While I was walking down Haven Dr., I was thinking about all the events that happened today…. My ex- best friend throwing a party, Me meeting a senior who I thought was “chill” and “laid-back”, then I got raped by him, I then blanked on my “best friend” and now here I am… LIMPING down the street like a newborn calf all because I decided to take risks for “her”.... All because she was my best friend…. All this time, I thought that she’d look after me but… I guess that didn’t happen. As I was turn onto my street, Snow Ln., I could smell the scent of weed from miles away. While I kept walking, a group of grown men were huddled in some form of a clique and one of them spotted me and said “Hey Lil Mama! Are you lost?”. I turned to them so that they could see my full outward appearance and then another one said “Damn Ma! You look fine as hell…”. I said “Thank you” and I went back onto my walk to my house.
When I got home, no one was there, except me. As I was heading to my room, I came across a note and it said: “Sabrina, Your father and I had to go to New York for an emergency. We won’t be back till tomorrow morning. Keep all doors locked and don’t let anyone in, except Ms. Jones (our neighbor). Dinner is in the microwave. Enjoy and see you tomorrow. We love you! :) ~Mom and Dad~”.
After I read the note, I folded it and went upstairs to my room. While I was undressing out of Nicole’s dress, I heard someone knocking on the door. I looked at my alarm clock and in bright, red numbers “11:45”. Now here’s what I was thinking…. “Who would knock on someone’s door at close to midnight?”. I threw on my Pink Panther housecoat and sloots (a combination of slippers and boots) then I slowly started to walk to the door. As I was getting closer to the door, the knock became more like bangs as if someone was attempting to break inside. I quickly ran into the kitchen and grabbed a butcher knife out of the knife rack and I started to walk slowly to the door having the knife ready in hand. I yelled “Who is it?!?!?” and just as I was getting ready to swing open the door and stab someone, I heard an elderly woman’s voice say “It’s Ms. Jones, your neighbor” and very quickly the tension and suspicion went away.
I opened the door to let Ms. Jones in and we then sat on the couch and we were having a full on conversation, Woman-to-Teenager. I ended up telling her about everything that happened today from my ex-best friend throwing a kickback to me getting raped by a senior to me leaving, but in the end, I told her that I would be fine. After our conversation, I walked her to the door and we both said our “Good night”s. After I locked the door, I went upstairs to bed.
As I was sleeping, I had a quick flashback of the kickback at Nicole’s house. I remembered from when the moment that I walked down those stairs, all of the guys were whistling at me and when I was sitting on the couch watching all of the couples dancing, I didn’t know who it was but I saw one boy that looked very pleasant. He had dark hair that was in the form of a side Mohawk and he had a very buff figure. He was wearing a black T-shirt with jeans that were tight in the right places on his body. While I was observing him, he kind of found out that I was looking at him and we ended up making eye contact with each other. I started to bite my lip and he gave me a devilish smirk. But just as I was going to head his direction, another female came and dragged him away and I ended up alone, just until I met that son of a bitch senior. I just couldn’t help but ask myself… WHO WAS HE AND DOES HE GO TO LIBERTY HIGH SCHOOL??? Just as I was thinking about that question, my alarm clock shook me out of my fantasy and I sat up looking shaken as if I had a nightmare. I then got up out my bed and started to get ready for school.
While in my Science class doing independent work, I couldn’t stop thinking about that boy that was in my dreams. I often thought that it was a dream and that he couldn’t be real, so I honestly gave the fantasy up. When lunch period came, I sat by myself because I ditched my ex-best friend. While I was on my phone texting my step sister, a strong voice said “hey…. HEY…” and when I looked up, I stopped dead in my text because I honestly didn’t know if it was Déjà Vu or what but a boy across the table in front of me kind of matched the description of that same boy that I saw in my dreams. I was thinking “IT’S A TRAP!!! CAN’T TRUST NO ONE, NOT EVEN BOYS…. WAIT… PRETEND HE’S INVISIBLE!!!”. Just as I was doing what my mind suggested, the bell that ended lunch period rung and I zoomed out of the cafeteria to my class.
Soon enough, the school day ended and I was very much relieved. While I was walking around a corner, I heard a strong voice yelling “Wait!!!! I need to talk to you!!!” and then I realized it was that same voice from lunch. I started to speed walk and as soon as I heard the fast pace of feet hitting the hard concrete, I started to run as fast as Sonic. It seemed as if in 2.5 seconds, I arrived at my house and as I was fumbling through my purse for my keys, something touched my shoulder and I screamed at the top of my lungs. Just as I was getting ready to swing my purse at “his” face, his hand covered my mouth and he was saying “Shhhhh….”.
I was scared shitless and when he took his hand off of my mouth, I quickly turned around and there I was in his sexy presence…. The same description that I had in my dream. Then I suddenly look at his eyes…. They were the most beautiful things that I’ve ever seen. So….. perfect… so…… hypnotizing…. I could stare into his eyes all day. Then just as I was getting ready to say something, a car horn beeped so loud that my eardrum was getting ready to bust. I then told him that I had work to do and that I’d see him around and he said “Ok cutie” and gave me wink that made me feel like Jell-O in my knees and he slowly started to walk away. I then had trouble trying to put the key in the door all because I couldn’t stop thinking about him….. The guy of my dreams….
As soon as I got in the door, I quickly locked it and leaned up against the wall as if I ran a mile run and that I was out of breath. Here’s what I was thinking… “I don’t know who that was but I gotta find out EVERYTHING about him… from his address to his phone number… EVERY FUCKEN THING!!!”. I then went upstairs to my room and a few minutes later, both my mom and dad came through the door. My mom was the very first to walk into my room and hug me and ask how I was doing in both in life and school. I could really talk to my mom as if she was one of my best friends, EXCEPT she made the decisions for me…. And that I can count on her when I need her. I told her that I was having all these De ja Vu moments and she asked “What happened to you that makes you feel that way?”. I then spilled the whole entire situation about the party and how me and Nicole were no longer friends, and then I finally told her that there was a boy at school that looked like a boy that was in my dream when I had a flashback of the kickback. After I told her everything, we had a hugging moment as if we were best friends and then she invited me to come cook with her. Soon enough, I forgot about all the things that were stressing me and I was ready for the next school day.
So the next day seemed normal, as usual. There was no sign of the guy anywhere, thank the lord. When it was time to go home, I had to go to my locker to put some books in there for the next day. While I was walking home, he didn't seem to follow me either, which was kind of weird but very disappointing to me at the same time, BUT when I got to my house… let me just say…. ALL HELL BROKE LOOSE. There he was… on MY porch…. TALKING TO MY MOM AND DAD!?!?!? I steadily walked up to them and as soon as I made eye contact with him, I wanted to slap the shit out of him and then yell at him saying “YOU KNOW MY PARENTS???” but it would make my problem obvious to my mom so I kept my mouth shut. As soon as my parents finished their conversation with him, they all started to act normal in the blink of an eye. When I hugged my dad, I quickly gave him an evil eye and he sent a wink in my direction, which made my evil eye not.. So evil anymore. Then my Dad told me the worst thing that you could ever imagine. My Dad said, word for word: “Sabrina, this is our new neighbor’s son, Sean”. HOLD UP, HOLD UP….. WAIT A FUCKEN MINUTE!?!?!? So you’re meaning to tell me that HE is our new NEIGHBOR????!!!??? “Is it too late to move???? Please tell me it isn’t too late to move…” is what my mind kept saying over and over again as I looked at him once again.
I honestly couldn’t do nothing else but just look at him through my evil eyes, but once again, he sent me a wink and smile his devilish smile. Then my parents then announced something that made me want to get the shovel out of the garage and start to dig my grave and have one of them stab me to literal death….. “Because his parents have to head back to their old house out of the state, he’s going to be staying with us for a few weeks”.
HOLD UP!!!!!! HIM??? NEIGHBOR???? STAYING AT OUR HOUSE??? WEEKS???? COULD THIS DAY GET ANY WORSE?!?!?!?!?!?!? I just wanted to instantly punch a wall or just drop dead…. inside my grave. I then went inside the house and I went straight upstairs to my room and locked my door. Honestly, I could say nothing. I couldn’t change a thing. I didn’t know what to do in that particular moment. I sat on my bed and I thought to myself: “Wow… not only does my dream boyfriend exist, but he is staying at my house for a few weeks...”. I then thought about how much my parents were going to be gone at work since they both work day and night shifts and that I was going to be around him more.
While I was in my thinking bubble, a little knock on my door interrupted my thought process. I yelled “Come in” and just as I suspected, the boy of my dreams walks through my door. We both looked at each other for about a minute and then I had enough courage to spill out my words. “Ok… So here are the ground rules for as long as you are here with us…Rule number 1) Don’t come in my room at anytime WITHOUT MY PERMISSION, Rule number 2) Don’t annoy me AT ANYTIME GIVEN, Rule number 3…..”
As I was getting ready to say the next rule, he walked up to me and sat down on my bed and gave me a pouty face. “Awwww damn…. First you meet (and now know) my parents, then you are staying at my house and now you’re giving me a pouty face… Give me a break, Sean!!!!” I then thought about how much he was going to try and invade my personal space and boundaries so I decided to drop the ground rules….. Except rule number 1. His face then changed from a pouty face to a smirk that said “Yes Maim” and he gave me a goofy salute and winked.
I couldn’t help but laugh and he smiled at me. It felt as if we were best friends for a good while…. Just like me and Nicole. We then made eye contact with each other and I couldn’t help but carefully but sweetly observe his deep, luxurious brown eyes. While I was staring in his eyes, he somehow slid his way closer to me. I then tried finding the right words to say but there were something about his eyes… his personality…. Him…. I just felt like I could stay like this all day with him. As soon as I knew it, his hand was caressing the side of my face and I was blushing. Just as his lips were getting ready to touch mine, my mom called me. I told him to come and follow me downstairs and he said “Ok”.
It turned out that my mom wanted the both of us to cook dinner and surprisingly, his face lit up with excitement as if he was a little kid that took a trip to the candy store. While we were cooking, it turned out that he learned so much from his father, who was a well known chef in his hometown. I was very astonished because he had me try a bit of spaghetti meat and he seasoned it perfectly.
After we finished cooking, Sean and I decided to eat upstairs while we watched a movie. He was telling me more about his past and special talents. Soon enough I fell asleep on him and while I was sleeping, I suddenly felt a kiss being planted on my forehead. It made not only my heart melt, but it made me think that I finally had the ability to fall in love with Sean. But the question is…. Are my feelings for him true? And if they are, Can I trust him enough with them?
The next day at school, I couldn’t help but think about me and Sean becoming closer than ever before while he was staying at my house. I also couldn’t help but think if he was thinking about me too at the moment. I then thought about how much my parents are going to be gone and how Sean was going to find many ways to get closer to me. But then I thought to myself… “Why would Sean fall for someone like me??? I know that there are other girls trying to hit on him but……” I then sighed in disbelief.
As I thought more about it, I suddenly forgot that I was walking and I stumbled on uneven concrete and just as I was getting ready to fall face first onto the concrete, I felt tight arms around my waist and hot breath up against my neck. A whisper then found its way to my ear that asked “Are you ok?” and when I straightened myself up, I turned around and there was Sean…. The same Sean that was in my dreams… the same Sean that I’m now in love with. We made eye contact and I couldn’t help but deeply and sweetly observe his dark, luxurious brown eyes.
While I was trying to say “Thank you”, I started to stutter and he laughed. I covered my face as if the most embarrassing thing happened to me and the whole world knows about it. He then walked up to me, still laughing as if he was trying to say “You’re welcome” and he hugged me. While I was hugging him, I felt as if this was the only form of comfort I’d ever get in a million of years….. As if I finally found that protector to keep me safe from harm. I then realized that we were still at school so I gently pulled away. We both looked at the ground and blushed. Suddenly the bell rung and it meant it was time for our last period. I’d told him that I would see him later and he said “Ok, cool” and we both went our separate ways.
When it was time to go home, I had to run to my locker so I could put some school stuff in it. As I was getting ready to head out the door, I bumped into Nicole… the same Nicole who sat there and let me get raped by a senior that I didn’t know…. The same Nicole who I thought was my best friend. She was the first to say “Hi” but I just looked at her up and down.
She then asked me “How’s Life, Sabrina?” as if she didn’t do a thing and I told her that I was doing very good without her. She then asked about how Sean and I were doing. Wait… how does she know about Sean? And we’re not dating…. Unless I wished we were… I told her that Sean and I were doing good and that we were just friends but she just looked at me up and down saying “Uh huh… I see you”. I told her that I had to go and she said “Ok, bye” and went on her merry way.
While I was walking home, my phone suddenly rings and when I look at my screen, I see a random 323 number which I thought that it was an important number but when I answer it and say my formal introduction, a familiar voice came from the other line. “How the hell did you get this number?!?!? I never gave it to you at all…” “Well… that day you fell asleep, I decided to look at your phone and I decided to play Blue’s Clues to find the number myself….. Besides, if I were to just ask you, you would’ve been very stubborn and uncooperative.” I pretended that he’d never said that last part and I reminded him about the boundaries that I’ve set for his stay. While I was talking to him, I then fell over another uneven piece of concrete and this time, there was no one here to catch my fall and I hit hands first on the concrete. Now the bad thing about it was that there was pieces of broken glass where I fell and one piece went inside the palm if my left hand. I screamed in agony for about 3 seconds and then got up and kept walking home.
When I got home, Sean was sitting in one of the patio chairs and when he saw me cringing in pain, he ran to me and I showed him the cuts on my hand and how a piece of glass went into my left palm. We went inside and I grabbed the First-Aid kit and soon enough we were playing “Hand Operation”. I kept yelling and cursing at him because of how much pain that I was experiencing. He kept telling me to chill out and yet I kept yelling at him whatsoever. Suddenly he pulled out the peroxide and when he rubbed some on my hand, I was getting ready to scream but he covered my mouth with his hand and he pierced my eyes with his. I seemed like it was torture because every time that I looked onto his eyes, I would look away but I couldn’t right at the moment. Soon enough, I couldn’t feel any sense of pain and it felt as if there wasn’t anything in my palm anymore.
Then he put a pair of tweezers in my face and when I look closer, I noticed a small piece of green glass. Now that just proves that not only does his eyes hypnotize people but also the fact that I can truly trust him. “Thank you, Sean” “No problem… my mom was a nurse and she taught me first-aid procedures on scars and bruises” I then gave him a hug and I gave him a kiss on the cheek. When I saw his face, he looked as if he had been shot with one of cupid’s love arrows. I laughed for a minute and then I left the room to go start on my homework.
***
The next day at school, Sean and I had many encounters through the halls. We would hug each other more so often and he always seemed happy. When we got home, I told him that we needed to talk and we sat down on the couch. “Sean, I know it’s been a while since we know each other but I wanna talk to you about something”. Sean looked at me as if he was asking me if he did something wrong, but I took a deep breath and I asked him “Can I trust you, Sean?”. He simply said as he grabbed my hand and held it in his “Of course, Sabrina. You’re the only person that I can trust right now”.
In that moment when he said that, I breathed in and I spilled the whole, entire dream to him. After I was done, his face was full of not only confusion but shock. In that moment, I felt as if I regretted telling him everything…. to meeting him especially. Just as I was getting ready to head to my room, he quickly grabbed my hand and we made eye contact, but this time, he looked at me as if he wanted me to stay…. like as if we were in a real relationship. It looked like he wanted to tell me something but he just didn’t know how to say it. Before I had the chance to say anything else, he started to lean in and just as his lips were getting ready to touch mine, a knock came from the door and I got up.
When I answered the door, it was Sean’s parents, which meant that it was time for him to go back home with his parents. I called Sean to the door and when he saw his parents, he had a disappointed look on his face. He told them to give him 15 minutes to gather all of his things and they agreed and walked away. When I closed the door, I had a feeling of sadness as well. Although we spent so much time together, I didn’t want him to go. I followed him upstairs so that I could help him pack his stuff.
While we were packing, he instantly stopped and he quickly pulled me in closer to him, so close that our hips were touching and that our noses almost touched. I’d never been this much closer to Sean in a minute. A few minutes later, he asked me “Will I ever see you around more?” and I quickly answered “Yes!”. We stared at each other for another 5 seconds and before I could say anything else, he leaned in and his lips touched mine.
Although I didn’t know what to do, I didn’t want this moment to end. While we were kissing, I suddenly thought about my dream…. from the moment that we looked at each other…. to imagining being with him… to know what I call my fantasy. I’ve always wanted to be like this, but I just didn’t know if he felt the same way. It feels as if sparks are flying… as if i’m letting all of my emotions go that I’ve been holding onto for half a month.
When we finally pulled away, I couldn’t help but blush. It messed me up so much that it placed me in a trance. In one ear, I can hear Sean laughing softly and it quickly snapped me out of my trance. We continued to packed his stuff and soon enough, it was time for him to go home. While I was at the front door, a tear slipped out of my eye and down my cheek. Sean quickly caught it and wiped it away. He then said “I’ve never met anyone like you, Sabrina. I will miss you more than you’ll miss me. I’ve been waiting a long time to say this to you….” he stepped back and took a deep breath and he said the 3 magic words… I LOVE YOU.
I think that was when I literally broke down in the matter of seconds (LOL). I couldn’t do anything else but hug him tightly. I never thought that this moment would happen right now and with the guy of my dreams.. literally. About 5 minutes later, his parents pulled up in their Jeep and he pulled me in for another hug. While he was walking to his car, he turned around and he said “Oh… I left something on the bed for you… You’ll love it” and he smiled and winked.
When he pulled away, I quickly ran up to my room and on my bed were 2 gifts. One was in a box and the other was lying beside it. I found a Iphone 6s and in the box, there was a golden necklace with a golden heart and inside it there was a ring. In the inside, a message was engraved and it said: “Sabrina and Sean LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS”.
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The next day, Me and Sean ran into each other in the hallways and we would hug each other as if we didn't see each other in years. Ever since then, he’s been more of a boyfriend figure to me and I will never forget that.
Tag der Veröffentlichung: 07.12.2017
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