I looked at a shaggy haired boy's direction descretly, as if getting caught staring at him was the worst thing I could do. My heart thudded to a stop as his eyes connected with mine just for a second. I looked away blushing wildly. My friends looked at me strange, but returned talking about there plans for college.
"I-I gotta go. Bye!" I yelled at my friends quickly herding my books together before rushing out of the library. I ran to my car, and sat in it staring at the raindrops that slid down my car window. They raced each other, as if seeing who was better. I shoved the key in ignition, and the car sprang to life. I pulled out of my parking spot, and left school two minuetes before release. I began to cry as I drove on the road to my house. My tears competing with each other much like the rain drops do. My vision blurred, and I was forced to pull-over. A car stopped behind me, and Dene got out. I struggled to pull myself together. He knocked on my window, and I reluctantly rulled it down.
"I saw you leave. Can I sit down?" He asked me. I only nodded not trusting my voice. I unlocked the doors, and he climbed into the passenger seat. "Whats up? Why are you crying?" He questioned I looked into his eyes, and saw true sencerity in them. I couldn't tell him that I loved him though because he has a girlfriend, and that would be bad.
"M-my goldfish died." I lied I was scared he wouldn't buy it, and I would be questioned further. He bought it though, because he nodded his understandment, and told me.
"Yeah, losing a pet is hard. Don't worry though, your goldfish is in a better place." He layed a reassuring hand on my shaking shoulders.
"Isn't your girlfriend worried." I asked shuddering on the indside.
"No, I told her I was going out by myself." He said. So he lied for me, how romentic!
"Oh, well now what?" Everything was getting awkward now, and Dene felt it too so he removed his hand from my shoudler.
"Uh, I should go bye." He said rushing his exit. He patted my shoulder, and left the door slamming shut as he went away. I sighed contentedly, and started going home. I got home the normal time, so my mother suspected nothing. Love doesn't work out for our family. My mom's divorced, and I seem to be in love with someone taken. Not to mention my grandfather left my grandmom for a stripper at the local bar. We all took it hard. I headed up to my room after saying a quick 'hello, yes my day was wonderful. Love you too.' I flopped down on my bed trying to block out the sadness that had filled me after Dene left. The sad emotions struggled against me, and won. I was just too vulnerable to block them out fully. My phone vibrated in my backpack, and I ignored it knowing it wasn't Dene. After it settled down, I reached for it. Looking at the contact it was Dene, and he had left a message.
"Hey, sorry I had to leave so suddenly Chritne wanted me to take her home suddenly. Umm, I was wondering if you wanted to have a memorial for your goldfish. I heard it helps. Call me back. Bye"
My heart sighed happily in the love-sick ways, and my fingers fumbled for the call button. The phone rang, and he answered it withen the third ring.
"Hey, sorry I missed your call I was just..."
"Mouring the death of your goldfish." He finsihed for me.
"Yeah, I think that a memorial is a great idea. How 'bout the beach at seven?"
"That works for me."
"See ya then."
"Bye." He hung up, and I told the beeping phone
"Love you." If only he knew.

Seven came too slowley, and when it came I was sure I was dressed appropiatly for the occasion. A hot black dress with fish net tights, and black flats. My make-up was subdued, and my hair looking like I have been stressed latley. The doorbell rang, and I answered it counting three seconds after the bell rang.
"Hey." I said fake sadness filling my voice.
"Ready?" He asked, and I nodded walking with my head down to his Volvo. Sure, Edward from Twilight has a Volvo, but it's not as hot as this one. "Well? How are you holding up"
"Fine." I faked a sniffle, and a tear rolled out of my eye.
"Dont cry, your goldfish..." He looked to me for help with my 'goldfish's' name.
"Frankie."
"Franikie, would want you to be happy. To not cry on his depature." He told me sencerly. He was so sweet. Even though this is stupid he cared. Actually cared! We drove along the road in silence untill we reached the beach.
"Did you bring him?" He asked.
"Yeah." I answered showing him the shoe box coffin I made for 'Frankie'. It was decorated with reefs, and corals. Dene seemed to be fine with what I showed him because he nodded, and walked out of the car. He opened the door to my seat, and I 'stumbled' out into his arms.
"Careful." He said correcting me firmly on my feet. I smiled thanks, and we walked to the ocean. The salty smell of the ocean is over whelming in the good way, and when I got a wift of the overpowering smell of ocean I couldn't help but smile."Do you like the ocean also?"
"Yeah, I love the smell, and the feeling of it on my skin." I replied a bigger smile coming across my lips. We stared at each other for a second, and walked closer to the ocean.
"Ready?" He asked grabbing me hand in the 'I support you fully' gesture. I smiled and nodded placing 'Frankie' in a hole in the sand, that I had dug with my converse only seconds ago. I cried as we piled the dirt on top of my 'goldfish.' Dene pulled me into an embrace moving my hair out of my tear stained face.
"It's gonna be alright." He conforted me, and I snuggled into his warm chest. I smelt his wonderful smell, and pulled away wiping the lingering tears away. I looked up at him my elbows resting on his chest. He leaned down, and kissing my lightly on the lips. I didn't dare kiss him back knowing he was only doing it because I was upset. I nodded, and he led me back to the car. We sat in silence, untill Dene broke it."You don't have a goldfish do you?" I shook me head unable to lie to him if he knew. "Why'd you lie?" He asked me sadness and betrayel hiding, not very well, behind his eys.
"Because, I couldn't tell you that my dad left, and I still am upset over it." I lied again this time in the trueful/untrueful manner. He nodded believing me finally.
"Well you buried your dad then. You buried your sadness that you wasted on him." He poetically said to me stroking my hair. He switched on the radio, and sung along to the song that popped on. Hi voice is like an angel's. Sweet, soft, and he actually kept melody. We reached my home, and I stumbled out really this time. Only Dene wasn't there to catch me so I ended up on the muddy ground. I sobbed wildly this time with true sadness, and Dene rushed out of his car to my aid."Shhh." He hushed me. He rocked my on the ground untill I calmed.
"Sorry." I sniffled apolizing to him.
"Dont be. I canceled my date because I knew you needed me." He said suprising me. He canceled his date to be with...me!! Kiss him was screaming in my heart, but my mind resticted itself to a hug. We hugged, and I stood up dusting off the leaves from my muddy dress.
"Thanks." I yelled to him as he pulled away waving. He is so sweet! I walked causually inside, and jumped into the shower. Washing off the mud from my hair I thought about the fireworks that danced across my mind as he kissed me sympathetically. I touched my lips, and they tingled as if they remembered too. I reluctantly left the shower, and got ready to sleep. In my pajamas, and grind protector I climbed into my bed. Sleep found me almost instantly. I dreamt of fireworks...

I know that its short, but I haven't managed to figure out how to save unfinished work...soooo I'll post a 'sequal' or chapter two or whatever out later. Thanks for readin!

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Texte: Hey, so this is kinda more of an authors note. This is kinda a true story, so please, please don't judge Marne please.
Tag der Veröffentlichung: 02.07.2011

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Sounds strange, but to all the homeless animals. My best wishes someone good will give you a warm home!