Prologue

I am Juliana. I am '6 "1 . I have black hair that is always in my face, hiding my blue eyes with a ring of red. I have what people call the "perfect figure". I don't care. My life sucks, always has, always will, until the day. I have been planning for a very long time. I will go to the top of my 10 story building, (apartments) and jump. Perfect plan, and I have made it flawless. I will do it when my 'boyfriend' (he doesn't act like it) is at work and no one I know will be around, and I will die, just die, and not have to live another day.

"Hey Juliana! I'm home!" That is Eric. Tall, skinny, blond, sweet, loving, but never seems satisfied with me. "In the study!" I hid the small index card in my pocket and open my laptop, looking at the work I still have. I quickly finished by the time entered. I pressed save, sent it to my boss, and twirled in my chair to face him. "Hey." I say with a forced smile, but they think it's normal. Suddenly his lips are on mine, loving, passionate. I felt my eyes go wide. What the hell?! He never does that. I felt myself relax into the kiss and we finally broke apart. "What was that for?" I asked honestly surprised. "Anniversary present." He smiled that smile that I love. That's why I started dating him. I pulled roses and his favorite cake from behind me. "Well I guess you don't need these?" I teased. "YES I NEED THOSE!" He grabbed the stuff and yelled "Be in the kitchen!" as he left. I felt used for some reason. I knew it was the beginning of the end for me. Ever since I was a child I was brutally torchered. I was made fun of for anything and everything. Even Eric makes fun of me. People just choose me to pick on. Am I easy pray? Do I look like that? Now back to kindergarten, give you a little background. Best year of my life,because of Thane. He beat up bullies for me, I lied for him. He brought the drinks, I'd bring the snacks. He was the tough guy, I was the softy. It is the truth that opposites attract. But my hero was not there in high school, where I got eaten alive, and I wished he was. I had tried to commit suicide, not once, not twice, but three times in my 4 years because of the emotional pain, which built up into physical pain. Attempt 1) Drug overdose, Attempt 2)Blood loss Attempt 3)Drug overdose again. Eventually, I just gave up, and now it has started again, and it's finally time. Time for my end. To rid the world of me.

The beginning of the end of my life.

Thane's P.O.V.

Why me?! Why did I have to love a girl that was taken!?!? Being a vampire sucks enough, but add love and emotion in the equation = I'm doomed! Juliana, so beautiful, but she doesn't realize it. Her 'boyfriend' just takes and never gives. Never makes her feel good. It's not fair to her! She's had a tough enough life! Practically being killed, then bullied her whole life?!?! What the hell is wrong with people?! When we had been in kindergarten [vampires age till 18, I slipped blood in her drink, (I remember that day, she asked if I had anything to drink and I said "Ya" and handed her my blood. She didn't seem to notice. Therefore she stopped aging, but shes not a vampire)] a bully had pushed her off the monkey bars and she fell, quite a distance back then. I caught her, then beat the kid to a pulp. I felt a tap on my shoulder. "Thank you." She said and gave me a hug. I hugged her back and knew she was mine. I loved her. The principle came out and asked what had happened. She stood right in front of me and said "He" (pointing to the boy who pushed her) "pushed me off the monkey bars, and so some guy came up and beat him up and left. I don't know where he went." She just lied for me. Me. Of all people. The principle asked her, believing her "Do you know what he looked like?" "No, he had a mask thingy on and I couldn't see his face." She just flat out lied again. She must watch the news, because supposedly there is a man on the loose that has done things similar to this and looked like she described. "OK. Well I want you guys to stay inside now OK?" The principle asked. "OK." She answered. She grabbed my hand and pulled me inside. She pulled me aside and said "This is our secret, no one can know. K?" "K." She nodded her head seriously like an adult and ran off to the classroom. She was fast! I heard her "Sorry Mrs.Ember, we got caught up outside." "Don't worry, the principle told me. It's OK." I came in slowly after her. I wish she was mine, well technically she is, but you know what I mean. *Sigh* Another Valentines Day without her. "Hey what all the doom and gloom for bro?" Alec said (my brother). "When am I not?" I muttered, going up to my room. I want her, and only her.

Juliana's P.O.V.

I slowly got dressed and went to bed, alone, again. He left to go out with his buddies or something. I soon fell asleep, tears going down my face. Tomorrow was the day. My death. I had already written my will. To a guy I haven't seen since kindergarten. Thane Kain. I give him everything I own, and I singed it "This is our secret, no one can know."Death will be coming for me soon, and I welcome him. I welcome death, for he has not let me come yet and I want to. I want to end the physical and emotional pain once and for all. All I have these days are flashbacks of bad memory's that should has never reappeared. Those were my worst. Kids in the hallways of my college threw knives at me and told me to die. Some threw empty pill bottles and told me to go die. These are people I had never talked to or met. I just wished to die, every year of my life, and tomorrow was the end. The final end. My hero wouldn't be there this time. I dreamed of my college years. I had been walking to my class when a girl came at me with a knife. I had never met, seen, or even spoken to this girl and she said "Go die bitch! Nobody needs you around!" and threw the knife at me. I hit the ground. This continued all thought college. I hate my life, and it was time things changed, and boy oh boy would they.

Death screwed me dammit!!!!!! What the fuckin hell?!?!

I rode in the elevator and every second felt like an hour.As I finally reached, the top floor I had no doubts. I was sure. Rid the world of me. End my pain and suffering. End me. I took the stairs to the roof.I slowly walked to the edge and I stood there, on the edge,just my breathing my last breaths of air. I was ready.I watched from the edge of the 10 story building as people gathered. One person pointed, another called 911, and yet another, and another came, soon the crowd was hundreds of people it seemed. Police came and all that crap, but I was not afraid, I had wanted to die, and NOT be saved, for so long I wished to die. "Miss! Come down from there!" I herd one yell with an amplifier thing. I did not want to be saved, I shall not be saved. I took a deep breath, but heard a voice,Eric's voice "Juliana! Wait! You don't know what your doing!" I laughed. "Oh. I know more than you." Of course I knew. I had always known. I had always known. I had found out that Eric was cheating on me and that he told his girlfriend he didn't love me it was just for money. So I really was just a piece of trash no one loved. But I loved Thane Kain and hopefully he loved me too, or I would die. I heard in the background "Let me go! I gotta save her!" "That's our job." I whispered, but I knew they could hear " too late" and fell, fell in bliss, waiting for the end, but it never came. "Hello secret." I gasped. Him. Thane. My kindergarten hero. My one love. I may have not seemed to love him, but it's weird he was always there when I needed him. Whenever I went on vacation to get away he was there to comfort me. To love me. He always had love shining in his eyes. That was the only way I knew what love is. Is from his eyes.I opened my eyes and was immediately dizzy. Everything was going by so fast. "Close your eyes." I did as I was told and immediately felt better. I had eventually fallen asleep, I just hoped I didn't have to go home, they would just lock me up in the loony bin. Enough talk, just sleep.

Thane's P.O.V.

I was walking past her apartment, when I saw the crowd. I moved passed them, and saw her breathing in the morning air, and then falling, falling so fast, but she looked peaceful for some reason. I reacted without thinking. I ran as fast as I could, caught her and ran. "Hello secret." I said. She was always a secret. I heard her gasp. I saw her open her beautiful eyes, and saw she was dizzy. "Close your eyes." I murmured. She did. She was always so beautiful. She was mine. Mine and mine alone now. I slowly slipped into her mind and heard one thought "I hope I didn't have to go home, they would just lock me up in the loony bin" That surprised me. I wouldn't take her home. She is mine now, and I will take care of her. My house it is. I slowed my run as I approached the door. I opened the door quietly, as to not wake my brother who was sleeping, he'd chop my head off. I then quietly ran upstairs, and closed my door and gently laid her down I covered her with a blanket that we had made on one of many vacations, and watched as she hugged it. I just kept watching her. She is so beautiful. I could never live without her now.

Juliana's P.O.V.

I took a deep breath as I woke up. It smelled like him. Like Thane. I snuggled deeper in the blankets, loving his smell, the feel of warmth around me. "Do you want breakfast Secret?" "Hmm?" I looked up at his beautiful face, that showed love, not hatred or un-satisfaction like every other creature. No. Every other person on this planet hated me. He only showed love, and that's what I needed. Love. He was beautiful. He had black hair that was in his eyes, over his beautiful red eyes. He was just the right height, and perfect amount of muscles. He was perfect. I scooted over and patted the seat next to me. I had a kind of smile I hadn't had since kindergarten, a real smile. Then the door swung open. Shit.

Big Brother and a Dog

Juliana's P.O.V.

"WHAT THE HELL IS SHE DOING HERE?!!!!!!!" The man at the door yelled with a ginormous wolf at is side.(Umm Maybe his brother Alec..don't know..) I felt my temper flare. Why'd he yell at him?! I jumped off a building! I stood up and walked right up to this man, he was taller then me, but I didn't care, he was just another bully. "WHATEVER THE HELL I WANT TO ASSHOLE!HE SAVED MY LIFE SO HE CAN DO WHATEVER THE HELL HE WANTS! YOU WANT TO INTERVENE I WILL BEAT YOUR SORRY ASS!" My mouth felt like it was on fire. I didn't notice. I saw the wolf back down. The man saw my rage, and I saw fear in his eyes. I looked him in the eyes and said "I will always do whatever the hell I what." I grabbed him by the shirt, and threw him down the hall way. I muttered insults under my breath as I closed the door and grabbed some clothing. "Where ya going?" "Shower" I went into the bathroom and saw my eyes, they were a blazing red. "Ahhhh!!! Holy crap!" When I yelled I noticed fangs. "What the hell?!" One chain of evnts led to another and another. I had locked the door, and I heard him at the door. "You OK Secret?" "Umm, if red eyes and fangs are OK, then perfectly fine!" I forgot to unlock the door, so when I pulled the knob the whole door came off. "Ahhhhh!" I thought about running away from the door and was on the other side of the room. "Ahhhhhhhh!" He slowly cornered me. "Hey" I was breathing quickly. My parents used to call this a panic attack. I had those a lot when I was younger because I'd freak out about stupid things. Like now. "Hey. Look at me, calm down." He gently grabbed my chin and turned my head to face him. My breathing immediately slowed as did my heart rate. But I still wasn't completely calm. I looked at the stereo and it started blasting. "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!" I screamed, covering my ears.They seemed really sensitive and that is painful! He turned it off and came over to me. I was in a ball,(My mother taught me that one, form a ball and a bubble and no one else is there.
He, hesitantly, slowly, and gently wrapped his arms around me, pulling me into his chest. He whispered calm soothing words and I slowly calmed down again. I finally had my hero back. My bully fighting hero. I cried into his chest.He didn't know what I had gone through without him. Hell. I didn't understand. How did he just disappear and then now he's back?! Then on top of that, now I was now loved, finally loved, had frekin fangs, and fucking red eyes. He had a lot of explaining to do. "I don't understand." "I know. I know." I looked up at his beautiful face. I think I love this man. This man I have rarely seen, yet is my hero, forever and for eternity. This man who....

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Tag der Veröffentlichung: 25.02.2012

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Widmung:
To my father who has never left me, to my mother, who is my best friend, but still a mom, to Lauren Robinson, my first real friend, to Jasmine Paddock, who understands and cares about me like I'm her sister, when no other friend could and In am forever in debt and to all you peoples who read this! THANK YOU!