FORBIDDEN
Stop
This is not the way
I didn't mean it
It was an accident
Not here,not now
Yes
Here and now
You are all mine
Body and soul
A deal was made
Now I'm here to collect
Please
Somebody will see
Hear me gasping
I cannot contain it
You're invading my space
Be gone before I cause-
Threat
You know better than that
I taught you how
Get it over with
We will see who gets out
Alive or dead
Disgust
That is all I feel
Leave me be
Worthless you are to me
Release me now
Liar
Even I know when you mean something
Drop the act and let me in
So deep that you cannot breathe
All the way until I imprint on you
The truth is what you want
Come and embrace it here with me
Enough
Your words do not-
What
Feel me there
Feel me everywhere
Call me babaric
I take that which is mine
And make it never want to leave
I won't
I am yours
Take me home
My home
Your home
Our home
STAIRS
Spiraling and twining
When will this end
My feet cannot take anymore
Up and down up and down
On and on we go
Caring not of the border
To fall would be torture
Bending the rules,you say
I need to stop now
Feeling nausiated
It's too high up
Need to feel the ground
No idea love could do this
Take you so high above
Beyond dreams and desires
Over all my troubles
It was the climb
The sweat and pain
Despair looming
Random accusations
That brought
You home to me
We got through it
To get to the top
Dreams don't come true
For reality is much more real
There's no script to follow
Just pure raw emotions
I say that I hate you
Because I love you
Too much for comfort
For with you,I'm selfless
CONFUSION
Confusion
This is the basic ingredient in our daily infusion
Always with the unnecessary and sudden intrusions
What are you up to, who are you doing in seclusion
That's what society wants to know because of moderation
Conclusion
The highest level we are able to jump without exertion
Hearsay from unreliable sources becomes our religion
No one is spared for everything changes after a mention
It can be positive and uplifting or a great destruction
Realisation
Other people's opinions are just simple considerations
Their own personal thoughts in simplification
Each person has their own and they shouldn't be limitations
All can live in peace together free from pointless restrictions
I WAS THINKING
I was thinking
Maybe we should go hiking
Be with nature,that sort of thing
Take dangerous selfies
Buy awesome souvenirs
Which we promise never to take off.
I was thinking
How about a night out in town
A movie,dinner and even dancing
There's a karaoke bar not far away
We could stop by before going home
We can pick a duet as long as we stay on key.
I was thinking
We should go to the beach
Feel the wind through our hair
Build sand castles and other things
Go for a swim or just run around near the shore
You could kiss me as the sun sets to make sure it wasn't a dream.
I was thinking
I should stop thinking and begin doing
I will take you out into the meadow
You will tell me what you see
As I turn you around and round
For I am blind and you have no legs.
SUNNY SIDE UP
Sunny side up
But my side is so dark and cold
Everywhere I turn all I see
The worst is the pain deep inside
Do you see their looks and body language
None can dare to be near me let alone speak
Nobody is an island? You haven't met me
I am an iron-steel fortress standing alone
Their taunts hurt me deeply
But you fight fire with fire to beat it
I call them battle scars for they get me through
Hooked on it like a drug I don't need cocaine
My happy place when the pain subsides
The emotional pain dies down as I close my eyes
I know I will open my eyes and the pain will return
This is not a solution but for now it's working
I retreat into myself for I feel alone
I didn't realise that I am my own worst enemy
All the taunts were bad but my mind reliving them was worse
It's like my imagination took hold making it seem like hell
As I walked alone I looked around through all my gloom
Everything was happy,normal,at least to me
I looked in the mirror and saw a broken person
One I couldn't recognize yet it was me
How is my prince going to find let alone recognize me
I look and feel like shit,who am I kidding
I want to live a long life and have a family
Have someone call me mom or dad while whining
Teach my child to ride a bike for I never knew how
Have a bond with them,watch them grow and be there for them
It hit me like a large boulder,this is my life!
You don't tell me how to live it cause it's mine
I need to take control of my life right now
Make the things I want happen,for me,fairly
It is then that I came to my senses
Someone out there is just like me or worse
I need to help because they have no one
Now they will have me,I will fight not just for them but with them
I was born so as to enjoy life
Live it to the fullest
Make mistakes and learn from them
No one should stand in my way,I will not let them
Will you?
EYES WIDE OPEN
I opened my eyes today
To the blinding light of day
It burned as I felt a ray
Invade my pupil and not go away.
So I decided to look around
I'm awake, my feet are on the ground
After all there's a lot to be found
If one simply didn't make a sound.
So much colour, wonder and beauty
How did I miss it,all this bounty
Enough for me, for you even your aunty
I want it all,I want it now,for all in my party.
Yes,I want to claim that great Grail
Although I'd really rather not break a nail
For I am not strong but a bit frail
In addition, I might just go plain pale.
Success is never easy
Enjoying life around is never sleazy
As long as it's moderate;not too cheesy
Keeping sight of the important things which are free.
Open your eyes.
MY DEAREST LOVE (Chocolate)
His scent,so intoxicating
Just one whiff,and I am his
I ran my fingers,over his god-like body
Delicately,for fear that it's a dream
He's strong,always dependable
Won't bring me down,but to the highs of pure ecstasy
Nice and firm:I lick my lips,I can almost taste him
He teases me,I cannot hold on anymore
I make the first move,he wanted that all along
One taste,that's all it takes
I let out a long moan,trying to savour the delectable flavour
Before I know it he's gone,I feel bereft and angry
Why?! Why?!,was it me?
Did I come on too strong,push him away?
All that is left,his clothes with his scent
I want to weep,for a love that was gone too soon
My dearest love, Godiva
EMPTY
Everything is falling apart
Why did you have to break my heart?
I thought we'd live and be a part
Of something true like pure art
See,I don't want to pull a cart
Full of dead dreams looking like a nut
For allowing myself to get hurt
But now I realise it was all an act
Lying to me 'bout where you at
Expecting me to believe that at last
I'd found someone to make a life pact
Thank God you're now in my past
WORD OF ADVICE
Look up into the vast open sky,reach for the stars only if you may
Don't look down just aim forward,push on and make it you coward!
You're always looking down on yourself,only seeing the imperfections
Get this straight from me,that's what makes you one of a kind
So maybe you don't fit in the status quo,but just so you know
That's not meant for you,it's meant for the purpose of ranking
How many choose to defy it,refuse to be bound and enslaved by it?
Strive to achieve the unattainable,just because they will to do so?
Enough looking over your shoulder,neck cramps will just follow you
Start searching very diligently,to find food to the soul straight up!
Direct your eyes completely inward,see that which is in plain sight
Your true entire unique self,the one you nearly left and forgot existed
Revel in all your success,uncover your sole purpose in the world
Bring about positive and building change,leave out all destructive thoughts
Love without hiding,that which comes by without planning
Hold it fast and close,because when you know:you'll know
I'M ME,THANKS TO YOU
Loving you is like watching paint dry
See,you have no clue what you really want
Got me going up and down,up and down
And it's got me feeling really hazy
I wish you'd just choose between black and white
I'm sick of you being neither hot nor cold
Telling me all these lame excuses
You're starting to sound like a broken record
I loved you with an open heart
And you just filled it with dirt
I would be lying that it doesn't still hurt
But all in all,I'm me,thanks to you
Was out and about changing every part of me
Into something you said you'd rather have
Hoping that you'd love me for how I had become
I was too blinded by my many insecurities
I was told that love can at times be blind
I guessed you'd lead me in the right direction
Then I saw right through your theatrical act
Soon enough to call it quits and move on
I loved you with an open heart
And you just filled it with dirt
I would be lying that it doesn't still hurt
But all in all,I'm me,thanks to you
POETRY
Poetry.
The only way to put words to my feelings
That I could never say to your face
Secrets of my hidden smile
Whispers of the stolen glances.
Poetry.
An escape to a world I control
Where I am ruler and subject
Oppressor and oppressed
Loved as well as hated.
Poetry.
Weaving words into a fabric
Painting a canvas in my imagination
Tell of the real me existing inside
One I choose to hide no longer.
HONESTY
What truly is honesty?
Saying the whole truth and nothing but
Whether it hurts or mends a soul, whatever
It's stating facts, right?
Where can I find honesty?
Is it in the soft caress of my lover
Or hidden in the depths of my mother?
I can find it, right?
What does honesty look like?
A bright and blinding light
Shinning in the darkness?
I can see it, right?
How do I know honesty?
Does it reveal itself to people
Or hides waiting eagerly to be found?
It does exist, right?
I don't know anything dealing with honesty!
But it would mean a whole lot to me
If you would bring it with you from time to time
And that right there, is honest honesty.
MY GIRLS (Alcoholism)
She was right in front of me,
The dimly lit and smoke filled room
Did little to hide her colourful vibrant body hugging dress
I entertained her antics at conversation
Although all I wanted was a taste
A taste that she hid at her very core
I shift in my seat as she continues her seductive game
My dear, Patty; none could ever compare.
Her neck, so long and inviting
Her mouth, the envy of many a Kylie Jenner
Her voluptuous body, a temptation I had to touch
Her voice is so still and soothing
She asks to dance; I oblige
Agile in movement, I watch her in fascination
Sweat provocatively slides down her silky smooth skin
The temptation is too great
I move in skillfully and our mouths meet
She fills me with her sweet nectar
And I, nothing but a deprived desperate soul
Lap up every single saving drop
Until nothing is left but the burn in my throat
Not yet fully satisfied but grateful to you
I look over at your identical sisters; Vicky, Jenny, Brandy
In awe I seek to devour them, inside and out
There is no picking or choosing
I want them all, I want them now
Even my ‘on again - off again’ girlfriend, Mary Jane, can join us.
Oblivious of the inner turmoil within
The emptiness; the hollow void that remains
Constantly trying to evade; mistakes I’ve made
In my sporadic escapades; trying to win life over with a serenade
I try to wean off them but I’m captured in a choke-hold
In love with the way she hurts me, could the devil be any more irresistible or delectable?
Twirling me around on her little finger
Pirouetting me back and forth in a deathly waltz
My thoughts are not my own, movements controlled; I’m a puppet on a string
Priorities are shed off; all that remained was us on the dance floor
Echoing silence each time
The midnight clock struck twelve
With misery as the forlorn glass slipper was left
As I followed them into the everlasting height
Worn out and beaten, my demons try to outrun and catch up
But I have fuel to get even further; Jamie holds my hand
She leads me back to my lovers who fight for me and entice me
They lay their hands on me and turn me into a believer
Yes, oh yes! I truly believe!
Impressum
Texte: The Author J. M. Rivers
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Lektorat: The Author J. M. Rivers
Übersetzung: ONLY AVAILABLE IN ENGLISH
Tag der Veröffentlichung: 25.04.2015
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To everyone who believes without seeing.