Chapter One

The Darkness has been following me since I started thinking negative. They say negative thoughts attract the Darkness. I didnt do it on purpose. My life was all ready crappy and I didnt want to pretend that it was some perfect life. When it wasnt. Why pretend? Why be fake? And why be someone I'm not? I have to be who I am. And show everyone I am who I am today because I made changes I went through so much. Im making something of myself. Im rising and then I end up falling. The Darkness doesn't even make it better. It makes everything worse.
Okay, so worse is an understatement. More like it makes everything else really tragic. It ruins anything it can touch, and that's me. My name is Kara Winston, and I have constantly been on the run. Of course, I need company, so I have River Dayko (My best-friend)along side with me. He has to deal with the same thing as me. "Where are we headed today?" he asks.
I shrug. "I don't know. What sounds exciting to you?" I ask. He considers.
"Where are we again?"
"I think we're in, uh, maybe California?" He smiles wide.
"Okay. Let's go to the red carpet." Ugh! The only place that I hate. The red carpet. People get all glammed up to look ridonculous for one night. What the hell is that?
"Really? You know I hate that place." His smile gets wider.
"Why do you think we're going?" I groan. He's such a pain in my ass.
"Fine. But then we go to a recording studio, and I'm going to force you to sing." He's really good at singing, but he has a phobia of singing in front of people other than, well, me. He frowns.
"Ugh! Fine. We'll do it your way. But I am not doing laundry or singing. Got that?" I laugh, but that's my only response. "Good. So we're clear. Oh, and haven't you noticed something today?" I shake my head. "The darkness. It isn't around us. I mean, you actually laughed. When was the last time you did that?" I thought about it, and realized he was right. I felt good inside. It was weird.
"Yea. I can't believe they left us-" I was cut off by a roaring sound coming westward. What the hell? It was just a place. Crashing! Holy shit! Uh, looks like the darkness left us alone, but went after them! Ugh!!!! I hate my life. And that's all I'm gonna say. "You were saying?" I ask.
"That the darkness loves to NOT

give us a break. It makes us think it is, but then it comes right back at us." I smile.
"You got that right, River. Now, let's bolt!" We run like there is no tomorrow. In the background, I can hear the darkness almost laughing at us. As if it had a heart. One thing that I've learned from my life is this: You can't always get what you want. No matter how hard you try. In this screwed up world I pay for crap I didnt even do. Sometimes things go according to plan. Or they end up screwing us over. Wonderful ain't it? And if you didn't know, I was using sarcasm. You probably think this whole story is fun, because you don't even know what it is about. Well, FYI, my life is no fun. It sucks. And if you want to deal with anyone about how your life is worse than mine, come to me.
Unless you've lived my life, don't judge me because you don't know, never have, and never will know every little detail and thing about me.

Chapter Two

People assume crap. They think they know everything but why? I want to be normal. I don't want to spend my entire life running from the Darkness. On the other hand I am with my best friend River. He's not so bad. At time he can be so fucking annoying. But then at other times he is the greatestt person that I have. I'm grateful for him. And thankfully I don't have to go through this alone. He understands how I feel. He understands the pressure I go through. He understands how scared outta my mind I am. Do I love him? For me theres only been him. No one else. Only River.
The Darkness wont leave us alone. Is it warning us? Thats stupid its trying to kill us. How long is this going to last? Forever, I think, answering my own question. I do that a lot. I talk to myself when I want to.
River taps me on the shoulder, and I turn around furious. "Woah," he says. "Sorry. I didn't know you were in that

kind of mood." He laughs harshly. I look at him curiously.
"Why the hell were you bothering me? I told you to leave me alone when I went in here." He nods.
"Sorry. I forgot." I stand up, and grab his wrist.
"And that's where you're wrong. You see, I didn't ask you. I asked River.

Not the fucking darkness. So," I twist the wrist, and watch the darkness leave his body. The real River screams. Oh shit! "Sorry, sorry. The darkness was..." my voice trails off.
"I get that, but what I don't get is why you're still hurting me." I release my grip on him. He rubs his wrist immediately.
"Sorry. I'm sort of pissed off that my dad's darkness found us." Yea. My dad controls the darkness, and that's why my life sucks. He wants me to start controlling the darkness. I cant do that. Its way to much. I dont want to end up Evil like him. Im way better than that and I can be better than that. I stare into River's eyes. Emerald green. Without hesitation I lean closer and kiss him. He kisses me back. He.Kissed.Me.Back. I need to process this carefully.
We stop kissing, and I just remembered I just was kissing him. I wasnt supposed to kiss him. Im not even supposed to fall for him. I guarentee he wouldn't catch me. River isn't a lover. He's more like a fighter. At times its hard. I gotta man up. What the fuck? Im not even a guy. I need to forget what my heart wants and focus on what I need to do. I walk away from River.
He trys following me anf frantically keeps calling my name. "Kara! Kara come back! We need to talk." Yea right. I walk into the kitchen casually. Remember how we said we were going to California. Well we did and we got a hotel room. The kitchen is surprisingly big. I try to make some bacon since it's about lunch time. Finally River gave up on trying to talk about the kiss. I finish making the bacon. I actually put it with lettuce and bread. So a BLT in other words. I make one for River. I hand him a plate. Ignoring the fact that he's pissed and that I kissed him.
"What the fuck is this?" He's sitting in a lounge chair.
"Lunch smart one" I hand him the plate. He grudingly takes the damn plate and eats. He dosn't make any eye contact with me. He doesn't even talk.


~River~
If she's not gonna bring up the kiss. Niether am I. Two can play at this game. It's gonna be a long week. Long ass week. She is so fucking stubborn. She was the one who kissed me first. But then I uh, kissed her back. One minute she's hot and in the next she's cold. I cant read her. But I know whats on her mind. She's thinking about the kiss. She has to be. Maybe she digs me? Digs? Who uses digs anymore. I guess I do. I like her. I have been wanting to tell her for awhile. I dont want her to hurt me. She could break my arm in an instant. Faster than an instant.
Love is so fucking complicated. Im not even sure thats what to call what happened with me and Kara.


~Kara~
River just stares at the plate. "I dont have germs, you can eat" I throw a piece of bacon at him.
"Why do you keep trying to change the subject. If you dont want to bring up what you did then why did you do it? Why did you kiss me?" He sits up straight. I wasnt expecting this.
"I." I sigh "It, was a mistake. Nothing serious. So what if I did feel something for you. Maybe even wanting to be more than friends." I cant talk about my feelings. Outside it begins to rain. I drop my plate and run outside into the rain. Im not a person who loves talking about feelings. The rain has completely soaked me. Great! Now my hair is gonna stink like wet dog. That smell is so

attractive. I sit under a tree. Yes, not the most smartest thing to do when it's raining and thundering. Im acting like such a fricken priss. River comes up and sits with me under the tree. We dont say anything. I then lay my head on his shoulder. He stiffens. He relaxes. He kisses me on my forehead. See! He's an amazing guy. He could do so much better than me.
"Kar?" His cute nickname for me. He tilts my chin to so he can see my face. His eyes are full of concern.
"Yea?"
"I love you" He leans and kisses me. Best damn kiss ever! I sound so sappy. Fooey.

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