One chilly morning I walked out the door and took a cab. As i went into the cab the driver asked me were will you be going tonight young lady. When the man turned to look at me i was falling in love with his crystal blue eyes. His eyes were as light blue as the sea when it was first created. His hair was beautiful i couldnt belive this man was looking into my eyes for a long time until the poeple behind us in traffic honked the horn and ruined our moment. This always happened to me when i fall in love. I hate my life when this happens people always want to ruin my love life with somebody. So i told the young man what is your name. he said "Ryan". he asked me for my name and i said " Mary". i told him to take me to mall. When i got there i got out the cab and he said" may we meet again soon" i said "sure". on my way into the mall i sat down and wrote him a letter. The letter said" When i first saw you i fell in love with your eyes. your as beautiful as when a sunset occurs. I hope that we can meet again and get to know each other. but before i close the envolope read my heart then open the letter. Then it was the next day and i didnt see him at all what could have happened. my heart felt like it was blue and epmty. He completed my heart every morning and now it has nothing. My head has no thought now. I cant go anywere. I will be stuck here in my house until he will come back. I wonder if i should just let him go and get another man. Maybe he was sick. Maybe he was cheating on me. Maybe he just doesnt like me. Then voices in my head were saying " stay with him" others were saying "break up with him". I coudnt make up my mind my life was crazy from know on I have to figure out what is going on with him.

The next day

dear journal, I hope that the person i fell in love with will be there if he is not there its time that i will move on because he will never ever want to see me again.

On this day i walked outside again and he wasnt there i knew that somethiong was wrong and bad with this ryan guy. He seemed nice at first but know he is just cruel. I turned on the tv and on the news it said ryans named and it said that ryan has got into a car accident after dropping off this young lady named mary. He was falling in love so much that it took him over his driving and he crashed the young man is know in the hopital and we dont know what will happen untill tommaor wor later on in the day this is your breaking news story.


this was horrible and i couldnt belive this at all. Maybe i should break up with him this love thing is getting him to focused on me and not on his work that he needs to do. im going to the hospital and tell him this.


The Hospital


I asked the lady in the front desk if she can see if ryan is avalible to talk to and see if he is ok and give him the message of mine. the lady said can you please give me a just a second to call the docotr and check first before i can let you go in and speek with the young man. I said "ok that is fine". When the young lady said that he is avalible to talk to i knocked on the door and ryan was there i said to him Ryan im going to have to break up with you. I have to because your getting way to focused on me and not your job and i dont want that to happen so its over and im sorry to tell you this on a bad day you have had your accident. but i had to tell you sooner or later. He said " its fine".


Blue Heart


When I went home everything was quiet and silent. I thought about ryan and hope that he felt better after what had happened to him i hoope that we can still be friends. from know on i want to be friends with people. I know that life is hard. And i know have a blue heart but it still remains red and blue toegther no matter what.

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Tag der Veröffentlichung: 27.12.2010

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