The nightmare

Over and over I have a reoccuring nightmare from my childhood but first let me introduce myself. I'm Laila Malik (Layla) I'm 5'6" with an amazing body with curves in all the right places and perfect teeth, thanks to the braces I had to get when I was younger. I have black hair and bright blue eyes; labeling me as a freak. Oh! Did I mention that my brother is Zayn Malik from one direction? Yeah, so.... But that's not all now let's get to my nightmare. When we were younger Zayn had pushed me off the swing and started telling me how ugly I was. This was infront of all my friends since I was turning 15, and I ran away crying and ended up on the beach. I had my pocket knife with me so I put it to my wrist and dragged it across. I did that like five more times till I heard someone yelling my name. I was getting drowsy so I didn't figure out who it was as I fell to the ground, tears staining my face and pouring out of my eyes. I feel someone pick me up and their tears fall on my arms. That's when it ends. I never get farther than that but I'll tell you what happens. I find out that my best guy friend Landoyn was the one who came after me and carried me home. I figured that out when I woke up the next morning to him laying there snoring lightly with his arm around me. I smiled and kissed his cheek and his arm tightened around me and he smiled slightly. I kissed his other cheek, his forhead and nose. He leaned in and kissed my lips lightly and I was shocked. He's kissed my cheeks many times before but never my lips. I smiled and he opened his eyes looking nervous. Once he saw my smile he looked relieved and leaned in and kissed me again, slow and sweet. What I didn't know, and I thought that he didn't, is that I have liked him for a long time. Like really long. We know everything about each other making it easier to date because we know what to get each other for every occasion. Back to reality, he started to get faster but still kept it sweet, as to not pressure me into anything I didn't want. I started to run my hands up and down his chest making him shiver, I laced my fingers into his hair and pulled him closer. I wrapped my legs around his waist and he moved closer to me. He pushed me onto the bed and had me pinned as he kissed me more fiercely as I giggled. He stopped and looked at me curiously as I quickly explained, "Ticklish..." he let out a short mumble. It sounded something like oh or ah but he soon moved back to my lips and I didn't argue. We were soon making out but I didn't want to lose my virginity at age 15 so I told him, "No sex, but we can keep making out..." He nodded as I bit my lip, he understood how important my virginity is to me. He started pushing me into the bed harder and I smiled but then said," You are discusting, I haven't brushed my teeth yet!" He smiled and said, "Neither did I" I shrieked and ran into the bathroom as he chased me and took my toothbrush out of my hand and put it into his mouth. I pouted and he smiled and gave it back, after using it. 

Today is Suckish

I woke up at 6:30 sweaty and crying. I started getting ready for junior year of high school. Landoyn had asked me out and I accepted and we were happy. I had lost my virginity to him this summer, and it was amazing. He was so gentle about everything making sure I was ok when he did his thing. He had gotten us a movie at his house and we were bored so we got into a food fight. Which then led to kissing and later... well you know what happens later. So anyways back to now. I had finally been allowed to get blue tips and streaks to match the color of my eyes. Landoyn thinks its sexy, and now I think im finally able to fit in more. Not much though, I have a football and basketball playing boyfriend yet still im a weirdo... it's all Zayn's fault. Ever since he did that little stunt he had ruined my life. i put my waist length hair up into a high pony tail. But changed it to a waterfall braid. Landoyn arrived shortly after i finished my braid so i walked down in my bra and shorts to answer it. He walked in and smiled as he headed to my room. He grabbed his favorite pair of my shorts and a blue top and handed them to me and walked me to the bathroom. He walked in and watched as i changed and got ready. He got my toothbrush ready and used it before i did. I asked, "Don't you have your own tooth brush at your house??" he nooded but replied, "Yes but yours tastes like you and i like it better." I looked at him weird and he shrugged. I walked out of the bathroom and he followed. I pointed at my shoes and he picked out my black and white animal print high tops. My favorite, he already knew that. he grabbed me a purple and gold sock and a blue and black sock and put them on my feet as i put on my high tops. we headed out to his car... It was a sexy bright electric blue mustang convertable. It's almost as sexy as him. I walked out and jumped in smiling. He was in shortly after as he drove us to school and I frowned. There goes my bubbles! (that's what I call my bubbly attitude) I hoped out and automatically everyone stared, I shrunk down and hid behind Landoyn. he pulled me up in front of him and told me to hop on his back. I jumped up and told him "Hiiiyyyaaaaaaa horsey!!!!" he laughed and started walking. I laid my head onto his shoulder and fell asleep. I was woken up by his kissing me so I kissed back. "Wake up beautiful, it's time to go to first class." I groaned and replied "Carry me!!!" he chuckled and kept walking. Luckily for me we have all the same classes, thanks to his money. I played with his hair as he walked, i stroked his face then his chest. He shivered and let out a small moan from my touch I smirked and did it again. He moaned again and said "Stop or we won't make it to first period and we'll be at my house!" I smirked and whispered in his ear,"That wouldn't be so bad... would it...?" he pulled me off his back and pushed me against the lockers and kissed me then started walking. I knew I went too far, he was pacing now and I knew I had to calm him down or he'd get to stressed and have a seisure. That's just what happens when he's astressed I've only seen him do it twice, the first time I had walked in on him in the bathroom after his parents were fighting. The second time was when his mom had walked out the door and never came back, she said that it was his fault that they were fighting and that's why she was leaving. He wouldn't talk to anyone but me for three whole years. Thats the first time we ever kissed too. He started to talk again after I had cut and passed out on the beach because he had to tell everyone what he saw and what happened.

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