I DEDICATE THIS TO MY MOM LINDA PICKLESIMER, SISTER ANGELA SPENCER, SISTER LISA MCKINNEY. ALWAYS FIGHT FOR LOVE AND NEVER GIVE UP AND I HOPE UR AS HAPPY AS I AM WITH MY DAVE!


prologue


I was nine and bully billy was pulling my pig tails on the playground and this brown hair boy, with blue eyes and pretty white teeth and so cute and he punched bully billy in the face and said "my daddy says never pick on girls" and then turn to me and said my name is "Cameron Ryder Silver" and smiles
"hi my name is Madeline Marie Williams" and he says "want to be friends Matty" I smile and nod
and he takes my hand to go swing. We been friend, best friends every sence.


CHAPTER 1


"Hey Matty your turning seventeen" said Cam "what are you going to ask ur parents to get you" i feel a sad moment coming on because I'm scared of his reaction.
"I think i might go to paris for the summer" he nods his head "thats great I'm going to football camp" fear gets trap in my stomach "your not going to miss me?" he laughs "of course I'm going to miss you Matty"
and he hug's me and I tell him i got to go meet Danny my sister.
"Danny, what am I going to do,he dosn't see me as a woman, he only see me as a childhood friend" my sister sighs real dramatic "sis you've loved Cam since you were nine and it's time to show him, I'm mean "HELLO!" you have his name Cam above your cuca and Ryder on your lower back and Silver on your neck, those are permnant, better do something sis"
"your right sis, but I'm scared of losing him, but I can't imagin not being with him" my sister gets a devilish smile on her face "Im throwing a party this weekend, bring Cam and I'll get you a suit and all, no worries" I nod but i'm not worried, i'm excited and calmed "okay sis got to run, meeting Cam at the game" I jump in my car and I almost hit Mary Lue turning on E.Main st. 'day dreaming' my phone rings "hello" I hear a girl giggle "matty its Cam, I was wondering if I could go to the dance tonight with Dawn Summers" I felt like crying a hung up and made a quick u-turn on Rosetta ave. and went to a motel to cry in private.
Two days later at the pool party only my sister and her boyfriend and Cam was there "I invited Dawn, I hope thats okay" I smiled saddly and Cam gives me a confused question look,I shake my head no for him to drop it and he does "no thats great Cam, the more the marrier, thats why I invited a blind date for Matty"
"WHAT!"
me and cam say at the same time, do I hear anger in Cams voice "who is he sis" she smiles sweetly "Kane"
"thats crazy, he's in college Matty" I glare at him and the door bell rings "I'll go get it, Matty you go change,bathing suit is on the guess bed" she winks at me. I walk to the guess bedroom cam pulls me to a stop "when ur ready to go home let me know and I'll drive you" I said "maybe, and maybe not" with a giggle. he looks pissed off.
I walk to the living room and Cam gasp with Shock. Kane says "oh my, wait who's Cam? and why a Ryder tattoo, besides the obvious" Cam just looks stunned and then angery. "lets go now" and he walks out. I get into his mustang covertable "whats wrong Cam" he looks at me "I thought we were friends Matty" I look at him thoughtful "we are Cam" he looks at me funny "then why have me all over you" I thought for a long while "because i love you Cam, I have sence I was nine"
"dammit Matty, were just friends thats all we will ever be, now I'm not sure we can even be that" I felt a tear run down my cheek "why, Cam" he slams his hand down on the stearing wheel "because I love Dawn and I want to be with her forever and she don't like us hanging out so much, and I want to make her happy"
I was shock at what I was hearing "your joking Cam, right!" he just stares ahead avoiding to look at me, thats it "just stop the car"
"what!"
"I said stop the car" he does I get out and walk home and the rest of the week I void him at all cost, not answering his phone calls or returning them and now the time has com to tell my family I'm leaving.
"mom,sis, I'm moving to live with dad"
"oh honey, don't let that weasel run you off" I smile weaky "I miss dad and I need time to heal and move on"
I get on the plane an on my way to paris.
two weeks in paris and I got me a job at my dads art gallery, and I love it so much dads Agrees to own a tattoo shop with me when I'm ready because that what I want to be, I got alot of cool friends, Marco, he's gay ad his partner Rick. And there Sammie, haley, phillip who owns a dance club and Rick an Marco always meet for lunch here.
three months, summers over and we started four days ago I'm in home eck, my cellie (cell phone).
"hello"
"Matty" I can hear him sad and that releive attidtude.
"when you comeing home"
"oh,Cam " and I about broke down "did't anyone tell you I moved here to live with my dad"
"WHAT!"
"well it was for the best Cam, with everything that happen and that were not friends anymore and I needed to heal, and you needed time to make it with Dawn, and besides it anit like we were really friends, besause friends don't turn their backs on you when ur girl is unconferable, but as long as your happy Cam I wish you all the happiness and is there anything else you needed, if not I got to go"
"Matty, please come home, I miss you, I'm sorry I hurt you" then there was silence "I promise to be a better friend" more silence "I'm sorry Cam, I can't, my feelings for you will never be just friends, and you know that, thats why you broke our friendship"
"I do know"
"besided its great here, my dads going into buisness with me"
"oh yeah, what kind"
"tattooing, heck maybe, I'll learn how to have them removed"
"don't Matty,please"
"we'll see"
"Are you coming home for visits" there was some silence.
"I'm sorry Cam, mom and sis agree to visit me!"
"Well Damn it Matty" I know I feel my self weaking.
"I gotta go meet marco now so Have a nice life Cam and be happy" I hanged up while he was hollering my name.

1 YEAR LATER
"Matty?"
"Yes?" my father looks sad at me "My jobs been transfer to iraq for a report in leagal affairs" I'm so stunned I don't know what to say "Is it dangerous?"
"Yes sweety and I need you to go live with you mom and I left everything in your name all my assets and I left the money to start your tattoo place there to"
I take a deep breath and swallow and nod.
He hugged me and gave me big giant dad kiss's and hugs.


ON THE PLANE HOME
All my friends came with me. Were all getting an apartment together. And Phillip and me are buying a club, and I'm buying a tattoo and percing shop.

Arriving in town and I look at my schedule and notice My friend rick scheduled my appointment with Cams dad.
"Here goes" I walked in and said "I had an appointment"
"Just wait and he'll be right with you"
"Matty?" oh shit. "Yes?"
"Oh hi cam"
"Hi, so you visiting?"
"No just moved back, got an appointment with your dad"
"Oh ok, maybe were catch up sometime"
"Maybe"
"Okay, you look good Matty"
"Thanks..."
"Madeline?"
"Thats me, gotta go by cam"
"Bye!"

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