. We took a walk, well which was convenient for Cassie.
“ Hey! Can I walk with you guys?” she asked?
I looked at Kiel. PLEASE NO! Don't let her. But in the end Kiel said........
She walked along Kiel. Stupid big heart of his. We were walking threw town, I made sure I was far behind. But someone was following me, I could feel it. When they turned a corner, I got pulled back.
“ Shh, its me Nova,” a voice said.
WAIT,who is Nova?
“ I am in most of your classes. Anyway, don't you see whats happening? Hes betraying you,” he said.
“ Damn it, let me go! NOW!” I screamed!
He unleashed his grip and I ran back to the house.

LATTER THAT DAY......
Kiel got home at six, I was pissed at him. I didn't talk to him for the rest of the day. I thought that he didn't like her anymore. He was on the couch when I left him. I went up stairs to grab my stuff. When I came down someones arms wrapped around me. I had felt this feeling before, it was butterfly's. I got that nervous feeling. Hes not going to keep me here for long, remember I'm mad at him.
“ Please don't leave, I don't know what I did but I still love you and I'm sorry. If its about Cassie, I wanted to know what happened. The night she called she told me that your mom was looking for you,” he said.
I let him finish, but I wanted to scream Cassie you listened to that girl who tried to ruin my life?
“ I can't believe you listen to Cassie! She could have hurt my mom! Don't you get it?” I yelled!
He held me tight, as if I might slip away. I might have, I wanted so badly to know what the hell I did to Cassie. But there was something wrong with my mother. She was sick, the doctor said he would call me if anything unusual happened. They wanted to keep her over night. Every day I had to live with the pain of losing her as well as my father. I had to live with the gilt of not being there for her. My life was hanging by a thin piece of extinction. I might die any minuet too, some how.

Can every thing be this way? I love it when I'm with Kiel, because I don't have to hide myself from him like everyone else. And he doesn't have to hide either. This way, we are both happy. I can't stay mad at him. But, I am mad at Cassie, I always have been. That is something that will never change.
He told me what she told him. I didn't care for her words, I didn't care for her presence. I knew being with Kiel will be a challenge but its fine as long as it stays between us only. We had a sleeping issue. I slept on the bed, he slept on the couch. I didn't agree. He insisted


“Can't you see? He is betraying you!”
“ You're the princesses, right?”
“ The royal owner has come back! Shes here!”
They where all the same voice. Kiel? Dad? NOVA!
“ DON'T LEAVE! I LOVE YOU!”
I woke up in a sweat, it was a cold sweat. I probably screamed, I was in pain. Kiel was in front of me.
“ Are u okay.......? … Oh your moms doctor called.”
That's all it took from me to get up and rush to the phone. I was shaky, I couldn't walk straight. I fell uneasy, getting up right away. Th pain was getting worse, I had to fight it. I had to see how mom was doing, I needed to bet here for her. I had the will to go on. I stumbled to the phone. I
called the number I faintly remembered, my finger were shaking so bad I couldn't dial the number right.
“ Damn it,” I mumbled to myself.
“ Call her latter you need to rest,” Kiel said, grabbing me.
“ NO! SHE NEEDS HELP!”

He wrapped his arms around me and held me tight, I was crying still trying to dial. It didn't work. Nothing did. I was hopeless.

CHAPTER 4


I had to stop dialing after a while, Kiel made me. I had to wait a day before calling.
“ Is this Pam Danfield?” I asked?
“ N-No, she passed a day ago. You must be Sam,” the nurse said.
“ P-Passed away? Oh god.”
The nurse flipped some papers.
“ Sadly, yes. Would you like to pick some of her stuff up?” She asked?
“ Yeah. Bye.”

I slowly slid down the wall, holding my mouth. Tears crawled down my face. I had lost everything, it was all gone now.I screamed. I was sad,mad,and lost along with my parents lives. I was pissed at the nurse because she acted nonchalant about it. Kiel found me, on the floor. He sat by me.


Kiel took me to the hospital. I told him that I would call him to pick me up. He gave me a look, then drove away. He thought I didn't trust him. I got in the hospital room and I saw HIM.......


TO BE CONTINUED !


NOTE : I WILL WRITE ANOTHER BOOK!!!!

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