~Part One~

My Mother Told Me...


"Your sister is missing"

You don't seem at all sad

"The cops are searching"

You look a little glad

"You father is coming home"

I don't really care

"He'll be happy to see you"

He won't notice I'm there

"Where could she have gone?"

Why are you asking me?

"She is such a good girl"

She hasn't been good since we were three

"I need a moment alone"

You mean you need a drink

"I'll call you when supper is ready"

A glass of wine won't help you think


As I Sit Here.....


As I sit here

On your cold empty bed

The last words you spoke

Linger in my head

"Life's too short

So stop playing games"

You lived in a world

Where there is no shame

You told your white lies

People found so easy to believe

You were picture perfect

And could never be deceived

For a time period

I hated you with a passion

With your popularity

And smart sense of fashion

But now I don't understand

Why did you leave?

Did you really mean when you said

You felt like you couldn't breathe?

Where have you gone,

My dear twin sister Darcey?

Can you hear me?!

It's your sister Marcey!


At The Dinner Table....


Mom doesn't look at me

But I stare at her

This can go on all night

If that's what she'd prefer

She hands me a bowl

Without looking me in the eye

If her eyes begin to fall on me

They suddenly and quickly fall

The question is

What the hell did I do wrong?

I'm the trouble maker already

And Darcey hasn't been gone long

I look away wanting so badly

To let out a few screams

I always didn't matter to her

At least that how it seems

I play with my food

And remembered when we talked

Now I'm invisible

And she say's it's my fault

She claim that I have

become someone new

The truth is

She never had a clue

She could never be motherly

Considering she worked to much

She only knows work and wine

Never learned a gentle touch


Now That I'm Alone....


I lay here

On my bed and cry

It's funny how I made them hate me

Without a single try

I was never my parents

Favorite child

A few bad grades

And they label me wild

Dad's coming home after

Three and a half month

He's the one that always

Made me feel like a worthless runt

Appearance is ever thing

Is what he will say

Sometimes I stop and question

Is he married or gay?

But this is what I've been

Stuck with for seventeen years

So I let fall there well

Deserving tears


~Part Two~

My Name is Being Called....


I hear it but

I don't reply

Here in my bed

Is where I wish to die

I hear it again

And this time I speak

The next thing I know

I'm dragging myself to my feet

I trip my way downstairs

Rubbing my tired eyes

I know the voice that woke me

A voice I truly despise

He holds his arms out for me

And I see if he lost his mind

Dad grabs me in his arm

He has been gone for a while but he's not blind


My Father Asked Me....


"How are you?"

A little confused and tired

"Why confused?"

I thought your love for me expired

"That makes no sense. Your my daughter"

I'm sorry but I no longer believe that

"And why is that?"

I don't listen to reason. I listen to facts

"And what are you facts?"

You haven't noticed me in years

"That's not true"

Have you not seen the tears?

"Your my daughter and I love you. Stop being silly"

I'll stop being silly when you stop judging

"I'm not judging"

And your not loving

"This is ridiculous. Where is your mother?"

Gulping the wine

"Not again"

This family's special with its own rare design


Channels on The TV


I flipped through them

Carelessly and quickly

My mind is somewhere far

Where things are done differently

There is no word

To where Darcey might be

After a hour or two

No one will notice me

Cartoons are the

Only company I have

But there still not

Enough to make me laugh

I wonder if they would

Care if I left right now

I'm so sick of being bored

And I crave something loud

I grabbed my wallet

And the keys to my car

I won't say a word to them

I don't need another emotional scar

I drive away not caring

About the speed

This is the type of numbness

That Darcey might need


I Ended Up in The Mall...


It was crowded and

That's just what I need

The sound of people's happiness

Is how I'll feed

I sit on a bench

And watch people go by

I was just fine until

I caught Darcey's boyfriend's eye

I turned away quickly

But Justin coming my way

I put my hands in my head

Admitting today isn't my day


He Sits Next To Me....


"Your Marcey. Darcey's twin sister"

That's pretty obvious

"Sorry. I just never met you"

Yes you have but you only noticed one of us

"Really? I don't recall"

You had just chugged a six pack

"Are you sure about that?"

I know for a fact

"I'm sorry about you sister"

Aren't we all

"It must be hard"

Get to the point. Stop trying to stall

"Where having a party. Do you want to go?"

Your my sisters boyfriend. How sick can you be?

"It's not going to be a date or anything"

Uh...I don't know. I will have to see

"Well, here's my number if you say yes"

Thanks.I will think this over

"No problem. I"ll catch you later"

It's a free country,one party and free night in October


When I Get Home...


It was the same

Nothing had changed

They probably didn't notice my absence

No need to feel ashamed

I sat back in front of the TV

Where I belong

And listened to

The Spongebob theme song

"Where did you go?" dad asked

When he came in

I shook my head

I should have known I could never win

"Be careful ok?" he said

Leaving me alone

Careful never existed

In my little zone

I think my dad

can finally see me

Pretty soon her wont

Be able to set me free

I wish he saw me

When I was younger

His love was my food

And I was dying of hunger


~Part Three~

Later That Night....


I called up Darcey's boyfriend

And told him I was going

He said he'd pick me up

And he sounded kind of knowing

Like he knew I'd come

Because it was an offer I couldn't resist

I might be the rough child

But I hope I don't regret this

I dressed for this party

Like any other occasion

Just because it's a party

That doesn't mean its time for persuasion

I waited for the door bell to ring

And I rushed for the door

With no surprise I saw

Justin's arm around a whore

I shook my head and

Followed them out

I could feel my little

Devil horns starting to spout


Party Time...


Music blasted and

That was all I could hear

I didn't even hesitate

When I grabbed to cans of beer

I gulped them down

Like a natural drunk

Some guys demanded I'd have one more

I did and proved I'm not a punk

By the eight can and a shot

of something I didn't know

I was completely loose

And ready to let go

I danced with several guys

Not caring that they started to touch

My mind wasn't working

Did I have to much?

An hour later

I was drinking a little more

Thank god a couple hands caught me

Before I hit the floor

Justin finally found me

And he frowned

Wasn't this his party?

Wasn't this his crowd?

He dragged me from the party

And into the car

As he drove my head begun to spin

And home seemed pretty far

He carried me to the house

And knocked on the door

When nobody answered

He frowned some more

He reached in my pocket

And pulled out my keys

He open the door and

Set me on the couch a little more pleased

He sat across from me

And I tried to stand

He caught before

I had a chance to land

The room was spinning

And I was completely wasted

The night was over and

It time to replace it


The Hangover....


My head throbbed

And I wanted to hurl

My dad rubbed my back

While my head spun in a swirl

"It's ok," he whispered to me

And I wanted to cry

Now he's being so nice

It all feels like a lie

I threw up in a bucket

And caught my mother's worried stare

I wondered why she was watching me

Or why she is even there

My parents? Finally giving

me their freaking time of day

It's freaking impossible

There's no freaking way

Yet here they are

Looking worried about me

It kind of made me wish

Darcey was here to see

She always said she wished

They'd tried to understand

That I'm a different type of person

And I should be accepted as I am

Where are you Darcey?

Things are finally start to change

I need you right now

And your not within my range


Mom and Her Questions...


"Where did you go?"

I answered honestly, to a party

"How much fun did you have?"

I don't know. You have to ask my friends Corona and Bacardi

"Do you think this is a joke?"

I find it quite funny

"You could have got killed!"

You would have enjoyed the money

"How could you put us through this now?!"

Because now is the perfect time

"What the hell is wrong with you?"

Nothing. I'm perfectly fine


Gentle Dad Says...


"I understand why you went"

Do you really understand it?

"Of course. Its a reaction to your sister"

It's a result of being neglected

"Neglected by who, Marcey?"

You, mom and everyone else

"Is that how you feel?"

Me and Darcey have always been by ourselves

"Is that how you both feel?"

That's how we always feel

"I didn't know that"

We felt like we weren't real

"I'm sorry. I had no idea"

That's exactly how we kept it

"Why did you wait until now?"

Darcey is gone. This problem had to be corrected

"Your mother doesn't know?"

And I doubt she'd hardly care

"Yes she does"

Have you seen that evil stare?

"She's a good woman behind all that work"

Let me know when that good woman awakes

"Why don't we talk to her?"

She's already pissed. Let's not for her sake's

Impressum

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Tag der Veröffentlichung: 01.09.2011

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